Tuesday, March 29, 2005
okay...today...i had an okay tym in school...its was fine...u cant expect a fantastic tym wen im in school...
anyways...the onli disturbbin thing was dat miss nai wanted to see me...anyway...not much...its juz to tell me that i failed both my higher chinese test...so she wans to gimme tution...so wat can i say?anybody dat gave me tution has no effect on me...well...wat ya expect...naw i dunno wats wrong wit me...i m startin to b on guard on everything dey do to me...everything she whispers about...im losin it...im losin control of my own pathetic life...
i got 33/48 for science...n almost got killed by my mum...dad didnt giv a damm...his work is simply more important den me...chinese i got 21/50...mum has nothing to say coz i alwaes fail it...i got 19/30 for english...i dunt dare to tell mum at all...it was suppose to be 21 but dey minus marks because of formay...maths i got 22/30 got scoldeed by mum again...as per normal...dad didnt care at all...i got lit i think i got 17/25 i almost got hacked up by my mum...same...dad didnt care at all...as thou im a nobody...a no one...i hate my life...
the more i live my pathetic life...the more i think im lyk johnny from the outsiders...juz dat i m better off...my mum is not a selfish slob...n my dad dunt get drunk...but he does beats me for every lil thing i do...n my mum alwaes scolds me...i will never satisfy dem...im alwaes behind my brother...y is my brother so clever?i alwaes wonder...m i born stupud?or m i juz plain stupid?one day i will find dat ans...i hate church...i hate school...i dunt think i will ever hav anyone to support me in wateva i do anymore...i hate myslef...y was i born?well...no one will eva noe...i giv my life to god naw...so he can do anything he wans to me...let me live or let me die...i will still thank god for wat he had given me...great frens...pals dat i will keep foreva...thankx grace dork n beef for spendin tym wit this pathetic person...thankx mingying for being my consillor...thankx ivy for bein my hao peng you...thankx xinhui for singing wit me...thankx ophe n huiling for juz bring my frens...
i think...no one will eva understand me...u dunt noe wat its lyk wen nothing feels alright...no u dunno wat its lyk to b lyk me...naw for the lyrics of my song...enjoy n absorb...its totally haw i feel...'Welcome to my life' simple plan...dere is a simple plan concert tomolo n im not part of it...haw much more can my life b pathetic?
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like meTo be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
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10:57 PM
