Friday, September 08, 2006
hey people,i am back.hmm,i don't think i can post much but i will still post.you got to let me think what to post first.
ok,em..i went out on thursday.not really go out.but went to school for extra lessons which we call ssp.then went out for lunch with xinyi and went shopping in j8.then we went to the library.saw alot of people i know,what a small world.anyway,we went back to j8 when adrain called xinyi.i made him pay for a bag xinyi liked and then i went home.quite a sad life.lol.
today was even more boring,tried to finish my homework but obviously ain't working.so i am here to blog.ok,i have a question for all the girls out there.have you all ever thought what type of a man would you marry?haha.random,i know.ain't my fault.haha.anyway,i did.this afternoon.
i like boys/men who dance street style[hiphop,breakdance,popping and locking and so on] and have no problem putting on a suit.XD.love it.
i don't mind him having tattoos but not too many and only black gothic type.no dragons.
i don't mind him having earholes but the most 2.
would he be the type that says he loves me but those words never did touch me because his mind was somewhere else?or would he be those that touched me deeply?i don't want any sweet talker.
would he be the type that holds my hands and go through thick and thin with me?or would he be those that leaves me when i am in a crisis?i don't want a coward.
would he be the type that dares to take me out and show to the whole world that i am his girlfriend?or would he be the type of guy that is afraid that the world knows who i am?i don't want a loser.
would he be the type that thinks of me all the time?or would he just forget about me when he is out with his friends checking out other girls?i don't want a jerk.
would he be the type that treat me like his everything?or would he just play on me even when i am with him?i don't want a bastard.
would he be the type that would even bring me out to parks and sit there and listen to me?or would he shove me away when he has had enough of me?i don't want that to happen.
would he bring me happiness and laughter?or would he just bring me sadness and bitterness?
that's not emo ok.it's just that i think and i think alot.maybe this is kinda why i don't have any boyfriends at all.afraid of being hurt?afraid he will cheat on me and have GOD knows how many girlfriends as well?afraid of going in too deep and be left with nothing but sadness?YES.i am afraid of that.
met a guy that is really great.have no problem dancing and fitting into suits looking slick and stylish.haha.but would he be a player?a jerk?a bastard?a sweet talker?a loser?a coward?an asshole?or would he plainly devote himself to me and we would never be seperated till death do us apart?i really don't know and i don't wish to try.one day,all these thoughts would dissolve and i would slowly forget about you.i can do it...can i?now that you are so far away from me.i am starting to miss you already even though you aren't gone yet.how am i going to cope if you really go and maybe never even come back again?how long would it take me to finally find you where you are?i honestly don't know,but i do hope that you remember me.i will keep thoughts of you somewhere unknown to others but always somewhere near me.till i finally found you,this is all i can do..i think i would just spend my whole life looking at you from afar.
o well,confessions of a broken heart?haha.nice.anyway.recently felt really sick talking to someone,i don't know how to explain that feeling.but i just feel like vomitting whenever i talk to that person.whenever i receive messages from that person,i just don't feel like replying at all.i don't know why.i just feel like switching off my handphone and changing my handphone no so that i would never ever receive messages from that person again.whenever that person calls me,home or handphone,i just don't feel like picking up that call and just want it to keep ringing until that person puts it down and gives up.am i bad?maybe i am,but sorry,you are getting on my nerves a little too much.
ok,that's all there is to it then.seeya.
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