okays.peeps im finally here!hahas.marcus boy,i noe you have been making me update,so here i m one month later.hahas.chunny!mommie here to update le.hahas.thankx xinyun.you rock too.shir.i guess ou waited long enuf for a new post.hahas.
anyways.sab, you asked me what would i do if everything turns against me rite?i told you i nided some tym to answer dat,but today i finally realised dat i didnt nid tym to think,its already happening to me.ziyu said she would move on.joy said she would commid suicide.evangelina said she would give up in everything.my case?i have been stucked at the point of unhappiness repeating the same thing over and over again.im tired.im sick.i wanna move on.i cant.im stuck.i realise after dat incident.i lost everything.everything.sab, i finally understand why you asked dat question.sab,i noe you wanna help me.=).i thank you for dat.but i lyk to face it on my own.im glad you all wanna help me.but.its hard to understand.im just not me anymore.im not worth it.sab.sowie baby.=).love you all.let me just live my life lyk dat den.i dunt wan my hopes getting too high.AGAIN.so baby.i rather cry myself to sleep and live on with it.i will still go to classes.meet you all dere.all dancers out dere.you all are my darlings.thankx for all the help you all gave me.=).
today.went to eat with kazan at mac.den we stupidly walked back to sch together with our heavy bags to meet shir,thing,ziyu.lols.a bit siao.den me and kazan left to take 58 to go home.ya.dats kinda lyk wat happened today.i went home a bit early today.so the clouds were extremely pretty.it was flawless.beautiful in my eyes.lovely.i stared at them.and i started remembering of you.i miss you girl.=).hope your doing great.im doing fine.i think.just getting worst these days.im starting to lose interest in alot of things.but i decided.i will think no more.and concentrate on my studies.guess no more msn and blogs.=).so peeps out dere.dunt bother coming anymore.=).thankx for visiting thou.
sab.you asked me why do i smile all the tym wen i hurt so badly inside.so im here telling you why.[cause your not online].hahas.sab.i cant go on crying and looking sad can i?well.dats why i smile.i laugh.pretending nothing happens.but i do tell you all my problems dunt i?so.dats why i nid you all so much.=).i love you guys.but you gotta understand dat no one can help me.at all.i will face it alone.=).byebye darlings.=)
