Monday, October 16, 2006
yay!people,EOY IS OFFICIALLY OVER!it's kinda late to say this,but i had reasons!i was spending time clearing all the messages choking my inbox,catching up with my story books and sleeping!you can't go on without sleep.XD.alll are important things!
hmm.so let's see what's there to talk about today.em.ok,talk about my EOY marks.it's wasn't really good,but at least had loads of improvement from midyear.i did my family and i proud!haha.so far all A's and B's maybe a C?don't quite remember,might update about it when i confirm my marks.haha.nothing much happened today,so i shan't talk much about it.i bet it's boring to listen to me rant about a chinese base school and my school life right.
ok,talk about what happened just now.actually nothing much,but i really like to talk about it.[my blog is for me to rant about things.tentatively making it sound like i am a depressed person.don't get me wrong,i use a blog differently from others and that difference is for me to DESTRESS and let go of any ANGER.=)].back to the point,i was looking through my friendster profile trying to clear the messages and i chanced upon some of my friends' profiles.hmm,how should i put it?it's more like the profiles left in a dark corner collecting dust and finally someone finds them.yup,had that feeling when saw it.anyway,when i look through their photos,i had a wierd feeling and thought."what would have happened to us if i didn't break our friendship?would we be the bestest best friends made known on earth or would we also have ended up like we did in the end?"it wasn't the sad feeling i had 2-3 years ago.how to explain?it wasn't sadness or regret,it was more like 'maybe it's fate' kind of a feeling.neither sad nor happy.just like that.i was sad last time,now,i just feel like maybe it was the best way for all of it to end.we are still friends right?haha.
would it been better if i just left for france years ago.for music?for dance?or for fashion designing?i know it would have been better if i left.at least memories is what's gonna keep us together.if i returned 4 years later,maybe we could still keep in contact and maybe be great friends again.it's just never gonna be the same right?let's say it was the best time of my life.never had such great friends when i was young and never gonna have anymore in the future.thought it would be great if i opened up thinking i would get great friends in this new environment,but it proved me wrong.got hurt time and time again,not gonna be stupid anymore.best friends do not exist in this world,at least not for me.i will be strong and independent for myself and leave this country maybe 5 years later.hopefully never coming back.* punches fist in the air! *don't get me wrong again,i really appreciate the great time you gave me and showed me what best friends really were.but i was hurt[may or may not be because of you] and so 'best friends' ended for me years ago.i died,was dead and now reborn.i was wrong too...and i am very sorry.well,i bet you don't think much of it anymore because you have another group of great friends.unfortunately i don't.
whatever it is,i will never regret knowing you guys.you all were great.
jaykwan is back in the states now.I MISS YOU BROTHER.haha.love you loads.come back soon.i really need someone to talk to now.=)
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