Monday, July 24, 2006
ok,i had time so i came to blog a little.hmm,how was my day?not even close to "ok".it was horrible.besides some stuff i won't even want to dirty my blog by mentioning it the rest of the day was bad.
had history test today,it was HORRIBLE and i freaking mean it.ok,maybe it wasn't that bad but still.i just want to exaggerate a little because of the lousy history teacher miss fu shu fen.i have no regrets mentioning her in my blog.she DOES NOT come close to deserving my respect for her.why must she come?why must all the GOOD and i mean seriously GOOD teachers have to go?why must mr quek leave zhonghua?why must miss loo leave zhonghua?WHY?all the good teachers,well,i don't mean that there aren't anymore good teachers left in zhonghua,it's just few,too few.this just prove that zhonghua sucks.i know why mr quek wanted to leave and this is all thanks to miss tan hwee pin.you think you are all that great?you should be cued,NO ONE LIKES YOU.o well.i think i am flunking history,not because of content,but because of how i answered my questions.sighs,trainee teachers and new and young teachers all SUCK.no wonder the standards in zhonghua is dropping.ALL THANKS to the principal and these teachers.
wasn't feeling too good today as you know.people kept asking me if i was ok.of course i said ok,what else can i say?it was not PMS.how do you expect me to tell you i have problems with that damm person and i wish that person was dead.and whenever i have problems,i would go dancing,but now i CAN'T.why?why is GOD so unfair.you won't understand.no one would ever understand.the pain when you have so much problems bogging you down and yet the one thing that can actually comforts you is no longer there.my passion,my love,my wish,my hope,my everything..GONE.gone in just one night.gone in a flash.gone without a sign.it's just not fair.ok,now you all know.milky pj,both of you were right.i am not ok.i worked so hard for the next performence,this is what i get.I AM NOT OK AT ALL.but what can i do?i have acted to be ok for so long.it's time for me to let out all these pain and suffering i have.but no one can ever share it with me,cause i have no real friends that i can relate to.i feel tired and i want to give up.obviously i am sad.so all of you can stop thinking that you know how i feel because none of you are experiencing what i am experiencing now.no one ever will.i want to leave this school right now.2 more years sounds little,but i just can't wait to leave.i don't want to keep in contact with anyone at all.i don't want any reminiscence of this place.a place full of hurt and problems.
ok then,after saying everything i had in mind and heart,i feel so much better now.i will live on ans that's what i will tell myself everyday.so i can leave this school in one piece.my time here is up.
the stage is a training groud,the world is my stage.
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