shadow in my heart

2007-02-14T00:00:00.000-08:00

HEY PEOPLE!I am back to post yet again.Sorry that the blog has been dead for some time,kinda hectic lifestyle now but i have taken out time again today to post!

Let's start with something that happened way before and it's the FAHRENHEIT'S sing and sign session which was held on the 28 Jan.I know it's quite long ago,but i still want to write something
about it.

This is the board with all the information on it.just got bored while waiting for it to start.Was there since 9am to queue up for their signature.

This is the four of them.
Left-right: wuchun,yan ya lun,wang dong cheng and chen yi ru.

Haha.This is a super good view of wu chun!LOVE him to nitty bitty.Haha.

This is chen yi ru and wang dong cheng with his head turned back.

This is wang dong cheng and chen yi ru looking up.Haha.

Sorry,this is the best picture i could get of yan ya lun.He seldom looks up.

OK!That's about it.I don't really listen to chinese songs and i don't really think that theirs is very good.I just want to become their background dancers in the near future or for luo zhi xiang,either one,i don't mind.XD.

Anyway,it's valentine's day today and mr wong told us the origin of this day.Haha,isn't that fun?lol.Anyway,took a few pictures with my real good friends but i won't post it here,it's in my friendster so you will only get to see it if you are my friend.HOPE THAT EVERYONE IS HAVING A BALL OF A TIME DURING THIS YEAR'S VALENTINE'S DAY.Wishing all the lovers around this world that you all will stay together forever.

Quote from mr wong which was from another guy,"If you love the person,let him/her go.If they come back to you,then you are meant to be together.If they never come back again,then let it be."Although i don't hope that this is the case for all the lovers around the world,but i do hope that you all will still be together even till judgement day comes.

After school,we had a chingay practice and RAIN'S CHOREOGRAPHER came to our school to guide us for our item!Haha.Ain't that so cool?Anyway,took a few pictures with him,2 with me and the rest with miss ting,must go and ask her for them.Haha.I shall post those that i have at the moment.

That's some of the dancers with RAIN'S CHOREOGRAPHER!Wohoo!He is really cool with all his popping.LOVE him to nitty bitty too!

This is about all the dancers that turned up for this session,really really like this guy.YOU TOTALLY ROCK MY WORLD!HAHA.It's kinda sad that he is only coming for one day.SIGHS.Haha.Oh well.

This is just about almost all that i want to post.SEEYA PEOPLE NEXT TIME!

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE!

Before i forget,everyone please meet my new partner in crime,FLOURBY [pronounced as flour be].Haha.really like this little thing courtesy of Ngee An Polytechnic.=).

2007-01-27T23:19:00.000-08:00

HEYA PEOPLE!

everyone is so busy these days and no one is tagging anymore.haha.o well,dancers are all preparing for up coming events and whatso ever that we no longer have time for each other.furthermore it's my O's this year.sighs.i am so sick of school already.it's making me want to puke,my life has become a routine now,wake up,go to school,SSP,do homework,sleep.no time for com or tv.I HAVE NO LIFE MIND YOU PEOPLE!

anyway,recently went for a public performance for guzheng at VCH.the guzheng's they let us use sucked big time.anyway,all of us went there super early and thus had to wait in the holding room before our turn.during that time,we all were talking about tips on beautifying yourselves,haha,like brest enhancement.hope we didn't freak our junoirs out.anyway,turns out that our junoirs were getting better and it really makes me happy.i mean,seriously,they were really bad when we all first started out.to add on to this problem,this is going to be their one and only SYF.not good.hopefully we can get gold this year which is kinda impossible cause we have no time left to perfect them.o,here to clear a little misunderstanding between us and our junoirs,we are not scolding you all for no reason.it's just that SYF is not as easy as you think it is,we have to be great 100% not on stage because nervousness on stage can cause us about 5% off our normal performance.we can't afford to lose that 5%.recently,alot is happening in guzheng.things like ruey and that kid.it's really stupid to fight over things like that considering that ruey only told that junoir that she took something wrong.o well.nothing much.guzheng wasn't like that in the past,girls these days just can't take it.i still remember the previous batch of senoirs scolding me because i didn't play loud enough.o well,and i am very angry with a particular member.complaining about almost everything,sweetheart,get a life.you don't even play well,how can you say that you don't like practicing when you can't even play a verse properly.you are practically doing nothing.next,since they are secrets,do you think that we should let the whole world know?of course we wisper.we don't go round and shout at the top of voices saying,"hey passer-by!let me tell you my secret."sweetheart,it doesn't work that way.think carefully before commenting.maybe we were a little harsh on you junoirs,but you guys don't seen to be stressed about the fact that this is your one and only SYF.so all of you including the senoirs have to buck up.even if the senoirs don't do well,we won't even consider putting them on for SYF.it works for everyone this way and it will not change.anyway.i am trying to upload some pictures taken during the walk towards the VCH.let's just see if i can do it.

this is the SCC.does anyone know what's that means?beats me,but this place looks like a beachside resort.pretty.

this is the parliament mind you,i hold my meetings here.XD.

lastly..the st andrew's cathedral.a super duper beautiful place.love it hell lots.

anyway,that's just about everything.o ya.we had a some student teacher conference recently and those that were counted music to the ears were..

1. GIVE THE GRADUATING STUDENTS THEIR WELL DESERVED PROM!all other schools are having proms and so should we.
2. some consillors are arrogant.i totally agree with this point,i know some consillors and they are perfectly fine,but just these few who abuse their authority and break school rules just because they have a stingy amount of authority over the rest of the student body.I HATE THESE CONSILLORS.
3.i think that this is the last point which is made by aslam,stop us from copying ridiculous things during detention.although i have never been to detention to know what they normally do,but i heard of it and i think that it is ridiculous.

anyway,i guess i will be updating real slow this year due to O's,SYF,dance competitions and dance auditions.i seriously feel that i will die of exhaution man.haha.anyway,till next time,LOVE YA ALL and kisses.

o,LOVE YA DAF[C].without you guys,dance is impossible!

2007-01-01T04:38:00.000-08:00

finally after months of viewing a stagnant blog,I AM BACK PEOPLE!

i have found a decent blogskin and changed it in the NEW YEAR!as i have promised,i will post if i found a new blogskin and yes i am here.since it's the new year,then what is it without new year resolutions?

ok,so i shall pen down my resolutions so i won't forget them in the future.i have STM,forgive me.

2007 NEW YEAR RESOLUTION:

1. Be a nice person,i shall not join CLAIRE,JOY,SABRINA,CHANNEL and MABELINE in making other people's life difficult anymore.
2. MUG REAL BAD.O LEVELS this year.boring life.
3. Read more story books to improve my command in english and chinese.
4. Take up more dance classes.after many incidents,i realise i am no where near "making it big".so i really have to set higher goals.
5. I think i shall forgo all the vulgarities.it will be hard,but i will make it!
6. Spend lesser to save up for more dance lessons.
7. I REALLY WANT TO GO TO A JC.sorry,that is just there to remind me to MUG.
8. Stop watching so much television programmes.
9. Stop using the computer so often.
10. Broaden my music capacity.i am already doing it,i have accepted some chinese songs already,but don't push it by making me listen to techno(no offence,it's just personal perference).
11. Keep a diary.
12. Keep a photo diary as well.
13. Start working on my fashion portfolio.

right,that's just about it.don't want to many in case i am unable to fulfil all of them.anyway,it's really really late and i want to sleep now!

so seeya guys,take care and LOTS OF LOVE FROM ME!

2006-10-16T22:08:00.000-07:00

yay!people,EOY IS OFFICIALLY OVER!it's kinda late to say this,but i had reasons!i was spending time clearing all the messages choking my inbox,catching up with my story books and sleeping!you can't go on without sleep.XD.alll are important things!

hmm.so let's see what's there to talk about today.em.ok,talk about my EOY marks.it's wasn't really good,but at least had loads of improvement from midyear.i did my family and i proud!haha.so far all A's and B's maybe a C?don't quite remember,might update about it when i confirm my marks.haha.nothing much happened today,so i shan't talk much about it.i bet it's boring to listen to me rant about a chinese base school and my school life right.

ok,talk about what happened just now.actually nothing much,but i really like to talk about it.[my blog is for me to rant about things.tentatively making it sound like i am a depressed person.don't get me wrong,i use a blog differently from others and that difference is for me to DESTRESS and let go of any ANGER.=)].back to the point,i was looking through my friendster profile trying to clear the messages and i chanced upon some of my friends' profiles.hmm,how should i put it?it's more like the profiles left in a dark corner collecting dust and finally someone finds them.yup,had that feeling when saw it.anyway,when i look through their photos,i had a wierd feeling and thought."what would have happened to us if i didn't break our friendship?would we be the bestest best friends made known on earth or would we also have ended up like we did in the end?"it wasn't the sad feeling i had 2-3 years ago.how to explain?it wasn't sadness or regret,it was more like 'maybe it's fate' kind of a feeling.neither sad nor happy.just like that.i was sad last time,now,i just feel like maybe it was the best way for all of it to end.we are still friends right?haha.

would it been better if i just left for france years ago.for music?for dance?or for fashion designing?i know it would have been better if i left.at least memories is what's gonna keep us together.if i returned 4 years later,maybe we could still keep in contact and maybe be great friends again.it's just never gonna be the same right?let's say it was the best time of my life.never had such great friends when i was young and never gonna have anymore in the future.thought it would be great if i opened up thinking i would get great friends in this new environment,but it proved me wrong.got hurt time and time again,not gonna be stupid anymore.best friends do not exist in this world,at least not for me.i will be strong and independent for myself and leave this country maybe 5 years later.hopefully never coming back.* punches fist in the air! *don't get me wrong again,i really appreciate the great time you gave me and showed me what best friends really were.but i was hurt[may or may not be because of you] and so 'best friends' ended for me years ago.i died,was dead and now reborn.i was wrong too...and i am very sorry.well,i bet you don't think much of it anymore because you have another group of great friends.unfortunately i don't.

whatever it is,i will never regret knowing you guys.you all were great.

jaykwan is back in the states now.I MISS YOU BROTHER.haha.love you loads.come back soon.i really need someone to talk to now.=)

2006-09-17T18:19:00.000-07:00

ok,so i am back to update my blog.not going to update that frequently because i am studying for my EOY[end-of-year exams].sighs.it's just around the corner.my life depends on it now.PRAY FOR ME!haha.somehow or another,i don't believe in luck anymore,but i believe in miracles.so if i work real hard this time,a miracle might happen to me.people can still wish me luck!

ever wondered what lies ahead of you?what life would bring you?what you would be when you grow up?when you finally leave school and no longer have pure innocent friends(i beg to differ)?when you finally step into a competitve and cut-throat society(it's already happening in schools)?i have been thinking about it.remembered i said that i want to become a fashion designer?that one day i would be a part of NEW YORK FASHION WEEK.that one day i would create my own label.i did loads of research on it already.found places where i could stay.found universities that are top in the country or maybe even top in the world.found places where i could work to earn extra expenses.set my goals on which fashion label i hope to work with before setting up my own label.i already started my portfolio.i was ready for what my life would offer me,only to realise that we are currently tight on cash and my mother isn't that happy with my choice.it's not that my parents aren't earning enough.we have no problem paying for luxuries.but my brother is still studying university.so it would stress my parents out if both my brother and i go to university.money isn't the biggest problem.i can work harder to earn for my chance,but i just realise how much my mother hates this choice.she doesn't say it,but every word that comes out from her mouth about fashion designing carries daggers.she tells me how her friends doing arts either didn't make it big or just married off to some man so that they didn't have to continue working.she told me how difficult it would be to study alone abroad.she told me how much money would be needed to spend on this sort of courses.she told me that i need to have a very rich base so that i can support myself,advertise myself and sell my productions.she told me that this family would not be able to do that.she told me to study harder and stop thinking so much.i am not afraid if i can't make it.i am not afraid of not earning money.i am not afraid of anything..ok,maybe a little scared about living abroad alone.BUT THAT'S NOT THE POINT!i want to do something that i am very interested in.i don't want to wake up early, sit in an aircon room 8 hours everyday,leave work and go home to sleep.life like that is seriously MONOTONOUS.i wish mum would know that.but i realise how selfish i would be if i do that.i know that people would ask me to go for it,to go after my dreams.but you all have to think,my parents provided me since young and if they still have to do that till they die,i think i would rather drown myself or get eaten by sharks in the pacific ocean.i am grateful for all that they did for me,i seriously am.however,i want to be the one to provide them when they grow old.i want to give them the life they gave me when i was young.i want them to live the next few decades of their lives not worrying about money.so fashion designing can wait,either that or it just have to disappear from my memory.it is hard to drop that matter because it's the one and the only thing that made me do so much research on.let it be a beautiful memory then.

i will bite back my tongue even though i really like fashion designing.i will swallow back my tears even though it was more or less my passion.i will continue on with junoir colleges now that i have given up fashion designing even though I DON'T WANT TO.o well,i have no other choice.i am back to square one and have to think of a new proffesion then.hmm.got to think real hard now.ok,that's all.

2006-09-09T12:28:00.000-07:00

I AM BACK!haha.i am super duper happy today!let me tell you all why.

in the early afternoon,i had street jazz class with bryan.REALLY REALLY LIKE HIM.not the love kind of a like,but the like him like an idol kind of a like.he is a really great dancer.he is such an inspiration to me.just make me want to keep going back for his class.haha.and make me want to be a real dance teacher.haha.he was really patient with us and he was so much fun!he kept making us laugh during class.haha.LIKE HIM LOADS.

then after that,went to watch hiphop competition with rueylin.thought i couldn't make it because bryan dragged the class.it was really cool to meet ryan and victor AGAIN.the competition was really cool too.the winners really deserve it.guess what did they get?!they each got an mp3 player proudly sponsored by creative zen technology!wonderful.although i really hate creative,but still,it's worth alot.especially when it is ryan who gives it to them!

specially for ryan and victor.XD.
MEET YOUR NEW STALKER,WHICH IS YOURS TRUELY!WAHAHAHAHA.

it's not because i am despo or what,ok well,maybe i do like them like hell loads!NOT THE POINT.it's just that so many people wants their photo and i am like the one and only person who has the "MOST FREE TIME" available.let me tell you all,i haven't finish my holiday homework ok.haha.i don't understand,is it because the school is an asshole or is it because i am retarded.holidays are for resting aren't they?i choose the first option.the school is an asshole,not literally,i think you all know what i mean.they should flip through a dictionary and find out the meaning of HOLIDAY.[forgive me,i am really really bored.XD]that's for the suckers working in the school who can't get a hold of their lifes.they are a bunch of sad people,well,maybe just some.i love some of the teachers in school.they are so cool.especially miss ow,because she promised us that if we,lit students,get 100% A's for O LEVEL,she would run round the school naked swinging her bra!wahahhaha.out of point.back to the point about ryan and victor.haha.

they are going back tomorrow.would miss them like HELL LOADS.haha.sorry people.i am not that rich to stalk them all the way back to america.lol.so i have a few of their photos which i would treasure like it's worth a gazillion.haha.MAD.i think they might even know i am their STALKER!=>what's so bad about that?they should be honoured ok!it's your truely we are talking about!XD.omg.haha.ok,that's way too high.o,i think ryan is facinated by singaporeans' spectacles.how could something so nerd be so cool?!haha.he said my specs was cool and that comment went on for quite some time.haha.maybe i can go to america to design spectacles!i think i might earn alot.XD.crazy.hmm.i can't think of anything else to say.hmm.i like ryan and victor?haha.got no clue how many times i said that.although they are like 20+,you have no idea how CUTE they can be.XD.that's right.i find their actions really really cute.haha.i wish they were my brothers or something like that.CAUSE THEY ARE MUCH CUTER THAN MY BROTHER.XD.JKJK.i love my brother alot too.

so we went back after long hours of watching them do what they do best.reluctant to go,but you have no choice do you.haha.o,when we were going out of marina square,i saw ryan playing with a little girl,SO CUTE.haha.he was running away from the girl and the girl was like chasing him trying to beat him.anyway,those who want to see their pictures,you can go to my friendster account to check it out.not many were put up,but be glad you get to see them.XD.

2006-09-08T22:47:00.000-07:00

hey people,i am back.hmm,i don't think i can post much but i will still post.you got to let me think what to post first.

ok,em..i went out on thursday.not really go out.but went to school for extra lessons which we call ssp.then went out for lunch with xinyi and went shopping in j8.then we went to the library.saw alot of people i know,what a small world.anyway,we went back to j8 when adrain called xinyi.i made him pay for a bag xinyi liked and then i went home.quite a sad life.lol.

today was even more boring,tried to finish my homework but obviously ain't working.so i am here to blog.ok,i have a question for all the girls out there.have you all ever thought what type of a man would you marry?haha.random,i know.ain't my fault.haha.anyway,i did.this afternoon.

i like boys/men who dance street style[hiphop,breakdance,popping and locking and so on] and have no problem putting on a suit.XD.love it.

i don't mind him having tattoos but not too many and only black gothic type.no dragons.
i don't mind him having earholes but the most 2.

would he be the type that says he loves me but those words never did touch me because his mind was somewhere else?or would he be those that touched me deeply?i don't want any sweet talker.
would he be the type that holds my hands and go through thick and thin with me?or would he be those that leaves me when i am in a crisis?i don't want a coward.
would he be the type that dares to take me out and show to the whole world that i am his girlfriend?or would he be the type of guy that is afraid that the world knows who i am?i don't want a loser.
would he be the type that thinks of me all the time?or would he just forget about me when he is out with his friends checking out other girls?i don't want a jerk.
would he be the type that treat me like his everything?or would he just play on me even when i am with him?i don't want a bastard.
would he be the type that would even bring me out to parks and sit there and listen to me?or would he shove me away when he has had enough of me?i don't want that to happen.
would he bring me happiness and laughter?or would he just bring me sadness and bitterness?

that's not emo ok.it's just that i think and i think alot.maybe this is kinda why i don't have any boyfriends at all.afraid of being hurt?afraid he will cheat on me and have GOD knows how many girlfriends as well?afraid of going in too deep and be left with nothing but sadness?YES.i am afraid of that.

met a guy that is really great.have no problem dancing and fitting into suits looking slick and stylish.haha.but would he be a player?a jerk?a bastard?a sweet talker?a loser?a coward?an asshole?or would he plainly devote himself to me and we would never be seperated till death do us apart?i really don't know and i don't wish to try.one day,all these thoughts would dissolve and i would slowly forget about you.i can do it...can i?now that you are so far away from me.i am starting to miss you already even though you aren't gone yet.how am i going to cope if you really go and maybe never even come back again?how long would it take me to finally find you where you are?i honestly don't know,but i do hope that you remember me.i will keep thoughts of you somewhere unknown to others but always somewhere near me.till i finally found you,this is all i can do..i think i would just spend my whole life looking at you from afar.

o well,confessions of a broken heart?haha.nice.anyway.recently felt really sick talking to someone,i don't know how to explain that feeling.but i just feel like vomitting whenever i talk to that person.whenever i receive messages from that person,i just don't feel like replying at all.i don't know why.i just feel like switching off my handphone and changing my handphone no so that i would never ever receive messages from that person again.whenever that person calls me,home or handphone,i just don't feel like picking up that call and just want it to keep ringing until that person puts it down and gives up.am i bad?maybe i am,but sorry,you are getting on my nerves a little too much.

ok,that's all there is to it then.seeya.

2006-09-06T23:51:00.000-07:00

ok,ain't starting with a quote today,too tired to try to rip anything out of my brain.tell you all something!

I MET RYAN CONFERIDO TODAY AND YESTERDAY!

never in my life did i ever think of meeting and celebrity,ryan is counted as one right?haha.guess so.anyway,i rooted for him in so you think you can dance,but he didn't win.no prob.i think he is still talented anyway.they gave the prize to someone who joined a few million types of dance.what's the point?wait.no need to get agaitated over this.haha.okok.anyway.i am just really really excited about meeting ryan.it's so cool.i kinda vow never to go follow such stuff,but o my gosh,after seeing him for once,just feel like going back all the time.haha.i sound sick.he is going back on the 10th,really sad cause you hardly get to see such great dancers in singapore.

yesterday went to see him,and guess what,zengying and xinyi ah,just had to go shouting my name to the whole world.haha.horrible girls.and then the host got hold of my name and just kept making fun of me.thanks to zengying and xinyi,will never forget about this ever.haha.got his picture yesterday too!

today,me and jer went to see the competition which i thought is held today,but no,it just has to be held tomorrow,wasted trip.haha.then the host wanted us to do what we normally do for dance,we didn't.then he wanted us to try breakdance.but i think i might break my bones or something like that.lastly,he wanted us to say something for ryan and victor.scared the hell out of me.so it simply goes like this.jer"hi ryan".me"hi victor".together"welcome to singapore."haha,not that difficult and we got hold of hip hop dance class voucher.haha.o,took a picture of ryan,victor[sick step crew member],jer and me.will post it in friendster when my brother finally decides to get his butt off the living room computer.haha.bear with him and o well,me as well.too lazy to switch on that com.the thing wasn't as happening as i thought it would be.but i still thought it rocks cause there was ryan and victor.i won't be shy and i will say it.ryan and victor are cute.haha.although it would be qutie embarrassing to say it to them up front,haha.o ya,and went we were taking the picture,ryan came so close,i almost freaked out.i don't expect half a celebrity to come so close to me.yes close.close till i could feel his breath.been real close with some people.but they just don't make your heart pump more than it should.haha.or course it was nerve wrecking!i could have got a heart attack.anyway,never thought half celebrities are so nice!they are nice people,with no bodyguards and would take pictures anywhere and anytime of the day!that's great.i hope ryan would just stay as half celebrity.haha.then everyone would get to take his picture without big bodyguards hiding him in between them.sounds wrong,but you get it.hmm,after this trip,really don't know when i would ever get to see him again.i sound love sick.like what the hell.okok.of course i love ryan,he is my idol.haha.this is getting crappy.o well.we stayed on and watch a little,made a joke of someone,not gonna mention.and we left for my dance class.

dance was horrible.haha.i am quite a slow kind of a dancer?majoring in jazz,street jazz and contemporary dance kind of a thing.hip hop ain't for me.but i will work hard.i must!will never ever say"i can't do it."i must say"i can do it.i will do it.i will get it."possitive mindset is good.haha.so hmm...what else can i blog about.o ya.that JERYL LEE YI LEI IS A RICH KID.i feel heartbroken when i spend $6+ on coffee,jer just bought it and even wanted to throw it away when we could not finish it.bad.must think of kids in africa.haha.hmm.i think that's all?haha.ya i guess.

lastly,

I WANT TO MARRY SOMEONE JUST LIKE RYAN OR VICTOR..BOTH ALSO CAN!HAHA.

2006-09-04T22:22:00.000-07:00

my mother believed you could be anything you wanted to be in America.America was where all my mother's hopes lies.But she never looked back with regret.-Joy Luck Club

another quote from joy luck club.really meaningful.it's not all in a sentence,i just took out parts of a paragraph that made sense,not saying that the rest doesn't.lol.anyway.the well known crocodile hunter steve irwin died.couldn't believe it.although i am not really a huge fan of his,i still enjoyed his shows cause they are like so adventurous and exciting.it keeps you sitting up straight and never want to blink your eyes because it might cause you an exciting moment.lol.anyway.i salute him for his bravery and his love for animals.really,not many people loved them more than he does.he died doing what he loved,you might think i am crazy,but i think he is feeling really happy where ever he is.maybe just a little regret cause he didn't get to see his family before he died.stupid stingray.steve irwin,you are a great man.you will never be forgotten.

anyway,went to get a hair cut today,really happy with it.and i got my 3rd earhole today!that makes me doublely happy today.as the hole get higher,it hurts even more.but putting aside the pain,i am super happy!haha.well.well then,i have no idea what to post.

o,maybe let's talk about this.i realise where my passion lies.fashion.i just want to pursue fashion.i just want to design chic and start trends for the world.

I WANT TO MAKE IT TO OLYMPUS FASHION WEEK!

i want to meet jay mccarrol.i think he is where my passion started.he started it all.i just look at his clothes and all i want to do is sketches.i don't want to go to jc.i don't want to even touch university.i want to break free and stop my parents from forcing me.i want to do something i like.i won't say that my parents restrict me,they let me do things i want.they let me dance,draw and stuff.but i don't want to study.i don't like it at all.i find it a pain.a torture.A CHORE.a chore to study,but to make my parents happy,this is all i can do.i have to do sketches without my parents knowing.recently,i put up some raw sketches up my wall,they did say it's nice,but they always give me that look that said,don't you dare pursue it.what am i suppose to do?i have no mood to study,i have no passion to study at all.i don't even mind if i do fail my sec 3 life,i don't mind if i retain.i don't care anymore.o well.i just got to think of a way.maybe i should just finish my O levels.and then at least get a A level certificate and lastly,i would then go pursue fashion.most probably in france,milan or somewhere else i can think of.BUCK UP SOPHIA.

I WILL MAKE IT TO OLYMPUS FASHION WEEK ONE DAY.JUST WAIT AND SEE.

sighs.so tired and my ear hurts a great deal.don't know how i am going to sleep today.o well.no choice.want to be beautiful,you got to stand the pain.that's what my dad always say.haha.ok.lastly,we love you steve irwin.

2006-09-01T22:20:00.000-07:00

it is useless to cry.your tears do not wash away your sorrows.they feed someone else's joy.and that is why you must learn to swallow your own tears.-joy luck club

viewer discretion.don't say i didn't warn you.

ok.so i am back to kinda update stuff.very very busy this whole week.was like baking cookies on monday and packing the cookies on tuesday and selling cookies on wednesday.what are the cookies for?for teacher's day of course.haha.i know.we are sweet and nice people.haha.the sales was quite good i think.cause we sold pretty much of it.i think just left a few packs was left,which in the end was bought by my classmates i think.haha.anyway.ya,that's was what happened during the first 3 days.but i like to dedicate this small portion to my dear sister.SCREW YOU CLEMENT TAN RUI JIE.you suck.i thought you had a mind of judgement.i thought you were different just like a SISTER.obviously i was wrong,you are just like all these mere creatures.you are nothing more than a BOY.and guess what,i hate boys.believing that GOD made girls a more sophisticated group of mammals,i shan't go on wallowing and digging through what you did.you know very well what shit you did.

yesterday,quite tired by all that happened.we had aces day in the morning.was suppose to be a mass walk,but it rained,so we did a workout in school.quite dumb,but i still did a bit anyway.and we got scolded.like whatever...by miss tan of course.it was dumb and so i didn't really paid much attention to her.cause she was like spoilling our mood of both the teachers and the students.quite a number of teachers and all the students practically hates her.SHE SUCKS.that's what one of the teacher said.i am not lying.seriously.some teachers even badmouths her in class.can you believe that.i love my school.who knew that my school was so cool.haha.anyway,had the performance next.it kinda sucked real bad,it was quite obviously some groups just didn't deserve to be on stage.still,i respect the judges decision,maybe they had reasons or whatsoever.but i still think it sucks.anyway,an hour wasted?then we had bio SPA.it was ok i think.i finished like at least 30mins before.then i just sat there doing nothing.was it good or not?i don't really know.i wrote 10 lines explaining my graph.and guess what,my partner,MR JONATHAN TAN just has to go on writing like 2 pages on it.i was shocked.haha.anyway.no matter what.it's over.then me and felicia went back to kuo chuan to look for miss tan.sighs.she is going to canada to study for 3-4 years.i will miss her so much.you won't know how much i will miss her.she really inspired me alot.i want to dedicate this small little portion to her.when i first entered gb,i joined their dance club.it was really great.i learnt alot there.people might think that this sort of dance is boring.it's kinda modern ballet and jazz.but i really liked it.so much grace and attention you have to put in the dance.i know not alot of people can understand this sort of dance and i don't expect most of you all to.hardly anyone can appreciate this sort of dances now a days.she started my love for dance.my dance carrer.she made me a leader in gb.if it wasn't for that.i won't be what i am today.i won't be one with a mind of my own.i really am missing her now.i wonder where she is now.i wonder is she ok?whether she can manage it on her own.will she come back or will she get married there.sigh.i really am missing her already.sighs.miss theresa i miss you!sniffs.haha.anyway,went to zhengxiang's house after that.talked a little while and then we went to j8 to eat.they boys had curfew so they went home first.so funny.then the girl's went shopping for a while.took a photo with the girls except for jac and rachel.instant printed it out and then we went home.talked to nithiya on the way and it was really cool.really miss my pri school friends.although they guys are still childish,at least they are more gentlemen than the ones in my school.

lastly,i want to say i hate you,nigel,alot.even though i don't know you.but your practical joke is stupid and old.if you expect me to go round telling people how blessed i am to have you liking me.whatever,it's not happening and it won't happen.i won't let you make a joke out of me.so if you like this sort of attention that much,i suggest you target someone who likes this sort of attention as much as you do.you are ruining my life and my time.my time is life to me and i can't waste a second on people like you.you are a disgrace to mankind and so are the people who can't stop or put a cork into such a joke.it's either you are childish or it's because you had a depressing childhood.i choose to believe in both.cause seriously,you don't act your age.please grow up and act like you are a 15 year old.this is quite a bad start to knowing you.but as lything puts it,boys have dead brains.so to let them know it,you just have to say it to their face,so i hate you.other girls might think that you are fun and whatsoever,but i just want to let you know that i would be the first to say this.i just want to cut off your penis and pull your intestines out from your nose.i would smash you flat with a mallet and drag your brain out from a broken skull.and lastly,i would just conviniently dump you in a juicer and make a juice out of you.

so,that's all for today.very emo today.but whatever.if you all don't like it.you all can just leave.no need for hate notes or whatsoever becasue i did not force you all to read.thank you.

2006-08-25T22:17:00.000-07:00

she wears the most fancy type of clothes you would ever see.she goes to the most fancy parties you would ever think of.but one day,she would rip this all off and then you would see the naked truth,how unreal all this is.you would see the true and natural self of her being.

ok.today practically sucked cause i was really sick yesterday and i had bio test today.was horrible.went to school today to rush to study my bio tys and workbook.sucked like hell.was so tired.and after the assembly,to top it off,i had alot of mind stressing lessons.

the worst one was lit i guess.cause miss ow wasn't in to give us lecture today and it was miss ilan's turn.but then miss ilan had to go for some checkup,so no one 'took care' of us during that peroid of time.so miss ilan set aside some work for us.but of course i wasn't interested because next up was bio test.so i quickly finished the homework she gave to us and tried my best to think of possible questions and answered them in my head.the class was horribly noisy.but i don't blame them because if i had no BIO TEST today,i would be one of them that made the most noise.but then i was trying my hardest to concentrate,nothing much came out.so i got worried if i did forget anything.then after a while i got so stressed up,and i wish i could just shut the whole class up and i just continued to squeeze out anything i could think off.NOTHING!so i was very stressed.when miss ilan came back,i had no mood to study,so everything she said,i only manage to absorb it after she went on to the next point.so i pretty much missed out everything she talked about.was like shit.

then went for bio test.wasn't that difficult like the previous one.at least this one i manage to finish it without thinking too much.which brings me back to the point of me being stressed.i had not much reason to stress about if i knew it was that easy.sighs.o well.then i went to help zeng ying bake cookies for cip.and we baked alot!wee~~i took back some for my family too.alot of people said it was good.very nice!haha.that's great.anyway,that's kinda about everything.haha.

jaykwan is back!but he won't be here for long,going back after our sept holis.hmm.o well.what to do.

CLEMENT ROCKS.
haha,you might be shocked as to why i wrote that down.i was thinking about the time clement made me write it and told me to write it on every post and it might become a trend.it was funny.so everytime i don't feel that good,i just remember this and then i was laugh all my problems away and i would be fine after that.so maybe sister helps alot.haha.i want another big sister!haha.isn't this great.family bonding haha.ok,crap.

seeya all soon then.

2006-08-21T21:33:00.000-07:00

the girl don't know about being shy.

hmm.actually i have no idea why i feel like blogging today,just felt like it.anyway,wanna say that my mum bought me the espirit limited edition watch!wee.$98..pain.which SISTER CLEMENT claims it to be cheap.HMPH.didn't quite do much these days,just did a few fashion sketches to create a portfolio for future use.

did a practice bio spa today and i tell you it is GROSS.G-R-O-S-S!we had to experiment with raw meat.not only did it smell,it was slimy...had 2 test today,pity me.it's tiring ok.felt like dying after finishing.o ya,then after school,went out with zeng ying to look for baking materials.so tired.we just kept walking and now my legs feel like i soaked them in ice for 24 hours.my nerves and living cells all died i think.NO FEELING.o ya,good news.milky coming back for holiday!yay!we all miss him so much.went to claire's house for a while.sab and joy were there.claire put on some great music and there was this one called colourblind by darius danesh.VERY NICE!but claire dirtied it.haha.jkjk.tell you what she did.

Nobody told me you'd feel so good
claire:that's kinda sad.
Nobody said you'd be so beautiful
claire:tell me something i don't know
Nobody warned me about your smile
claire:you are corny.
You're the light, you're the light
claire:what am i?GOD?
When I close my eyes
claire:how are you suppose to see the light then?
I'm colour blind
claire:do you need a doctor?
You make me colour blind
claire:my fault?!you are sick.

haha.crazy claire.stayed for a little while and then i went home.no homework!yay!time to PAR-TAY!

promised someone that i would say something.no i won't say it was clement who 'asked' me to do it.he 'didn't' force me.i did it out of my own 'goodwill'.XD.no i won't say clement make me do it.okok.i shall just get to the point of what 'i' wanted to write.XD.

CLEMENT ROCKS.

happy now?haha.ok then,that's all that happened today.

2006-08-19T21:14:00.000-07:00

haven't blog in a very long time so i am back.hmm,what shall i talk about?let's see.milky finally answered me.stupid reasons he gave that he didn't answer me.he didn't even tell me he was going back to new york and that was why he didn't want to answer my call.didn't want to hear my voice.HE SAID MY VOICE IS HORRIBLE.YOU PIG.he didn't even let me send him off whereas the rest of the dance could.KILL YOU JAYKWAN aka milky.haha.i finally remembered your name.o well.i don't have a partner in dance anymore...layla wanted to hold an audition for me to get a partner.i didn't want one,guess it just won't be the same without jaykwan.see,i miss you so much.dare you say my voice is horrible.since i don't have a partner anymore,i quit dance arts fushion cold.layla ask me to stay and she hired me as one of the choreographer for the group.I AM PAID!wahahahahahah.so i will be cooperating with raymando with the dance and layla would oversee it.quite different from being a dancer.cause of my knee,it would be a lighter job cause all i do is just to show them once and yell at them.XD.weee~i was waiting for this job for sssssooooooooo long.haha.i love you layla.anyways.jaykwan said he would be coming back soon to help a little with the job and he would go back again.o well.better than not seeing you at all.let's see.o,a new job for me is coming up,so i have to hurry hurry hurry!have been watching alot of dance clips these few days and i saw how different people in states and in asia dance.asian dances are always on the spot,whereas states make full use of the stage.however as time slowly passes everything is changing.i hope it hits singapore fast cause i am starting to dislike the stick to one spot dances that we do.it's kinda boring.i guess that's all?will update real soon.maybe not that soon,packed with exams the next few weeks.sighs.PITY ME.

2006-08-07T21:41:00.000-07:00

MILKY!WHERE ARE YOU NOW?WHY WON'T YOU PICK UP ME CALLS AND ANSWER MY SMSES?CAN YOU AT LEAST TELL ME WHERE YOU ARE SO THAT I AM NOT SO WORRIED.I AM SERIOUSLY WORRIED.YOU KNOW I DIDN'T MEAN ALL OF THOSE THINGS I SAID.PLEASE FORGIVE ME.CALL ME IF YOU SEE THIS.PLEASE.

2006-08-06T00:00:00.000-07:00

ok,long time since i post.so i am back to write about what happened that had a really big impact on me i guess.went to school yesterday for bio spa and went to lunch with xinyi.

guess we really did talk a lot.about her and about me.about me attitude,is it really bad?anyway,people got the wrong idea and so ya.then i called milky,claire and sky for conference.talked about them and myself and i asked them if i did have a big attitude prob.they said no.it's kinda wierd cause i don't have that much prob with dance and church people.why school?seriously,i should have chosen an english school,i really have no clue as to which screw in my head was lose till i chose zhonghua.makes no sense.then milky called me to kinda ask if i was ok and everything.seems to me that since i entered this new class,i had loads of prob with the people.maybe cause i dislike some people in this class?maybe cause i am english educated and with all the international school friends,i am a biatch.that's why i bitch people in school and not like chinese humility,be nice,i spare no thought for people.

i asked milky should i apologise to them,he said no.no chinese humility again.he said why should i ask for forgiveness from them to forgive me for who i am.long but to simplify it,why must i ask for forgiveness for who i am as a person.ok,still equally long.but the point revolves around those sentences.but cause i was really like sorry that i make them feel that way,so i argued with milky that i should apologise and of course he didn't want me to do that.then i said something that i think really made him very upset.i said,"why are you always like that?why can't you spare a thought for others?you think it's very easy to live in my class?you think you are always right all the time.why can't you think about me?i am not in an international school like you that people there don't apologise at all.why are you so void of emotions?maybe i am not apologetic at all,but i am given no choice because they are the only friends i have in that class.if they feel this way and i am don't apologise for it,who else can i turn to?this is not an easy class.why can't you just understand."of course we had like a minute of silence then i finally heard him say,it's late go to bed.then he hanged up.guess he is really upset cause i tried to call him and sms him.he didn't pick up any call and didn't reply my sms.i have no idea where he is now.i just want to say,i am really sorry milky.i really didn't mean it.i take back everything i said.i am very sorry.i told you it's my attitude.i got to change it.

just called layla,my dance teacher.i asked her whether i had attitude prob.she said no.so i ask her why are people so offended by what i do.as by layla,she said that it is called the dancer's syndrome,which obviously only dancers have it.i have no idea why.but she said that go observes dancers and you will realise that most of them are like that,but we never mean any harm and everyone doesn't take it seriously.i guess it's true cause i tried thinking about all my dancer teachers and dancers.layla for example.she has a very violent attitude,she can be happy one moment and the next she is super firery.the school's modern dance teacher,people said she is so fierce that she doesn't allow any talking during class.shane sparks,he has everything.fame,money and attitude.he is super impatient and speaks like he is shooting darts at you.but no one takes him to heart and still so many artists look for him.so i guess milky you are right.none of these people ask for forgiveness for who they are and still people like them.i shan't ask for any forgiveness for who i am.

i know that i sometimes am happy one moment and angry or upset the next.i guess i just don't tell you people my problems and i see no reason why.because none of you people are interested anyway.i feel very sad that my friends actually think of me this way.well,you can't expect people to like everything about you cause you are not perfect.don't tell me that when you guys are quiet and alone,you don't start thinking about all the problems you are facing now.i do if you people don't and that's why i feel sad maybe all the time,cause i don't tell anyone.anyway.i guess saying everything on blog makes me feel so much better but i am still worried about milky.

if you see this,know that i am worried.call me.

I AM VERY SORRY MILKY.I REALLY AM.

2006-07-25T21:45:00.000-07:00

HIGH HEELS RULE THE WORLD!

haha random thoughts again.i think high heels are a classic and it takes skills to wear it,so you boys better learn.i would really worship it if it wasn't that painful.high heels are not meant for shopping.note to everyone.when shopping,wear casual.don't wear like you are going for some grandball.wear flip flop,slip ons,flats and anything easy to slip in and out of.this would cut down the time you take to try different shoes.haha.good tip eh?it takes some shopaholic to know all these.

today was better than yesterday i guess.feels better.i don't know why,just feels that way.well,of course of that sicking ass hole,nothing else was a problem.haha.o.

RUEY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW.

so sweetheart,HAPPY BIRTHDAY!.hmm,i hope that you would grow prettier everyday,haha.not saying that you are not pretty now,but that you would grow even prettier everyday!crap.haha.

anyway,that's about it i guess.

WHEN YOU HAVE LOST ALL HOPE,PUT EVERYTHING IN GOD'S HANDS.

2006-07-24T22:33:00.000-07:00

i know this is kinda random but still..

I LOVE MISS OW!SHE ROCKS!

2006-07-24T21:52:00.000-07:00

ok,i had time so i came to blog a little.hmm,how was my day?not even close to "ok".it was horrible.besides some stuff i won't even want to dirty my blog by mentioning it the rest of the day was bad.

had history test today,it was HORRIBLE and i freaking mean it.ok,maybe it wasn't that bad but still.i just want to exaggerate a little because of the lousy history teacher miss fu shu fen.i have no regrets mentioning her in my blog.she DOES NOT come close to deserving my respect for her.why must she come?why must all the GOOD and i mean seriously GOOD teachers have to go?why must mr quek leave zhonghua?why must miss loo leave zhonghua?WHY?all the good teachers,well,i don't mean that there aren't anymore good teachers left in zhonghua,it's just few,too few.this just prove that zhonghua sucks.i know why mr quek wanted to leave and this is all thanks to miss tan hwee pin.you think you are all that great?you should be cued,NO ONE LIKES YOU.o well.i think i am flunking history,not because of content,but because of how i answered my questions.sighs,trainee teachers and new and young teachers all SUCK.no wonder the standards in zhonghua is dropping.ALL THANKS to the principal and these teachers.

wasn't feeling too good today as you know.people kept asking me if i was ok.of course i said ok,what else can i say?it was not PMS.how do you expect me to tell you i have problems with that damm person and i wish that person was dead.and whenever i have problems,i would go dancing,but now i CAN'T.why?why is GOD so unfair.you won't understand.no one would ever understand.the pain when you have so much problems bogging you down and yet the one thing that can actually comforts you is no longer there.my passion,my love,my wish,my hope,my everything..GONE.gone in just one night.gone in a flash.gone without a sign.it's just not fair.ok,now you all know.milky pj,both of you were right.i am not ok.i worked so hard for the next performence,this is what i get.I AM NOT OK AT ALL.but what can i do?i have acted to be ok for so long.it's time for me to let out all these pain and suffering i have.but no one can ever share it with me,cause i have no real friends that i can relate to.i feel tired and i want to give up.obviously i am sad.so all of you can stop thinking that you know how i feel because none of you are experiencing what i am experiencing now.no one ever will.i want to leave this school right now.2 more years sounds little,but i just can't wait to leave.i don't want to keep in contact with anyone at all.i don't want any reminiscence of this place.a place full of hurt and problems.

ok then,after saying everything i had in mind and heart,i feel so much better now.i will live on ans that's what i will tell myself everyday.so i can leave this school in one piece.my time here is up.

the stage is a training groud,the world is my stage.

2006-07-23T19:04:00.000-07:00

O CRAP.I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY I GIVE A FREAKING DAMM ABOUT YOU!YOU SHOULD DIE.YOU SUCK.

2006-07-23T19:00:00.000-07:00

yay!i am back to post.i am getting lazier by the second man.but anyway,here to update my week.was ok i guess.not very exciting.i think i am going back to dance,but i seriously doubt that layla would want me back.she said she rather i get well first before i can seriously come back to start dance again.o well.

anyways.the only exciting this week was the racial harmony day.i changed with glor,so we wore each other vietnamese costumes.haha.mine was purple and her's was pink,we switched it.haha.i had the hardest time buttoning the costume,her costume had like 10-20+ buttons.haha.almost killed me.well,besides some bitch,the rest of the week was ok.

o!the new thing in long john taste real good.the spicy chicken thingy.espcially when you have it together with loads of chilli.SUPERB!yummy!

went through some friendster profiles just now.i seriously swear that i didn't understand a single thing they were writing.for example like lurbb.stuff like that.not that i am critising,because i use to be like that as well,but i got over it.i realise what a headach it gave me.everytime i typed or wrote in that way,my head hurt alot.until i mixed more with sab claire joy milky pj sky and layla.my english improved ALOT.and i am serious.i thought it's time for me to change my atrocious english,and so i started hanging out more with my dance co.worked for me and now i am still improving my english.haha.

anyway,that was just so random.sighs,i was thinking about random thoughts again.not because i am random,it just that i think alot.haha.thinking is good.well anyway,i talked to milky about the BITCH,that's sounds vulgar..BIATCH.ok,a little more refined.haha.makes no sense,anyway he said that there is bound to be some of these type of people on earth.why make notice to them?they would start to think that they are really important and popular.they just make our life a little more interesting,just laugh it off and you would be a much happier person.i agreed.I FREAKING AGREED.seriously,i don't know what to do without a brother like you.=).i love you brother!haha.thanks man,for being there when i needed you.thanks.=)

2006-07-18T21:20:00.000-07:00

i realise that is wasn't that long ago that I updated my blog,full of sorrowful posts.i look back and thought,"what's the problem with you girl?"i mean like,there are alot of people out there for me and i know it.it's just that i don't go and appreciate it,i don't go and see the good out there for me,i just keep living in all the bad ones,which made me quite hurt at some point of time.o well.i think it isn't too late to realise this ya?

ok,so i changed my blogskin because the old one was seriously depressing.this is nicer,well,i chose it not because of the "be-you-tiful" thing,but because of the high heels.i am kinda into high heels now a days and i really think that this one is super cool.i want to buy it!it's from adidas,so it shouldn't be hard to find.XD.i wish that one day,high heels would hurt NO MORE!YAY!ok,lame.hmm,after not blogging for a month,i find it wierd to start all over again.blog is like a diary,but you can't write how you really feel because you might offend people and they come and beat you up,it's so cliché and defeats the purpose of a blog.o well,no bad stuff,no bad stuff.

ok,so let's see...milky keeps asking me to update on my daily life,comeon bro,my life ain't as exciting as yours.well,short time but loads of things happened.creaked knees,can't dance until after 4-5 years and then the stupid doc says that it might not heal,so what's the point of waiting any longer?although i might lose the chance to ever walk again if i continue to pressure it,but if i don't pressure it,i might also lose the chance to walk again,so why not dance for the last few years that i have..right?

told grassy i was feeling really down these days.half happy half sad.don't really know why,but grassy says it's normal,pure emo.girls this age get a little emotional sometimes,purely perfect.felt better.then i told grassy about this girl that i really hate,don't have any idea how i am going to live with such a person,she just pisses me off all the time.maybe because i purely hate her to the utermost,but grass told me to find real friends,like how?in everything i do in the morning,i see her.makes me want to puke...o well,life--that's how it is isn't it?haha.laugh it off and it will be over.yu guo tian qing.a beautiful day after a rain.

crap,there was consillor investiture today,haha,guess who came?!ZHENG XIANG,my pri school friend,believe it or not,we were friends since pri1.my mum knew his mum and so on.ya.isn't it fun!you get to see your pri school friend in your secondary school after 3 years of MIA.haha.well anyway,investiture was ok,wasn't great wasn't super boring ahh,can't bring myself to comment about it.anyway,who cares?it's already over anyway.

i guess that's kinda everything that is happening in my life.well,i think i shall routine this,i love grassy and dorky.i hope we can stay friends forever till we grow old.have boyfriends and we show them to each other.buy houses together.start working life.start night life.get married.give birth to kids!haha.watch them grow.provide them education.see them get boyfriends.scolding them.leturing them.see them get married.see them get old together.XD.i hope our children are best friends as well!haha.i think i think too much.way too much.haha.anyway,i think i can't live without you all,share the same sentiments?haha.I LOVE YOU BOTH ALLLLLLLLLLLOOOOOTTTTTT!!!!!!!.HAHA.

2006-06-02T21:58:00.000-07:00

once,kristen asked me,"what's you purpose in life?"i thought about it,funny as it seems,i guess i have no purpose in life.i live day to day,everyday passing by and all i could do is to complain that it is boring,lifeless.why can't my life be like my friends?where they could laugh,enjoy,talk,etc in each others company.

i read through some of my friend's blogs.why does it seem that they are the ones that have all the fun?why does it seem that i am somewhat stuck at home?sometimes i wonder,is it just because i am unsociable?or is it simply that i don't appreciate my friends' company?whenever i am at home,i do nothing at all.ya,wierd.then i thought about it AGAIN.i might not live through today,tomorrow or any other day.i might contract some incurable disease and will never get well.so before i lose this chance,i want to say some special things to my really close friends.

I LOVE YOU ALL.

the list is really long.but there are some people i really want to say it to.DORKY AND GRASSY.my soulmates.ruey,thanks for being there when i needed someone.we must keep in contact after we graduate.my 2e4 gang.ophe,ivy,ming,huiling and xinhui.i think,without you all,i might not have been able to live through my sec 2 life.keep in touch.kazan and glor.thanks for sitting next to me when we were in sec 2.it was great fun sitting next to you all.especially kazan,always going home with me,although most of the time was me waiting for you.XD.jkjk.PAK MENG.been with you for 5 years already,time passes so fast.xinyi and jas for always going to guzheng with me.and specially,

DANCE[ARTS] FUSION-COLD.
^this is a wierd name.haha.but i guess that's where i truelly find friendship and love i get from people.

you people know what?i am quite an unsociable person.i don't know.i just feel that way.well.hack that thought.anyways.that's all i have to say.i love everyone i know.but i can't possibly list out everyone.

2006-05-25T23:00:00.000-07:00

ok.i am back.after 1 month?maybe more.it's time this blog is updated.hmm.so nothing much happened actually.reason why i didn't update?very simple.i was lazy,too tired,had too much homework,too much common tests and my mid-year.so shit.but it is all over now.one more day to the june holis.

i have already forgotten what happened in the past month,so please don't ask me anything about it.ok.then let us talk about today.it was fine,i guess.well,what can you expect?yes i am going to rant about today,so please bear with me.it is not an easy job being me.

ok.let's just skip to the part where me,jas and xinyi went out to mac to sit and talk.i think it was nice.once in a while doing this kind of thing.although it wasn't starbucks or coffee bean,but i guess mac was good.well,we did have a good talk right?i don't know.xinyi was feeling down and i had no idea how to cheer her up.so sad.i felt like crying together with her.in mac?not exactly the place i want to cry in.anyway i didn't.

then we started talking about boys carrying purple bags.THEY ARE NOT GAYS!i think it takes courage.ya.NICE.and then we talked about if we are in a relationship,would we take it seriously or would we just take it lightly.hmm.i don't know.you think i know?lol.then after that i don't know how it ended up with me hating alot of people.that's what xinyi told me.then when i got home,i kept thinking about it,do i really hate that much people?hmm.i have no idea.i think maybe i do,maybe i don't?what am i suppose to think?

hmm,then i thought about it.if someone is going to take away your friends am i suppose to turn around smile and say,"thanks for taking away my friends and leave me alone like this.i am forever thankful to you."am i suppose to say that?JUST SCREW THAT.that is why i hate them.i don't hate people because they are ugly,stupid or whatsoever.you know what.my life sucks.my life is unfair to the utermost and what do you want me to do?smile and get on with my stupid life?i can't do that.i am human,i am vulnerable.i cry.i feel hurt.i am HUMAN.i ain't GOD.of course i feel left out.o,just SCREW that as well.then this thought came to my mind again.leave singapore.and damm it i am going to do that.after o's.i am going to finish jc and then i will say byebye to singapore.i can't find anyone to be good friends with and it is not getting easy.i don't want to be someone's spare tire,who only comes to me when he/she needs company from me.needs a friend.i don't need that kind of friends.

i shall just spend my life to reading,studying and dancing.you know what.i can't take this anymore.the only friends i think i have that i can talk to are my close church friends and my dancers co.sighs.quite pathetic.no real friends in school.that's quite a sad thing cause i spend my entire day there.maybe i shall just leave to go home early next time.so i don't have to let the world screw up my life.ya.i shall just do that.that is perfect.

ok.so that is what is happening in my life if you want to know.it sucks.life doesn't make sense anymore.i should just dedicate my life to dancing.why didn't i take the offer to go to france.why didn't i leave with my uncle.why did i stay.i guess i will miss this place when i go.ya.maybe.and sometimes i think back about things that happened.i feel like punching myself in the stomach.why didn't i just accept it.why couldn't i forgive.why couldn't i this,why couldn't i that.makes no sense anymore,ya?it's over.

Don't be sad that it is over,but be happy that it happened.=)

i guess this is what everyone is telling me.

o just SCREW it.

2006-04-27T21:54:00.000-07:00

today sucked cause i screwed up my exam,but hell,it's already over and so i shall just go onto something that might be a little interesting.

but before it.after exams,kazan had after exams syndrome and it was not funny.but then me and jeryl found the way to brighten her up and it was....RAINBOW.i think only some people know what it means.lols.very funny.she looked spastic frowning and laughing then frowning and laughing again.lols.

kazan told me something about boys today and so i found it from the spastic blog.LYTHING.

LOL.

as quoted from lything which was quoted from yizhen[this is the ultimate spastic one]
"the male species make up: 60% who are flirts, 20% who lies to you/cheats on you, 10% who are nerds/ not suitable. 5% who are gays, 4% who have died last month and probably 1% that fits into the good male species catagory."

this is very funny.well...to me at least.then there was a continue post about this.
" Out of this 1%, 52% are married, 8% attached, which leaves us with 40% men who are single, straight and alive. Out of this 40%, i believe 39% of them cannot be called gentlemen, because.. because i say and decided so.The 1%? Half of them will die of heart attack next week when they find out that they are the only 0.1% out of the whole male population, who are straight, single, alive and suitable enough to be called "gentlemen." Which leave us with.. the 0.05% surviving male species called gentlemen"

omg.i know that this 2 people are lame,but i didn't know they are this lame.lols.but quite entertaining.i kept laughing.i feel stupid now.lols.my family thinks that i have lost my mind.i think this actually happened a long time ago.hmm.can't remember when!wahahahahs.ok.this is lame.

was talking to jon just now.super lame.i am not morbid for your info.i just hate boys,man,guys..AIYA.people with the xy chromosomes.jon,you are included.feel honoured.just feel proud you are part of it.i HATE boys,man,guys,xy chromosomes.and i don't have an idea why jon calls me morbid.i just said,i would use a mallet to crush his skull,let the brain juice seap out,the brain would then unravel and flow out..followed by all his inerds which would then piece by piece flow out of the skull and so,jon would be turned inside out!this is not morbid.his is stupid.STUPID.lol.that's cool that's cool[quoted from jon.]anyway.i am tired and i want to sleep now.

GOODNIGHT PEOPLE.!

2006-04-14T12:54:00.000-07:00

ok.so i haven't post for the past few days.too busy..so i am going to post again today.

i just receieved an email from claire to ask me to do this em question answer thing.saw some people done it before and i am doing it now.lols.kinda lame.

Name 20 people you can think of right now.Dont read the questions below until you have writen the names of all 20 people.tag at least 5 people.

the names are in no order,i just typed the first names that came to my mind.

1.dorky[church]
2.grassy[church]
3.ruey[school]
4.xinyi[school]
5.germi[school]
6.claire[dance]
7.sabrina[dance]
8.shir[school]
9.jer[school]
10.kazan[school]
11.sister clement[school]
12.cinny[school]
13.justin tan[school]
14.daniel[dance]
15.laura[dance]
16.mr ong[chem teacher,i can't believe his name appeared]
17.yuen chi[school]
18.sky[dance]
19.milky[dance]
20.ulric[school]

if your name is not here,we are still friends.don't get paranoid.the names just appeared in my mind,i do think of some of you sometimes. =D

1) how did you meet 14?
hmm.it is kinda obvious don't you think?i met him in dance.

2) what would you do if you've never met 1?
OMG.how am i going to survive then?!without dorky,my life would be so dull.going to church would be such a bore,although it is boring already.without her,i think i rather die.see how much i love you dorky!you better repay me for my love to you.haha.

3) what would you do if 20 and 9 dated?
ROFL.sorry,give me some time.i need to picture this in my head.ulric and jer,hmm...i don't think that will ever happen,but if it does,i wish you two all the best,haha.

4) did you ever like 19?
haha.milky is like the hotest guy i have ever seen,all the girls in dance like him.me?i think i did when i first met him,now,we are bestest buds.best buds,in my world at least,don't date.

5) would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
claire and yuen chi.CLARIE AND YUEN CHI?!LOL.i know claire won't like him,no offence.girls in dance like boys who dance,especially claire.wahahahs.furthermore,clarie is currently unavailable,but i am not very sure about yc.well,shall wait and see.

6) describe 3.
RUEY.she is like one of my bestest best bud in guzheng.i love her to bits.she is em.let's see.i can't think of anything nice to describe her!oh no!LOL.jkjk.how can i not know how to describe my best bud?she is the person i could tell things to.she is super nice.we hardly see each other outside school,but we love each other!haha.we might fight sometimes,but we always patch up cause we are good friends.=).that's number 3 for you guys.

7) do you think 8 is attractive?
SHIR!she is my mother,what do you expect?of course she is attractive.she is one hot mama.haha.

8) tell me something about 7.
she is one of my best buds in dance as well.super attractive.very sexy.she is very friendly,though she looks stuck up at times,but when you get to know her,she is super NOISY!LOL.

9) do you know any of 12's family?
cinny's family..nope.love to though.such a nice girl.haha.

10) what's 8's favourite?
OH OH!this i know.shir loooooooves 5566!i know i'm right!wahahas.

11) what would you do if 18 just confessed he/she likes you?
I WISH!haha.jkjk.he is indeed hot.but he is my best bud,and as i mentioned.no touching of best buds.

12) what language does 15 speak?
omg.that's a lot.english,chinese,french,jap,irish.

13) who is 9 going out with?
jer is uninterested in boys.haha.and i am not joking.

14) how old is 16 now?
do you actually think i know.i just wrote down his name because i 'miss' him.he went on a one month course and left with a lousy trainee teacher who thinks that chem lessons are oral lessons.i feel like killing mr ong when he comes back.

15) when was the last time you talked to 13?
that's kinda long ago.our time don't match hardly see him online.

16) what is 2's favourite band/singer?
OMG.i actually don't know about this.i know that she listens to random singers like me.i think she likes good songs,no preference i guess. i am so sorry grassy.i actually didn't know.DON'T KILL ME!

17) would you ever date 4?
hmm.who knows.haha.no i won't,she is one of my best friend in guzheng.furthermore,we are all stright.

18) would you ever date 7?
do you people actually think that i'm a les?!although i am but sabrina is actually out of bounds,she is taken!

19) is 15 single?
she is.kinda amazing cause she is really hot.but she like going after guys,rather than have guys come after her.she thinks that this type of people are desprate.haha.no offence to people out there.i think it's just that dance cause us all to have a wierd attitude.

20) what is 10's last name?
hmm.if you are asking about youwen,then the surname is liao.if you are asking about kazan,the surname is ends.haha.

21) would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11?
ROFL.omg.are you all actually serious.i am straight,'she' is straight.haha.furthermore,'she' already have two stead.mq and JINFEI.sister clement gets excited when 'she' sees jinfei's name.haha.jkjk.

22) what school does 3 go to?
of course zhonghua.

23) where does 6 live?
Orchard.rich girl.damm her.LOL.

24) what's your favourite thing about 5?
WAHAHAH!i love germi spreading her germs around.LOL.jkjk.i am laming,ignore me.hmm.i think she is a very nice person.

25) have you seen 1 naked?
dorky naked?!love to.LOL.jkjk.nope never and i guess never will.

ok.yup,that's all for the day.LOL,must say that it entertained me throughout today.kept laughing about what i wrote.LOL.

2006-03-27T21:48:00.000-08:00

hello people.ok,so here i am and here you are reading my posts!yes.i said i shan't talk about bad things anymore and so i shan't.but i will still rant when i am angry.

i had learning carnival of friday,nothing nice to talk about,except that did any of you know that cookies from subway is really really nice!bet you all didn't,so now i am telling you.especially the choco chip cookie,it's superb,wonderful!.hahs.that's all.the movie screening was horrible.it was humid and all of us choked up in the hall and the movie was not all that great.yes it was at some point of time interesting especially the part when they were pickpocketing.but the rest was a total bore.

saturday went to school to get my ppr[pupil's progress report].sighs.no As.6Bs.1C.1D.is that bad or what.mum and dad were really angry.sucks.so i vow that from today onwards,i shall become a book wormy nerd!yes you saw what i wrote.i wrote book worm and nerd.so that's just what i am going to be.=).a book worm and nerd.twice stronger than just being a nerd or book worm!.so that's just about it i guess.

went to church on sunday.must say that it was ultra boring.but none the less,when there is dork,there is fun!so we were not talking at first.then when it was reaching about the end,dork started craping on the calculator,and i replied her using the calculator,so it was like lame yet funny.then dork started to use her tissue pack and made lame jokes with it.so stupid.lols.her tissue pack was about fisherman's friend by the way.she said...

sophia[me]=tropical pack
beef[beth]=mandarin and ginger
dork[the spastic one]=sugar free
grace[who was not there that day]=22 lozenges

and

sophia=fisherman's
dork=friend
so together we are fisherman's friend!LOLS.so kuku.
hahas.brings back memories.sighs.whatever.=)

and then today.[drum roll]i went to change the colour of my braces!they are blue and purple in colour.very nice i must say.hahas.but the teeth hurt now cause the dentist placed a spring to pull apart my teeth.wahahs.but all for pretty teeth!well,that's all then.

sophia signing out.

ps-i am coming out with a in and out list soon.be here to see it!

2006-03-23T22:29:00.000-08:00

weets!i am finally back to update!yay!.all the people of the world rejoice!.

ok lame.very high now.today ain't gonna talk about sad things.

maybe a little.for example the fucking fake face girl.you know what.you just never fail to spoil my day.yes go on.take all my friends,i don't give a fucking care anymore.at least i still have dork,grassy and some other good friends.go on.i don't give a damm about this sickening school and all my other friends anymore.you know what.i just wish i would graduate fast and leave this pathetic school.

anyways.no bad things.no sad things today.let me tell you all my plans after secondary school then!

after o levels.me and dork are going to elope!lols.nonsence.we are just going overseas to release stress together.just the two of us.me and her.do you all know what that means?!that means i have her.she have me.NO PARENTS!.yes.don't know where we are going yet.but who cares.!i am finally on my first step to leaving singapore and the fake people around me.

finish studying 2 years of jc and i will take around 2 years off uni to travel around the whole world.after that.i would then go overseas to study business and maybe stay there forever to open a bridal service centre.it's either that or i will leave for new york after uni to study dance.if i can't make it for dance,at least i still have bridal to fall back on.

FINALLY GONE FROM SINGAPORE.

it's not that i hate singapore.i just don't like the fake people i keep meeting.well,that's all for today then.I AM LEAVING!

i seriously can't wait for secondary life to be over.thank goodness it's coming along soon.i wish it just would be now.

I AM TIED IN THIS FAKE WORLD.

2006-03-12T02:59:00.000-08:00

ok.i know it's been a long time.and yes.i'm sorry.i have been busy this week.very hectic week i must say.i had tests all over the place.i was sick so i kept on sleeping.very tired even after sleeping for 15 hours average per day.tired!

well.today,i know people who read my posts are getting sick of me.because i rant about bad stuff all the time.i talk bad about people.i talk bad about things.i talk bad about my school.but what to do?i don't open up to people.i can only type it out in blogs then.so here i am again.ranting about more stuff.so i'm sorry if you don't like me doing that.just want you all to know.if you all don't like it,please leave.no one is making you stay and i'm serious about it.don't read my blog and bitch in my tagboard.thank you very much.ok.the contents of today's post.

1. i am tired.
2. i am sick.
3. i hate a girl.
4. my personality is shrinking.[i think]
5. my world is crashing down around me.
6. i love a guy i can't have.[i don't think i'm good enough for him]
7. i'm angry.
8. i don't seem to do well for tests.
9. my parents doubt my ability.
10. no one listens to me.
11. no one loves me.
12. no one cares about me.
13. i can't find someone close to me to talk to.
14. i HATE people who go on and on about my favourite colour.[purple]
15. i don't like fights.i'm afraid.
16. THE WORST OF ALL...I THINK I'M SUFFERING FROM DEPRESSION!!!!!!!!!!

ok.that's the content.a bit long for a post.but for weeks.i think that should cover how i felt.i am tired because i'm sick.naturally.cause my medicines can make one drowsy.so there you go.2 points covered.i hate a girl.i don't know.i feel she is very fake.she chooses her friends.i know she hates me.but not to worry at all!cause i hate her too.i think that she only go to those whom she don't like when she needs favours.well,if you read this post and you feel guilty.don't bitch in my tagboard.cause it just show how guilty you are of yourself.and i'm sorry about that.can't help it.cause you are a bitch.ok.3rd point covered.this time i didn't bitch too much on a girl and i feel better.cause bitches shouldn't be talked about.they tarnish my reputation.

i don't know about what you people think about me.but i feel that my personality is shrinking day by day.everything i do.everything i say.it goes through my big brain before coming out of my mouth or my actions.so it is like mended words and actions.not the real me.not my real personality.unreal and untrue to myself.i wish i'm like a movie clip.uncut and uncensored.i don't know.i'm losing my old personality.i'm losing that vive that's in me.my life.my friends.my everything.i'm becoming such an angry person i don't know myself anymore.point 4 checked.about my world crashing down on me.it's suppose to be for the finale.so i can write that all this things makes the world around me is crashing down on me.point 5 almost checked.

solely saved a paragraph for this point.i love a guy.but i can't have that guy.i feel i don't deserve this guy at all.he is a nice guy.one i would say is alot of a gentlement.something not all guys can achieve.sorry.no offence.but there are jerks out there and we all know it.if you are going to flame my blog.go ahead.just shows that you are guilty.no prob for me.ok.enough.anyway.yes i like this guy alot.well,not to the point i would die for him because i can't get him.we use to be good friends i guess.but now we hardly talk and of course yes i miss him.i found comfort when talking to him and now i can't find that comfort no more.like any girl.i am jealous when he is closer to other girls.yes i hate him talking to girls.laughing at their jokes.him making girls giggle.yes i hate it.but nothing i can do.so i guess best to let go.and yes.it takes time.takes effort.but i know as time pass by.the infactuation will definately fade off.point 6 checked.

ok.yes i know that i'm an angry person.i think i might need some anger management classes.i can't seem to score for tests.i'm lagging behind.i don't know what to do?maybe i'm not working hard enough.maybe i am just not born academically clever.i'm no genius.i'm no einstein.i won't become clever after the age of 4.i think my brain cells are dying faster than i age.o well.next.my parents doubt my ability.MY PARENTS!.what's wrong with this world?it all started...

me: mum,i don't know why i can't do well for my tests.i don't know why i can't score like korkor.[as affectionately called by me for my brother.]
mum: it's ok.i saw you studying.i know you worked very hard.
me: i wish i was as clever as korkor.
mum: how much do you expect to get for your o levels?
me: i hope to get at least 10.i wish i could get 6 like korkor.
mum: i don't expect you to get 6.i think if you get around less than 14 i would be happy.
me[shocked]: ok.[i didn't show my expression]
mum: to tell you the truth.i didn't expect him to get so much.but he made me proud.
me: ya.i know.

i know that mum thinks that she is making me feel less stressed by telling me this.but i felt hurt.very hurt.totally torned.i know that the points that korkor got was horrifying.i know i can't do that.i wish i could.i know my mum does.but it really hurt me.to have my own mother tell me this into my face.that she don't expect me to get such high marks.that really hurt me.

today.

me: i really wish i can score and do well like korkor.
mum: try your best.
dad: [didn't even answer me]
me: o well.i hope.
dad: [didn't even care about what i was saying]

that really did it.i was hurt.humiliated.who wouldn't want to score like korkor.i wish i could.you think i didn't want to?you think i'm slacking?then watch me study.i sleep late.i wake up early to study.and i'm tired of it.seriously.you know what?i don't care anymore.whatever.

i don't think anyone listens to me either.when i talk to me parents.mum just says that she is tired and dad just cares about watching his beloved shows.they are just so important to him.so important that he doesn't know that i'm 14+ going on 15 this year.when i score badly he would then scold me saying that i slacked.i did not study.i didn't put in my best.if you think you know me so well.why does all this happen?stay up with me and watch me study then.you sleep at 11.i sleep at 2am.you wake up at 6am.i wake up at 5am.what do you think i'm doing?playing?talking?listening to music?well let me cue you in.NO!.i am studying.i was studying.and i will still be studying.it just shows how much you all care about me.

thanks alot.i appreciate it.honestly.i 'do'.my friends don't listen to me.whenever i want to talk to them.some other people just have to budge their way in.grab my friend away from me.and there goes my last flicker of light.there goes my hope.my friend.i'm starting to think that i'm so superficial.what are all my friends for?i can't seem to be able to reach out to them.maybe it's not their fault.maybe it's mine.that i don't reach out to them.maybe i don't tell them all my problems.maybe it's just me.i should just fade away together with time.i guess no one would miss me when i'm dead.cause no one will realise it.no one will remember me.no one cares about me.you all don't miss me when i'm alive.so don't miss me when i'm dead.i have no one to lean on.i'm alone in this world.i'm fighting against all odds by myself.for myself.just me,myself and i.why is it that some people can find such good friends to talk to?why can't i?why?why is it just me?why does everyone else able to talk to someone?i wish i had such a friend.i really do.luck is just not on my side i guess.

ok.something that makes me boil with anger.I HATE.let me repeat if you people don't understand.I HATE YOU FREAKING PEOPLE WHO GO ON AND ON ABOUT MY FAVOURTIE COLOUR.fuck it.i like purple.is that against the law.if purple was not the international gay colour.would you people think that it is a gay colour?HUH?answer me.what's wrong with liking purple?give me reasons.good reasons.i am fucking fed up with people going on and on about it.if pink was the international gay colour.would those who like it now like it then?huh?i am very angry.don't be offended.but i just want to let you know jas.you support gay rights.then why do you discriminate purple?that's contradicting jas.that's call saying something that you don't mean at all.don't support gay rights if you don't like purple.you think you can accept gays then why can't you accept purple?i am fucking over the top now.i am very very upset and angry.if you can't accept what they like you won't be able to accept what they do and who they are.if gays walk on the road wearing purple.are you going to say that they are gays at the top of your voice?well,tell me.i really like to know.i want to know how you will react.if i wear purple,are you going to say that i'm a gay?it's my favourite colour.i'm not doing something that is against the law.so just cut some slack off me and stop going on about purpe being a gay colour.when there is a rule that says that liking purple is against the law.then tell me.everyone has a favourite colour.how would you feel if i go on and on teasing about your favourite colour?of course you will get pissed off.just like you all i am fucking pissed off now.so please respect me and my rights of liking purple.thank you.

so much things happened in school these days.so much till i can't seem to breathe.so choked up in it.especially fights.i must say.i hate fights.no offence.i wish everyone can calm down and talk things out.don't fight to resolve it.i know that some like to fight to resolve their issues.i repect that.but i like the world better without fights.without war.i don't know what to do.i'm a girl.i don't fight.i don't like fights either.i can't stand it.i can't stand blood shed.how many people must get hurt or die in this world to make the other party happy?of course i won't know.i wish everyone can calm down.think before they act.and then the world would become a happier place.i like that.=D

well.the last content.i think this is the worst of all.maybe i'm suffering from bipolar disorder?i don't know.i think i'm suffering from depression.whenever i tell people that i suspect it.they just go."you?depressed?you gotta be kidding me.if you get depression,the whole world would be suffering from mental problems man."i'm happy all the time people tell me.must i show it out?must i stop laughing.must i cry all the time?must i hide in a corner?must i start liking dark colours?must i fill all my thoughts with dark depressing moments to make you all think that i am suffering from depression?i'm sorry.i just don't act that way.i suspect it.but you all don't believe me.i just hope it's not too late when people realise that i do suffer from it.i told my parents that i might be suffering from depression.they just laugh their head off.why don't they believe me?i don't tell lies all the time.why can't anyone just listen to me for once.all i'm asking for is maybe 2-3 hours of your time to listen to my problems.is that too much?must i pay you to listen to me?if that's the case.i rather not.i rather not tell anyone.i feel that nothing can be done anymore.i'm in the state of falling into a deep dark hole.nothing can pull me out of it.it's like the black hole.it's too late.the world has lost me.God has lost me.i just want to know something,where is God when i needed him to get out of this situation?this plight i'm in.i don't know.i wish God was here to help me.i really need him now.but somehow.my church is doing nothing to save me.no wonder so many people are leaving the church.i finally realise why.i guess that they have the same thoughts as i do.i don't know where God is.i still believe that there is God.i hope that the church doesn't dash this last hope that i have.i love you God.i do.but i need to see some miracle happen in my life.thank you God.i love you always.

MY WORLD IS CRASHING DOWN ON ME!!!!!!!!!!

2006-02-19T03:11:00.000-08:00

i seriously don't know where that post came from.but i feel good after saying everything i have clogged up in my heart.i must warn you all agin.

VIEWERS DISCRETION.

if you are sensitive to the word.'fuck'.then don't read.don't go reading the post and then tell me in my tag board that i was rude or what.cause i have warned you people.and it was your choice to go on reading it.

2006-02-19T03:03:00.000-08:00

i know the time now is a little wierd to be blogging.but i slept for almost 12hours today.so i am like totally awake now.and a little high for some reasons.

well anyway.i would say i am kinda bored now cause i have nothing to do at all!.no one to talk to.cause no one is up at this time.and i can't seem to get good books to read at all.so well.i decided to update my blog!aren't you all glad?lols.for what i am going to post,i must warn you all.viewers discretion.this is my blog and therefore i say anything i want.do anything i want.if you don't like it that much.leave.no one is forcing you to stay.'fuck expresses me very well'quoted from kazan.and yes.it expresses me well too.so i use it as often as i want.thank you.i shall start now.

since no one is up.i can only vent my anger in blogs instead of venting it on people.so.i would start with this freak that i know.i would call the person it.cause it's a total disgrace to put it with us homosapians.it has no life.going after boys that are out of bounds.thinking that it is very pretty.talking about other people the whole day.thinking that it is right all the freaking time.thinking that you are so cute.so pretty.that's pretty sad you know.i think you don't know cause you still act this way.o man.advice from me to you.just the fucking hell sod off will you.you just don't belong in this world.you are like the mutation of satan.however.satan is like 100 times better than you.I FUCKING HATE YOU.read this portion.you can ignore the rest.but you have to know that i hate you.o.not just me.practically the whole world does.that's pretty sad too.it's not that i'm mean.you're just not cute.and i am very sorry about that.try harder to please us ok.freaking it.thinking of you just make me want to puke.i hate you beyond words.i know God doesn't like me hating people.but do i have a choice?you are one freaking asshole that i can't stop thinking about.not in a good way.but whatever.i wish you would get knocked down by a truck and sent to hell.=).hope you enjoy it.go on and provide free prostitiution to your boyfriend.you whore.seriously talking about how you 2 have sex doesn't appeal to me.so get a life.stop trying to get our attention cause you are totally off the track.go on and get your guy to come beat me up.in any sort of court case.i will still win it.

next.i really don't know why but i really have alot of anger clogged up in me now.and i really want to push it out of me.it's kinda choking me to death.another it i am going to rant about.it is also very embarrassing to put it together with us homosapians.total disgrace.you are seriously over the top.is it very hard to keep your mouth shut?is it very hard to stop being attention seeking?people like you are hopeless and in trouble.you seriously are hated by many.just that you don't know.you are so les that i can't stand you.you are so fucking off the hook.i can't stand you clinging on to me you biatch.get a life.i am not your tree or whatever you think i am.i fucking hate you too.touch me one more time and i will lose my cool.don't make me beat you up cause of you.it dirties my hand and i feel embarrassed beating someone who is not worth it at all.thank you.

and now for contestant number 3.i actually have no problem with you.but sometimes you piss me off.together with contestant number 2.you 2 are such good friends that i really want to thank you both for something.you make it easier for me to hate you both.thank you very much.losers.

well then.not everyone in this world would like me.same for me.i would not like every one in this world.i would not have posted this if you all hadn't piss me off so much.but whatever.after saying all these.i feel good.thank you blogger.thank you 3 so that i was able to post today.thank you.

2006-02-05T12:37:00.000-08:00

ok.so i didn't post for the past few days.but i had my reasons.lols.i had to study and everyday i return home at like 6+ 7.and i have so much homework till i didn't know how to cope.it's shit i get everday.anyway.i seriously can't think of anything to say or post.let me think.hmm.

i don't really know.

anyway.let me fill you in about saturday.cause i have STM[short term memory].so more or less i forgot what i did on wed,thurs and fri.lols.

so.yesterday,i had to go to school cause there was an alumni concert and guzheng had to perform.so ok.i didn't have to perform cause my group had too many people and too little helpers,so i was one of the helpers.joy to the world.finally for once i didn't have to perform.well,it was all ok i guess.i met up with ruey at 12+ to go to school together.then we reached at like 12.45 la.so shit.so early.but we went to the canteen to have a drink then we went up to the resource room.but on the way,we met mrs chew and she gave us the keys to open the resource room.ok then.we went up.opened the door and settled in,and the performers started doing all sorts in the room.lols.then skip to the part where we went to the home econs room to get ready.for those who don't know why we went there,it's because the home econs room is the nearst to performing area.

ok.i am really not into bloggin now.so i will cut short all the details.

we went to the audi.watched the alumni people play games,watched the cldds perform 2 plays,which i must say was very funny.then we listened to the alumni people and choir sing.then it was guzheng's turn.then after we performed,we went to keep our insturments and went home.then me,ruey and jas went to j8 to shop.i saw alot of things that i want to buy from there.i want to buy the butterfly notebook from precious thoughts.i want to buy the 3/4 from forgot which shop.i want to buy the short jacket from ebase which cost $99.out of reach.lols.i want to buy the puffy sleeve shirt from P.O.A.so much to buy,so little money.haha.

ok.that's about it.last but not least.

I MISS 2E4!LOVE YOU ALL!

2006-01-31T16:06:00.000-08:00

ok.i have finally gotten out of my pathetic 'miss 2e4' shell and become a lot more happier!hahas.no la.i talk cock.although i am out of that pathetic state,but i will never forget 2e4 de.

2e4 forever!

i will miss you all forever.i thought about it le.it's not really fair that i keep comparing 2e4 with 3e4.it's not the same.i haven't even given a chance to let 3e4 shine and then i keep pressing it down.miss lam also likes comparing us with her old class and i know alot of us didn't like it as well.and when miss lam did that,i would always think 'why don't you just give us a chance.we only came together to this class for like what?3 days?'.so i was thinking,3e4 deserves a chance too,shouldn't judge a book by it's cover.oh well then.

so enough of the i will never forget 2e4 and i will give 3e4 a chance thing.now let's talk about what i did yesterday!aren't you all excited!hahas.anyway.i went out with dork and her brother yesterday.we actually wanted to go shopping in suntec,but her brother wanted to watch i not stupid too.so her dad told us to compromise and so we had to go and watch it.but i must say,it was a really good show.

first we went to ps to catch the movie.we got there and i was totally shocked.none of the shops were open and so i paniced,'what if suntec is not opened as well?!'but dork called her friend and her friend said that today the shops would open for half day.so i was kinda relieved.anyway.we went straight up to go and get movie tickets and then we went to the ladies.o.almost forgot,we went to watch the 12.40 show.it was really good.the male actors have grown up and are, i must say, quite cute and good-looking.lols.part of movie,must look at the actors.lols.the story line was not bad i think.it was really touching.it is like half touching and half funny.it is like they make you want to cry.then they show you something funny.then you laugh.then they make you want to cry again.then they show you something funny again.so i seriously didn't know how to react then.lols.and finally the show ended and my eyes were like puffy.lols.i didn't cry,but was on the verge of.

anyway,after the movie,we took mrt to city hall to go to suntec.and to our horror.all the shops not OPEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.a wasted trip.sighs.then we went down to mac to have a little snack first.and then dork's brother made a big fuss and wanted to go to the arcade.since the shops are close,no harm.so we went to the arcade and we played a few games and we went home,cause there is seriously nothing for us to do there.hardly any shops were opened.so actually my day yesterday was quite boring.

but i must say,i not stupid too is a very good show,well,to me.so if you don't like it,don't have to come and tell me how bad the show is,cause different people have different taste.i would encourage everyone to at least give it a try and go watch it.=)

au revior then.

LOVE YA 2E4!

2006-01-29T22:02:00.000-08:00

today nothing happened much.just that i went to look at thing's blog just now.it was so lame lor.she was talking about the nokia's new phone.the La'amour collection.and how the deco in orchard was nice and that it was mind-blowing and if you want to specially go down there to have a look.she recommends it.

i felt like wringing thing's neck.lols.how can anyone be so lame.then i read the older posts.and it was all about 2e4.then realisation struck me.you will never get over 2e4.it's just not right.it just will not happen.i felt the same too.the first day of school.i looked into 2e4's old classroom.and i stared at it.i started to recall the first day of sec2 which i lost my way and no one told me that the class was downstairs.so shit la.i went up to the 3rd floor and had to walk down again.lols.morning exercise.then i recalled all the happy moments we shared.it just would not fade away.i remembered the sec2 camp.i remembered the literary evening.i remembered how united we were.how we won competitions.i wish we would be able to stay as a class forever.but it will never happen i guess.i too told myself that

'girl.2e4 is over.3e4 is your future.learn to love it.put your heart and soul to it.'

well.it did not work.it will not work i guess.i wish it would.cause i will have to live with this class for another 2 years.can you imagine my pain.of wanting to be with your old class and you can't and hoping that you can do well with your new class?it's self delusional.it's hard to live like that.

I MISS 2E4.

and this will never change.2e4 forever.and we will stay that way.love ya all.

2006-01-28T23:54:00.000-08:00

ARGH!damm it.re-reading the post makes people feel very down.i miss our beloved instuctor's so much.i miss the great time we have there.i miss david telling super lame jokes.lols.i miss gabriel em..em..his super long ultra speeches.lols.i miss the activities there.i miss the food.i miss spending time with my friends.i miss the toilet..??LOLS.i really miss everything there.sighs.it was all perfect except for one thing.and that one thing is that it isn't 2e4 going together.sighs.i nothing more to say.except for

I MISS 2E4!!!!!!!!

sighs.i just don't know what to do.i am sick and tired of making this class unite.it just doesn't work that way.nothing compares to 2e4.i miss camp too.i toy is right.it is a camp.which means 3days 2 nights.so we must have that xin li jun bei that we will miss the people there.but we must be able to let go as well.i told myself as my new year resolution.always be happy.and must let go.i'm a very sentimental person.i still have what my kindergarden teacher gave me and i won't let mum throw it away.so it will be kinda hard for me to forget about nice things.but what to do.miss talib is right this time.i forgot the whole thing.but it is something like this.you might like something alot.but at some point of time you would have to let it go.and if it comes back to you.then you are meant to be with it.we learn from the past and live for the future.and that all good things would come to an end one day.damm it.why is she right this time?i wish camp would go on forever.although i would also miss my family.why can't we want both good things to happen to us at a point of time?it just doesn't work out when you are recoperating from a seperation and you have to enjoy something nice like this camp.it doesn't match.sighs.

2006-01-28T16:18:00.000-08:00

all right people.i'm finally here to update this blog.and it's about my sec 3 camp.i know it's kinda conked up cause i'm writing about it when it like ended on wednesday.but i couldn't find time to do it.so ya.i specially took out time today to write about it!

ok.so on monday.that's when the camp started.i woke up at like 5.30 am cause i had to go to school to put up the remaining chinese new year decorations.skip to the part where we got onto the bus.i sat with kazan and jeryl sat with chun.i was really have scared and half excited.because looking at the things we were doing.it was all high up.and i was really horrified.because of my fear of heights.i must tell you i almost cried the whole night before going to camp.anyway.on the bus.me kazan chun and jer started singing.anything that came to our mind.i started singing the macdonald song.lols.the chicken and beef fantastic thing.i think i almost drove the whole bus crazy.but at least kazan chun and jer sang together with me.lols.the whole bus ride was kinda fun cause the 4 of us sang all the way there.you can say we amused ourselves all the way there.and i must add some special note to some people.

" look.we are enjoying ourselves ok.we love our colourful life.we love amusing ourselves.so if you are jealous of us.or simply can't get over yourselves.i suggest you shut the hell up.and shut your ears.no one is telling you to listen to us if you can't stand us.i don't understand why you have to bring other's spirit down when you are not enjoying it at all?i seriously think that you should have just stayed in school if you hated going to enjoy a camp so badly. "

anyway.let's skip to the part where we were allocated our instructors.a group of us,well,including me think that our instructors were the best looking ones there.our instuctors were david and gabriel.lols.it's part of the camp too right.admiring your instructors.lols.it was cool.my group was called bandarlog.which means baboon.lols.that native american looking ape with a red butt.lols.

on our first day david took us around for our activites.our first activity,guess what.it was kayaking.i was really excited about it.i thought it was really cool.so we went to change into our wet activity clothes and went for it.i don't quite remember the instructor's name.but i thought he was really good.he was really in teaching us how to padal and stuff like that.kayaking was fun.but sad that we had little time to play cause we arrived late.then next up we went for lunch.i must say,the food there rocks!after lunch,we went for low elements.i would say it wasn't really fun.maybe cause it wasn't thrilling.lols.so i won't elaborate much about it.and then it was flying fox.i can tell you i was totally scared about it.i was freaked out.cause i have a terrible fear of heights.but surprisingly i didn't cry here.when i went down.i wanted to scream but i was too afraid to do it.i dared not open my mouth at all.but it was all right when you are on your way down.it was really breezy and nice,although i was still scared and shaky about it.cause when i took off my harness.i kinda wobbled.lols.then last activity for the day was rock climbing.i was really tired already so i didn't really scale the whole thing.at least i went over the red line.lols.and then it was showering time!i must let you know that the toilets there rock!lols.there were alot of cubicles and they were really big and nice and clean.then dinner!never the less.DE-LICIOUS!and skip to our night activity.it was all right.lols.we had to put on our blindfolds and do a blind man's walk.i must say that sister clement,you are kinda laggy.lols.there was a part where people passed down the message about a slope.and when i got to the slope.i told kazan who was behind me to look out for the slope and guess what.sister clement ask me "how do you know where the slope is?" i replied "i'm walking on the slope you dummy." lols.and i think that was all.after that activity.we had to plan on our campfire item.lols.we got the cheer done and we were going to do the visa ad about the little indian girl and doves.and i am the little indian girl...lols.o well.and then we went back to the canteen to either have supper or reflections.but i went back to the dorm after my reflections.and nights to one day.it passed really fast.

second day it was gabriel's turn to take us to all our activities.we woke up and i tell you i was damm cold at night.lols.i was really tired.first we had morning exercise and then we had breakfast.guess what.we had nasi lemak.lols.so cool.this camp food rocks.then we went on to our activities.the 3 activities before lunch were high rope 1,2 and 3.i didn't really finish high rope 1 cause yesterday we did rock climbing and i injured my hand.so it was kinda hard to scale it at all.then next was high rope 2.it wouldn't be 2 if it wasn't harder and higher right.i totally freaked out on it.i tell you i felt like dying.it was like walking on a tight rope but you have ropes hanging down so you can grab them and walk.but halfway i freaked out and begged them to let me down.but they asked me to continue.and so i thought.why not since i'm already halfway.i did a little prayer.and continued!guess what.i finished that damm thing.when i got to the other side,i almost collasped and cried.but the rope hanging me was too tight.so i couldn't drop down and cry.lols.and then it came to high rope 3 and it got even higher and scarier.i didn't even do it.too scared.you would have to drag me and carry me up and pull me across it to make me do it.lols.and then it was lunch.and it was bandarlog's turn to do the lunch duty!hahas.lunch rocks again.seriously if i was to stay there all my life.i wouldn't mind at all.lols.next up was nature rumble,i actually didn't want to do it cause of some ahem reasons.but in the end i did it.i must say.it totally rocked.first because another cute guy was going to lead our group.guess what.he was gabriel's twin brother fabian.hahas.and secondly,you get to squish your feet into the mud and then walk in some lake.it was totally cool.it was fun also.we all got dirty.and we all got each other wet by splashing each other with water.and we splashed gabriel with loads of water.lols.it was totally cool.i really miss it.you don't get to get dirty without your mum nagging at you everyday you know.it was fun.then we had rafting.but i kazan and clarice didn't do it cause we cut our legs during the nature rumble.then all of us had to go on top of the raft to see if it can support all of us.and then suddenly gabriel took the water hose and sprayed water at us saying,"who sprayed me just now huh!".lols.and obviously the people around me jumped down cause i was all wet.well,at least i don't have to go and fight for a toilet now.lols.and since we still had time.we prepared our item for the night.i won't go into that detail.skip to dinner and again it rocks.and then it was time for our campfire.the start of the campfire was really cool cause skull blew fire.it was really cool.and the campfire was ok.i think.we did cheer.we had dance competition.jer won!together with another girl from our good friend's class.3e6.she was really good too.then we did our item.i think we did great!but with proper mic.we could have done better.and after that.it was the end.we were all really sad.i mean.it was really fun.i can't bear to leave at all.then gabriel went into a super long debriefing.lols.and then we washed up and me kazan jer and chun went to the canteen to talk with the rest of our old classmates.and then at 12 midnight.we were chased to bed.i didn't want to sleep.i didnt't want it all to end so fast.sighs.

third day...last day of camp.we woke up.well.i woke up later then the day before.cause i didn't want to go.then we gathered at the carpark to do morning exercise.but some people arrived late.so we didn't do it.and then we had breakfast.it rocked yet another time.and then we gathered at the carpark again.and gabriel came to tell us that he had to go to the campsite next door to wait for the new batch of p6 students to come.we were all really sad he had to go.but it's his job right.so he went and david stayed with us.at least he could stay with us before going to the other camp.then we had to the the area cleaning and our job was to clean the boys bunk.i won't go into details cause it was ultimately gross.then after cleaning we still had some time so we sat in a coner and talked about absolutely nothing at all and told super lame jokes.lols.and then adrian came and did many stupid stuff also.lols.it was crazy.i totally enjoyed it.and we just didn't realise how fast time passed.well.like what miss talib said.good things never last.and guess what.we won the whole camp.we were the best group.we were great!i really hoped we made david and gabriel proud.hahas.and then when it was our time to leave.we started chanting gabriel's name to let him know that we were leaving.but he didn't come.we thought he didn't hear us.and so david pei to our bus.we were really sad.while settling down.suddenly someone shouted."gabriel's coming!he is running here!"we were like shocked and so happy at the same time.and we told him we won.it was really nice of him to come see us for the last time.i almost wanted to cry.but it's a happy occasion right.and then i must say.i thought that gabriel's eyes were watery.nan ren liu xue bu liu lei.lols.but it was touching to see that.at least we know that he liked us alot.and when our bus was leaving we blew kisses to them and they were supporting each other and daivd pretended to cry.lols.if i'm not wrong gabriel pretended he caught our kisses and pasted them on his cheeks.that was just so sweet.and then we set off.o.and we won a notebook.it was nothing much.but it gives us the memory.i really miss the camp.

now so many days had passed.but i will never forget about this wonderful thing that has happened to me after the bad thing that 2e4 seperated after the streaming.it is true.good things never last forever.i miss everything and i wish we could do it again.just one more time.lols.it would be so cool.well.i guess that's all about the camp i can say.it's really long.lols.enjoy.if you want to know our cheers.go to kazan's blog.hahas.

AHHHHHHHHHHH!why must god do this to us.first the seperation of 2e4.then the leaving of camp.it's just not right to go through all this hurt and pain.life is horrible.[sniffs]

2005-12-31T00:00:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!

ok.everyone.we are entering into the new year.and guess what.for the 1st time in my life.i think i'm going to hate a new year.let me tell you why.

1. no more 2e4.and welcome to 3e4.
2. no more the united class.i think my class is going to suck.
3. no more to the fun loving class.and welcome to the strict class of e.lim.
4. i have to mug harder this year.but since when do i mug?
5. i am going to miss 2e4 hell lot.

that's about it.anyway.god must have alot in store for me.i just have to accept it.much that i want to just skip all this and become an event planner now.but.sophia, be patient.!!!!ok.so i saw the fireworks outside my window.although it wasn't really clear.but i saw it.it would be great to stay some where near the party and really enjoy everything.so anyway.new year.so there got to be some resolution right.here it is.

1. don't expect me to lie this year.cause i'm going to say it into your face.
2. going to mug real hard this year.no more slacking.[i will have to spend some time on this one]
3. i'm going to love god more than this year.
4. i am finally going to enjoy doing homework.[i hope so]
5. i really want to enjoy my brithday this year.[i am really craving for cakes this year]

ever since i got into p4 or something like that.i never gotten any cake anymore.mum thought it was a waste of money since i don't eat them.but for so long.never had a real good party ever since.i really miss it.so hopefully.i get this wish to come true this year!

ok.so that's all for my new year resolution.now my wishes.

1. definately the cake.i want a cake so badly.lols
2. a new pencil case.[dork has taken care of it already]
3. a new wallet.maybe i can use my birthday money my bro gave me to buy it.
4. a new organiser.i think i really need one.
5. i really want to join the dance school.hopefully kazan and jeryl can too.[pray]
6. lastly.i definately want the crystal ball in precious thoughts.not going to say which one.god leads the way.lol.

so all right then.that's all for today.so everyone.au revior.and once again

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-12-28T00:14:00.000-08:00

hey people.i'm back here on another episode of sophia's boring life.just that today's is alot better than my ordinary boring life.=)let's start with...this morning.

this morning.yes my alarm clock was set to 8.30am.but then i fell asleep again until 9am when my mum finally stepped into my room to wake me up to go to school with her to help her laminate some of her works.then i went home after helping for like maybe 30mins.

after i got home.started the comp and played maple for like 10mins.then i got ready to go to ps to watch the chronicles of narnia:the lion, the witch and the wardrobe at 12 with xinhui.i thought i was going to be late.cause at like 11.30am i was still waiting for a bus outside my house to take me to j8 to take the mrt to douby ghout.well.i thought i was late.but guess who was later?lols.anyways.thanks to xinhui.i had that extra time to realise that actually singapore loves me sooooo much!hahas.they even named roads,apartments,buildings and many more after me.lols.i loved it.

hahas.so when xinhui got here.i showed it to her.lols.singapore adores me soooo much that they simply had no other way to show it then to name places after me.how good was that?lols.then xinhui and i went to the top level to get our tickets to the show.who knew.it was like almost sold out.no places anymore.so we rushed over to cine and to watch the show at cathay.it was great!there were like totally no one compared to ps lining up for tickets.it was great!awesome.so we bought tickets to watch the digital set.if anyone wants to know what's the difference,digitals are more clear and sharper.so we got our tickets and we head for yoshinoya for our lunch.we ate,talked and had some fun.there were like a group of kiddys that will never grow up playing around us.lols.it was hilarious.

finally.we went to watch the show.and i have to complain about the sickening people sitting behind us.they were like debating who should seat what seat.it was irritating.they were like."no no no.the sides have ghost.what if a ghost comes out and grab me?"and they started laughing.i started laughing too.for a total different reason.i was laughing because i didn't know how could people at the age of like 18-20 be laughing at a 'joke' like this?!it was total hilarious listening to them embarassing themselves.lols.jokers...

the advertisment time if they made a dint i won't give a damm at all.but they were talking at the top of their voices throughout the whole movie.i mean like what can i do to make you keep quiet?or more crudely.why the fucking hell are you talking when people are watching movie.you sick ass holes...anyways.the movie was awesome.really.totally encourage all those that are reading this blog to go and watch it.if you miss it.you totally don't know what you are missing on.

anyways.it was great.awesome.mind blowing.anything you can use to describe very very very very very very good.ya.so i got to go.and thanks for reading an episode of sophia's boring life.and until then.see you next time.=)

2005-12-24T01:17:00.000-08:00

ok people.sorry for the late update.or maybe no update.lols.so this is about my church camp.enjoy.

ok.so my camp starts at a wierd time slot.it starts at 7pm.lols.and it's like.umm.shit?anyways.guess what.our church didn't have enough pillows and bedsheets and blankets.so we had to bring our own.i'm only going for three days and my bag weighed a ton.hilarious if you asked me.

then we had briefing and supper and went to sleep.hahas.dorks hate me cause i got the better room.lols.they all had the see through room and i got the covered one.they made it clear that no guys were allowed.but then guys were like moving in and out of our level like it was some lobby.lols.

first day over.second day.woke up and praised god that i was leaving the next day.freshened up.and then got ready for breakfast.then had meetings.i shall make it fast and skip all the meeting ok.then it came to the activites.it was kinda nice actually.i maybe thought it was great cause it's like the best out of all the church camps games.hahas.so i kinda forgot the games already cause it's like one week already?hahas.ya.but it was really great.after games.went for cleaning up.dinner and meeting.and then got ready to sleep.nice day.NOT.

third day.same routine.woke up.clean up.breakfast.meetings.activities was great.hahs.and then clean up.dinner.meetings.and ahah!.i didn't sleep in the church.but i went home.!yay!.but i missed the activities for the next day.they had amazing race.how bad was that?lols.but never mind.

ok.so that's all for my church camp update.now next up is my guzheng bbq.hahas.not very filled up.but i think none the less fun.

i went there together with jas and xinyi.then when we got there.there were only like 4 other people there.but nevermind.we waited.but then we waited for only like 20 mins.and then we started the fire for out bbq.o ya.we went to mingli's house for the bbq.it was pretty nice.

we went up to her house.together with miss tham's son.he is so a-dorable.hahas.then mingli's house was quite nice.although a little small.but it's fine.it was really breezy.very cooling.and then we quickly went down to bbq.hahas.it was cool.hahas.nothing much to say about the cooking but it tasted quite good.

then we had our christmas give outs.it was fun.the gifts were seperated into 2 different groups.the starters and the consolasions.we had to choose the starters or the consols by fishing for it.qianyu held 2 papers.and you choose one of it.then whatever group they wrote on the paper.you get to choose from that group of gifts.get the idea?.then when you get your group.you use the same method but there are more papers now in each cup and fish for your present.starters are slightly more better than consol present.and i got 2 consols.don't know how some people can be soooooooooooo lucky and get 2 starters.lols.i was a little disappointed.but it's ok.at least they bought us presents.hahas.i got a supppper cute piggy mouse holder.and a tin of sweets.hahas.if i was like 4 years younger.i would totally kill anyone who wanted to touch that tin of sweets.cause it's hello kitty.hahas.but now i'm fine with it.hahas.waiting till christmas to open it and eat them.hahas.

i like to thank kiang pin and qian yu for spending so much time to get us presents.really appreciate it.and then mingli booked the billiard table so we can play.it was fun.me and xinyi went against joice and yuhan.quite fun.but no one won cause they had to leave to clean the pit.so left me jas and xinyi in the room to clear the game.lols.

after playing we went back up to help clear.hahas.it was fun.cause we all wanted to finish the food plus act like we are cleaning.hahas.then after cleaning.i jas and yuling went back together.then jas went home herself when we reached the bishan interchange.then me and yuling went home together.it was nice.not to mention how smelly the bbq made me.lols.

anyways.it's late.so bye people.

2005-12-07T00:20:00.000-08:00

okays.everybody.i'm back to update this dead blog of mine.but who cares?it's not as though there are millions of people reading my blog.it's not as though anyone realises that i actually have a blog.a shocker there.i didn't see that coming.wao.whatever.but i would really like to thank my GLU's.my all time bitches.and last but not least.shir.i gues you're the only sole inhabitants who are actually reading my blog.

maybe i should have a little hong xing da jiang here.to thank those who come and read my dead blog.thank you one and all.

script:i would like to thank joy.for always reminding me to update my blog.and to always tell sam that i never update my blog so that she can choke it out of me everytime she sees me.i would like to thank sam for always giving me wierd ideas so that i can blog and save my dead blog.i would like to thank her for choking it out of me too.although i don't really like the way she is doing it.lols.i would also like to thank sab who always do stupid stuff to brighten up my dead life and make me wanna update my blog.hahs.there you go with my 3 GLU's.i would like to thank kristen who always stays as a silent reader in my blog and always comfort me when i'm down.thanks sweety.i would like to thank danielle who always make shopping a whole lotta fun.i would like to thank claire.she is the best throughout.and she loves me.lols.don't lie to me.les partner.lols.i also would like to thank jenna who always goes out with me when i need a good cup of coffee.for joy sam and sab.i don't have to thank you all again do i?lols.so that's all for the biatches.then i would like to thank shir for always reminding me to update my blog.thanks shir for always being there when i needed you.thanks alot mum.hahas.

that's it for my hong xing da jiang.hahas.anyways,did anyone realise that zoe tay was really attention-seeking this year.i read it in the news.she was like hogging the mike making christopher ask for fann's hand in marriage.lols.she is one crazy woman.then she was going on about having babies.really.you don't have to get a prize to be in the center of attention.it's totally crazy.lols.anyways.that's all.

let me tell you about my day today then.it totally sucked,i'm telling you.i woke up watched a little tv.like sabrina.winx club.lols.teen titans.today's teen titans was really funny because every acted as robin.hahs.it was really funny.then i watched seasame streets.hahas.isn't that great?!it was awe-some.lols.then i started playing maple.really going bonkers over it.ya.that's all for today's living in sophia's life for one day.see you tomorrow same time same place.okays i will see you there!hahs.

okays enough fooling around and bye everyone.thanks for reading this blog.which no one else would except those people i mentioned above.AU REVOIR EVERYBODY!

2005-11-09T20:12:00.000-08:00

okays.helllllooo everybody.thank you for taking out your precious time to come here and grace this occasion.thank you for gracing this very boring and stupid blog by sophia.=).thank you one and all.

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LOLS!

hahahs.okays.very high now.try not to talk to me.so here i am letting you read about my boring life.let me tell you why i got so pissed now.i was suppose to go hk to shop together with my neighbours[they are from hk].but then my mum's kidergarden decides that she needs to go for extra lesson to better her skills and single handling a bunch of zoo monkeys!can you believe it.i hate kindergardens.they totally spoilled my holis.anyways.i know they did it on purpose.they want me to suffer during my holis.i can't believe how selfish they are.and they are sure doing a really good job in making rot at home.anyways.

okays.let me tell you about yesterday then.woke up.did nothing.followed by doing nothing.then did nothing.then had lunch.after lunch.pulled out a book to read.it's called running away from richard.it's a really good book.a very funny book.hahas.everyone should read it.i will give a few quotes later.then.i read the book until forgot what time.had dinner.then went online.then yc showed me his cousin's cat named gigi.it sounds wierd for a guy cat.but yc say it sounds perfectly fine to the cantos.well.it's one really cute cat though.it's like so chubby that i want to pinch the hell out of it.and it did one really funny thing.yc tired to carry it up to let me see it through the web cam.through a failed attempt.the cat kicked the keyboard.and escape.but i didn't get to see it do that.but i bet it's gonna be sooooooo cute.wahahahahs.but it's really violent cause when yc tried to carry him.it scratched and bite him.so.ya.then i chat with a few people online and toy asked me if i wanted to go to watch harry potter and the goblet of fire cause she can get tickets at $5 on a weekend.who wouldn't want it?i agreed.half because of the price.half because i get to go see tom felton.those who don't know him.he is draco malfoy.for those who don't even know who is draco malfoy.just know that he is one great hottie!hehes.and then that toy.hmph.cause she don't really know draco malfoy.she kept making me angry. * sticks out tongue *.hahahs.hmph.next time i buy dvd with oliver james in it.i won't let you watch.wahahhas.so ya.after that i got ready to go to bed.next day have guzheng.ya.

woke up early today to get ready for guzheng.then went to school together with ruey.hahas.today she wasn't late.in fact we were early.by 15mins.can you believe that.hahas.cause we are always late.that's why.then after that.we went to j8 to get my lunch.gosh.i will never not take breakfast in the morning again.i could feel that the hydrochloric acid eating up my stomach walls.lols.after that.we went to kcpss to go help ruey's mum settle the books so she can get ready to sell them on the day.[ruey's mum owns the bookshop in kcpss]we seperated the book covers and pack them in groups of 10.then we packed the subect files according to a group and put the content pages inside and packed them into the plastic bag.it was really tiring.but fun.cause we two gossip soooooooooooooooooooo much.lols.anyways.that's all.

[quotes from 'running away from richard]
- i wanted to reach across the table for his steak knife and stab him right through the heart.I wanted to holdhim by the throat and stick a fork into his eyes.I wanted to lacerate his stupid face with a broken plate.I wanted to smash his wine-glass on the table and grind the broken shards into his groin.

hahs.very funny right.o.and to share with you all my joy.from hilary duff's old song.i thought it was very nice.

Crash
That was you and me
Started out so innocently
Shattered on the ground
I hear the sound
Crash
Ringing in my ears
I still feel the sting of my tears
Someone wake me
I can't seem to break free

[Chorus]Go on
Get out of my head
I'm on the wrong side of a parallel universe
Am I alive or just dead
I've been stumbling in the dark
Living in a crash world

Hush
Don't say one more word
At this point the truth seems absurd
Cause who we were
If gone forever Crash
Underneath the fears
Everything's so twisted and weird
Someone save me
I can't seem to break free

[Chorus]Go on
Get out of my head
I'm on the wrong side of a parallel universe
Am I alive or just dead
I've been stumbling in the dark
Living in a crash world
[Other people] Crash world, yeah yeah

Slow motion
Devastation
Should'n seen it coming
But I couldn't do nothing
Emotion
Desperation
Someone save me
I can't seem to break free

[Chorus]Go on
Get out of my head
I'm on the wrong side of a parallel universe
Am I alive or just dead
I've been stumbling in the dark
Living in a crash world [Reapeat twice]
[Other people] say twice Crash world, yeah, yeah

2005-10-31T23:48:00.000-08:00

okays.since there is no more school.no more exams.and now there is a computer in my room.wahahahs.no more reasons not to update my blog.sighs.i miss 2e4.who would'nt.i really hope we did'nt have to split.anyways.i'm here to update about my hallowen party.which i must add.IT WAS A TERRIBLE BORE.lols.

we went there at 5pm.met ying first.then i JAYED!.wohoos.lols.a bit excited jayying infront of my school because i did'nt have to wear my school uniform so i won't get caught.lols.then met ivy and xinhui.then ziyu came.followed by shir and thing.they were late.fasionably late.wahahahs.anyways.when we got there.it was like.em...wt...it was'nt scary.we did'nt do trick or treating.it sucked.totally so not hallowen.people were dressed in gown like dresses!seriously...then we had treasure hunt.to walk round the place to look for 'zhonghua'...i was like.let's just walk around and explore this place.wahahahs.then we all agreed.lols.then in the end.we just called elena to bring us to her house.lols.and we went!we went to mess up her place.it was so funny.we went to look at all her stuff.her room was so pretty.wahahahs.although it is smaller than my room.but it was so clean.i can't even find any space to walk in my room!lols.then shir called us to ask us whether we wanted to go to terence's house for steamboat.then we all agreed.lols.then after snacking at elena's house.shir called us and told us that kengchong was here to bring us to terence's house.so we went down.then in the end we did'nt go cause the boys made us sound so despo.lols.then in the end.we made our $3 very worthwhile there.we kept eating.lols.although we did'nt pay the $3 in the end.don't know why.then after that.we took silly pics.and then played in the playground.then after that.when no one was looking at us.we went to play in the pool.wahahhas.so fun.ya.that is like everything we did there.then after that.it was around 9pm when we left there.my dad was waiting for me at the school busstop.so we walked back there.wahahahs.so i came home with a flu.lols.sick now.

okays that's about it.my boring day.although it was fun playing in the water.wahahahs.

2005-10-29T15:22:00.000-07:00

okays.so here i am updating my half dead blog.i am here not to crap.but to write a shoutout to my favourite class...2e4.i really don't know what i would do without you all.you all brighten up my life.and i will always thank you all for that.

i remember it like it was my first day in school.i came to school hating it.no one i knew was in my class.until i found out that kazan was transfered into zhonghua.thank god for that.lols.and now.i am leaving this class loving it and the school.can you believe how much impact it is.it is definately a good memory.i am starting to miss it already.sighs.how am i gonna cope when i get to sec 3?

anyways.here is the shout out. =) enjoy.

dor-love you always girl.though we don't talk much.but i thank you for listening to me crap all the time.

ophe-thanks for being there as my friend.

xiao en aka. my ou xiang[my idol]-MY OU XIANG! wahahas.really.i am gonna miss you so much.lols.love ya loads.

glor-thanks for always bringing laughter to my life in this boring class.lols.and for siting next to me in class.my right hand man.lols.

ivy aka. toyplant- [sniffs] i am gonna miss you the most.i miss you craping together with me.i miss being your tatty.i miss getting lock up in your cupboard.i miss being accused for making out with mr tortoise.lols[which i don't actually make out with]i miss being the gui fei and you being huang hou.lols.i miss calling you a plant.and making fun that you need miss tan's vitamin D treatment because you need to photosynthesize.lols.i miss hugging you.i miss lessing with you.i miss making fun of you.i miss going out with you.i miss talking about 'things' with you.lols[very long]

elena aka miss artist-though we don't talk that much.i thank you for bearing my crappiness.lols.and me talking crap all the time.lols

thing aka. miss lame-i will miss you telling me crap jokes all the time.i will definately miss your lame jokes.lols.your crapiness brought laughter to my life.[although i laugh at absolutely nothing]wahahahs.

ying-im gonna miss you alot too.us talking crap.talking about 'things'.us shopping.lols.miss you.

kazan aka. miss noisy-im gonna miss you alot too.you too brought laughter to my life.us always talking crap in class.talking about absolute nothing at all.our craze for miyavi and tom felton.hahas.us playing 205 and always winning shawn which he know claims we are cheating cause we work so well with each other.lols.thanks for siting next to me in class.my left hand man.hahas.i am gonna miss ignoring shawn because of his stupid remarks.and i am gonna miss making funny faces at you.we should go to k-box one day and scream out hearts out.hahas.

chunny-mummy is so gonna miss you.my dear daughter crapping together with me all the time.hahas.

yizzie-mummy gonna miss you alot too.your a great daughter as well.for-going you suaning me all the time.thanks for spending time crapping to me.hahas.

ziyu aka na ke hei de[that black one]-i know.that's very bad of me.but i like to remember you as that.a very cheerful person.forgetting all the bad things that happened to us.it's all settled now.though i like it better when we were the bestest best friends.lols.but it's good to know that we are still good friends.i will miss you crapping everyday with me.i will miss suaning you because you are so tanned.lols.i will miss you because you brought so much happiness to my life.thank you.just to let you know.sec 1 was the best year of my life.and i thank you contantly for that. =)

lisa aka. spike lover-i am so gonna miss suaning you because you and jj can't seem to keep quiet and fight almost all the time.the egg and the omlette.da qing ma qiao.

rebecks-i am gonna miss you.

huiling aka. hl milk-hahas.one thing i miss about you is DRINKING YOU UP!wahahahs.jkjk.anyways i am gonna miss you entertaining me during assembly.lols.without you.maybe assemblies would be very boring.hahas.

xinhui aka. my nan ren-hahas.nan ren...i am gonna miss you so much.miss lessing with you.miss fighting with ivy over you because you are the huang shang.miss hearing you laugh at every single 'dirty' word.lols.miss watching you do drama.my little miss drama girl.hahas.miss acting spastic together with you.miss talking to you about everything under the sun.hahas.

suhan-i am gonna miss going guzheng together with you.lols.miss listening to you talk crap and talking crap together with you.

steph aka. the beloved monitress-i am so gonna miss hearing you crap.miss you making funny faces.and doing the cip bookmark with you.with you.steph.i learn alot.and i thank you for that.we have integrity.wahahahs.mummy love ya alot.continue to keep up the good work and keep topping your class kays.if you have any troubles.feel free to call me.handphone is 24/7.hahas.

shir aka. my beloved mummy-hahas.you have always been there for me.everytime when i was sad.you comforted me.thank you mummy.i am gonna miss you alot because i'm afraid no one will comfort me any longer when i go up to sec 3.[sniffs]and i will miss talking crap with you.lols.

qianhui-i am gonna miss you hell lots.

nette-i will miss you alot.for almost all the reasons in the world.lols.miss you bullying me.miss you taking me as an armrest.[cause i'm short]miss you tliting my table and pushing all the contents in the table out.miss you emptying the contents in my wallet.lols.miss you rushing to my chair and not let me sit.missing you taking my books away and so i can't read.overall.i will miss you BULLYING me.hahas.

bala-i will miss listening to you say 'kids.garbage.nugget.etc' in a digusted voice.

yc-i will miss listening to you talk crap.sending me home on the seventh month.miss calling you gay.miss making fun of you.miss whacking you.i will also miss saying that wenhui is your girlfriend.i will miss you bullying me because of my height.taking me as an armrest.someday.i will get back on you.lols

kaijie-i will miss making fun of you and xiao en.wahahahs.

jowell-i will miss having you in the class and listening to how the boys say how pervert you are.lols.

linyu-i will miss seeing you sleep in class.it's as though you were born to sleep.never seem to be awake.will miss you because no matter how much you sleep.you always do well for certain subjects.lols.and i will miss how i can't stand you eating so much yet not getting any fatter.lols.

junhao-i will miss bullying you.and miss having you sit in front of me during class.hahas.

kengchong aka. kctv wow-hahas.i will miss crapping with you.miss you bullying me because of my height again.taking me as an armrest.constantly saying that you can't find me.[because too short]lols.

wallace aka. walls-i am so gonna miss your one of a kind lame face.lols.and your wierd lame jokes.wahahahs

lionel aka mcp-i am gonna miss calling you mcp.lols.miss talking to you in the ivy and i invented language 'onik' hahahs.onik onik onik.for those who don't understand[m c p].hahahs.and i am gonna see how you lift you can drink using you pig trottles.hahas.

zy-i am gonna miss you constantly scolding me.but end up that you were just kidding.lols.i am gonna miss how you make lame remarks.lols.

shawn aka. spastic-i'm gonna miss making fun of you together with kazan.miss playing 205 with you.lols.which you thought it was called 256.lols.miss sitting in front of you.getting angry with your stupid remarks.lols.laughing at how spastic you are.miss being in the danger zone when you make a very very stupid remark and miss tan wants to throw something at you.miss how i can't stand you and complian to miss tan which she then tells me that i can slap you anytime i want.lols.hahas.

benedict-miss having music lessons with you last time.

terence-miss seeing your cute face.

eric aka. erick-i will miss threatening you to give me my oreos.which you don't have money to buy.lols.miss listening to you crap.miss listening to you spill out valgarities like your the walking dictionary of valgarities.lols

keith-miss seeing you get bullied by the boys.miss seeing you do stupid stuff with zy.lols.

minthu-i will deffinately miss you.it's hard not to miss you when you are such a prominent figure.so tall.lols.mr tally.you have a very very wierd height.how can you be so tall?lols.miss talking to you because i have a hard time looking straight into your face.hahas.

jj-miss listening to you and lisa da qing ma qiao.hahas.egg and omlette.miss singing 'willy wonka' with you.miss crapping with you.lols.

finally...last but not least...

zrh aka our beloved monitor-thank you for taking care of the class so much.miss seeing you da qing ma qiao with kazan.[opps]hahas.miss listening to you crap.hahas.you are someone the whole class won't forget.for that.i thank you.thank you for taking care of the class so much.=)

to my whole class.i want you all to know that i will love you all always.and that we will always stay as a class.2e4 2ko5 always will be one.united.you all are my life.and you all brought happiness and laughter to my world.i thank you all for that.without you all.i seriously don't know what to do.i will miss you all.and you all will be in my heart.=)

2005-10-20T22:14:00.000-07:00

okays...today pratically sucked to the core.let me tell you why.

today.it started out with i think it was english.then we had nothing to do.so we watched gilmore girls.seriously i like it.but dunno why peeps dont lyk it.maybe cause they didnt understand what they were saying?i also didnt.but at least i had a lil idea of what gilmore girls was about.

den it was chinese.we had nothing to do so we read our books.then it was art.we went to the ceramics workshop and took back our ceramic pots and went back to class.we werent allowed to talk.and we had to read.can you believe my day?lols.i felt it was as if it was my suckiest day.but it didnt keep shawn from blabbling all sorts of things.making me and kazan unable to concentrate at all.

then we had science.seriously.I HATED IT!freak it.miss tan came in to scold us.i was like.come on man.its already after exams.why are you still so up-tight?and then she started scolding us about us making noise.i was like.good gracious.she was going to punish those who made noise.played with the ball and those who talked to stand.im like.what the hell.first she didnt let peeps who wanted to go to the chiangmai exchange programme to go and she forced those who didnt wan to go to go.it made steph cried for days mind you.i just see there is totally no need for you to rule over our lifes anymore.ANYMORE.less than half of the class admitted that we talked or made noise in other forms.she said it herself.and please look with you BLINDED eyes and take a good look at who were the people standing up.kazan.ziyu.THEY ARE CONSILLORS.shir.how is she suppose to make loads of noise?steph.CLASS MONITRESS.suhan.2nd girl in class.me and toy.like how much noise can we make?ruihong.CLASS MONITOR.can you like just take a GREAT BIG LOOK at who are the ones standing?you seriously make me lose the respect i always had for you miss tan.i thought you were a great teacher.a teacher that could actually see that this group of people couldnt have made alot of noise if this thought actually went through your big brain.well no it seems like it didnt.did it?cause it gave me the impression that it didnt.anyways.i dont see the point of thinking about it anymore.you no longer earn my respect.at least i own up.at least i had a bit of INTEGRITY in me.well.thanks so much to all those others who said "i sat down,stared into space, and drink water, spin my pen, drying my shirt,just came in." cause i really hope you all get glued to your seat, get possesed by a ghost, choke on the water you drink and die, spin the pen till you hands are in knots, dry yout shirt till it burns and drown in a pool of fire and get booked for coming into class late.i seriously thank you all for 'admitting' what you all did.seriously.you all did us a great favour.thanks to the e4 united.im so glad for the 'unitedness' you all showed.and the 'integrity' you all held to your life.thanks alot.

then at recess.i started going crazy because of the peeps who denied the deeds they had done.then it was music.okays la.at least it make me forget the science lesson.then it was english again and we watched monsters inc.DAMM FUNNY.i loved it alot.i really like it.very funny.hope we are contining it tomorrow.then it was maths.horribly boring.we had to copy the answers for our section B test papers.sigh.it was really boring.then my favourite class.LITERATURE.i love mrs lum so much.she seriously is the best person that has ever happened in my life.i hope she can teach me literature again next year.hahas.

anyways.this is just about my whole day today.well.after venting my anger.i feel good.no wonder people like blogs so much.i should do this more often.hahas.

2005-09-24T00:48:00.000-07:00

alrite.peeps.as you all noe.looks lyk i cant stand not using the com.and after much persuasion.im back riting.lols.okays.lets see.

yesterday.which was friday.i had my science common test.it sucked.i breezed thru bio.cause well those in 2e4 should noe why.i mean lyk.we kinda had hell for bio.lols.but at least i understand.not lyk some subject.den to physics.i think i was kinda stuck dere.den i passed and went on the chem.chem was lyk.em...easy la.all were almost give away.especially the bar graph de.dat was so damm easy.it is lyk.im tellin you dat your car is white.lyk dat.lols.it was dat easy.for the bar graph.but i think i have a couple of mistakes already.lols.after the chem.i went back to doing physics.im very scared i do the 5marks question wrong ehs.anyways.i manage to finish all the questions.great achievements. * claps. *den after sch.we went expo go support steph's group for ipw.on the bus,my contacts dropped out and den i borrow huilings mirror to put it back on.lols.den xinhui and huiling were lyk staring at me put it in to my eyes.lols.dat was very funni.hahas.den i started staring at the clouds outside.den i told xinhui.wouldnt it be nice if we can touch the clouds.dey seem so fluffy.lyk cotton wool lyk dat.hahas.den she say.have you been to genting before?if you have.you sure would have touched the clouds before.hahas.den o thot for a while.dunt tell me the misty misty things were clouds.den she nodd her head.lols.den i replied.den its not nice anymore.hehes.i rather stick to the thot i had before knowing dat those misty things were clouds.lols.ya.den we passed some very quiet places.den we started the it would be so scary to be there alone.lols.kana raped/see something dirty.lols.crazy us.den we finally reached.steph dor chun yiz.lols.all my daughter.hahas.i so proud of them cans.den i forgot to take stephs camera for her.lols.i felt so bad.so sorry steph.den dey had to run round the whole place to look for me and den i told dem dat i dunt have.lols.i think steph must be so angry with me.lols.den in the end.dey found out dat mr wong actually has a camera.lols.okays.the place was very big.zhonghua's product were good.duh.lols.den some other oso good ba.but some just didnt let me realise dat actually dat could be done as a project.i was lyk.if i sold hamsters.wouldnt my project get a1?lols.anyways.dats all.

today.didnt feel too well.woke up.started doing homework.and it totally sucked la.coz it was chinese summary.haw bad could my day get.i didnt go arcade with shawn dey all coz firstly.no one go with me.secondly.i wasnt feeling well.just didnt have motivation today,just couldnt sit straight.kept movinf about.tomolo must go revise history.i got to work hard.* nodds *.im so tired naw.the whole day just kept playing maple.finally my mage leveled.and my rouge is around 61%.wees.okays.ya.dats all for day.alrite.listened to this song dont love you no more by craig david for the pass few days.and realise dat it was really good.i really lyk it.and it just implies on someone whom i thot was a great person.too bad naw your not dat great anymore.i kinda hate you too.it sucks when i think dat you are just using me.not your fool anymore.thankx for showing me the way.=).

2005-08-29T23:33:00.000-07:00

okays.peeps im finally here!hahas.marcus boy,i noe you have been making me update,so here i m one month later.hahas.chunny!mommie here to update le.hahas.thankx xinyun.you rock too.shir.i guess ou waited long enuf for a new post.hahas.

anyways.sab, you asked me what would i do if everything turns against me rite?i told you i nided some tym to answer dat,but today i finally realised dat i didnt nid tym to think,its already happening to me.ziyu said she would move on.joy said she would commid suicide.evangelina said she would give up in everything.my case?i have been stucked at the point of unhappiness repeating the same thing over and over again.im tired.im sick.i wanna move on.i cant.im stuck.i realise after dat incident.i lost everything.everything.sab, i finally understand why you asked dat question.sab,i noe you wanna help me.=).i thank you for dat.but i lyk to face it on my own.im glad you all wanna help me.but.its hard to understand.im just not me anymore.im not worth it.sab.sowie baby.=).love you all.let me just live my life lyk dat den.i dunt wan my hopes getting too high.AGAIN.so baby.i rather cry myself to sleep and live on with it.i will still go to classes.meet you all dere.all dancers out dere.you all are my darlings.thankx for all the help you all gave me.=).

today.went to eat with kazan at mac.den we stupidly walked back to sch together with our heavy bags to meet shir,thing,ziyu.lols.a bit siao.den me and kazan left to take 58 to go home.ya.dats kinda lyk wat happened today.i went home a bit early today.so the clouds were extremely pretty.it was flawless.beautiful in my eyes.lovely.i stared at them.and i started remembering of you.i miss you girl.=).hope your doing great.im doing fine.i think.just getting worst these days.im starting to lose interest in alot of things.but i decided.i will think no more.and concentrate on my studies.guess no more msn and blogs.=).so peeps out dere.dunt bother coming anymore.=).thankx for visiting thou.

sab.you asked me why do i smile all the tym wen i hurt so badly inside.so im here telling you why.[cause your not online].hahas.sab.i cant go on crying and looking sad can i?well.dats why i smile.i laugh.pretending nothing happens.but i do tell you all my problems dunt i?so.dats why i nid you all so much.=).i love you guys.but you gotta understand dat no one can help me.at all.i will face it alone.=).byebye darlings.=)

2005-07-22T22:18:00.000-07:00

i look back in tym.i realised nothing is the same anymore.why izzit turning this way?what has happened to my life?looks lyk no one is to be trusted.no one totally understands me.only you.i badly miss you.why did you havta leave before me?why?its unfair.you did nothing wrong.i really really miss you.i wish i was the one to take over you.i wish.i hope.nothing is going my way.expected.

its lyk.no one seems to care anymore.im a loner.back to square one.i really miss you.i wish i can join you naw.impossible it seems.i wish i could join you.but i would listen to you.fulfill you last wish.i really hope to see you again.i will work hard.=)).i miss you.really miss you.after you left.no one understood me the way you do.no one shares my problems anymore.i wish i could talk to you one last tym.it isnt much im asking for.why cant i have it den?

anyways.this week was okays.i totally forgot miss tan scolded me.good sign.but she is starting to pick on me.wateva.racial harmony was good.love it.hahas.i love taking pics with the class.i really would miss the class.anyways.love it.really good.i wish it would never end.anyways guess dats all.cant tok much.very sad.very depressed.

i feel unwanted.unloved.its not the same anymore.you were one hell of a good fren.and i lost you.i lost another again.no one understand me.not the way you did.not the way she did.i really miss you.all i want is a person who understands me.who can open me up.lyk you could.i wish i could find a person lyk dat.always dere for me.and me always dere for her.but i just cant find a person lyk dat.its hard.you all were meant to be.i wasnt.loner.i cry every nite for you to come back.

i dunt belong with you guys.i dunt feel lyk i m.nvm.its all rite.im used to being alone.for life.i wunt interfere in you peeps anymore.i broke you all up.den i will patch you all back.you all are one.im nothing.

blood tears shed.im reborn.

2005-07-08T21:47:00.000-07:00

you noe what.your not dat great okay.you think your a life changer?you think your a world changer?can you just get over with yourself?for one fact.you aint dat great.okays.dunt think your the onli person rite okays.i cant stand you anymore.who the hell do you think you are?im telling you rite here rite now.your nothing.NOTHING!and i hate you.you freak.you are irritating me.you think you wat?god?

let me just remind you.your nothing okays.you hurt peeps.your not a person in the world i would care.i wunt even care if you lie dead in front of me.i would just leave you dere and leave.

anyways.to becks.okays.mayb i was a lil sacarstic dat day.ya noe.i didnt mean it.=)).i just wanted you to do the glove.i thot mayb from you.the glove would look good.anyways.just wanna say sowie to you.if you thot i was sacarstic.just hope you dunt let us down.gambatte.o ya.the sport leader thingy.you havta do duty.=)).no offence.=))

2005-07-07T21:20:00.000-07:00

okays.not updating much ehs.so.here i m.updating.

okays.these few days.been very bored.dunno wat to do.very sian in class.dunt even noe why i havta go to sch.thou there is nothing wrong with going to sch.i juz hate it.mayb the onli thing dat is still keeping me in sch is my class and my dear ruey.or else.i dunno where i would be.im very afraid to leave this class.if i wunt be able to stay with 2e4.god noes wat will happen to me.god noes where i would go.and i onli realise it today.im very dependant on this class.but i juz dunt seem to be part of it anymore.

neways.got really sian after hist class.dunno why.but hist juz drains my energy.den for the rest of the day.nothing seem to interest me except the movie.hahas.shakespeare is so shuai.hahas.terence said shakesperare was sexy.hahas.neways.nothing much.very bored naw.

rites.dats juz about it.yas.o.went to playground with shir today.went to the swing.hahas.i swinged real high.and i saw the vast blue sky with white clouds.for the first tym.i kinda soothed my heart.looking at it.i just wished my life was as carefree as the clouds looked.i thot to myself for the first tym.i really nid this class.but.hell.wat do dey noe?wat do dey care about.nothing.or mayb i didnt tell dem.i dunno why.but i just dunt click with dem.in the end.i was onli able to open myself to you peeps.not dem.no idea why.but at least you peeps listen.better den some who thinks dey nid more help.wateva.anyways.tomolo nid to go to ophes house about ivy's fasion costume.okays.sians.anyway.nothing much den.

behind this smile.is a thousand tears.you all ask why?its all because of you all.a rose with a thousand thorns.pricked the innocent heart.and let it bleed.and its still because of you all.why do you all cause so much trouble?my heart is pricked.bleeding.and you all are laughing.lets see haw long you all can laugh.

# my blood tears.pay back tym.

2005-07-02T16:18:00.000-07:00

rites.okay yesterday came home late.so did not update.the first week of sch.very hectic.so did not update.not much happened.

Monday.

oritey.em.today.did nothing much.no.its i dunno wat happened.hahas.i was semi-concious.but it was really horrible.i think we had home ed. for our first lesson.not bad coz after eating.dunt havta eat recess.hahas.next lesson.forgot.totally forgot until going home tym.oso forgot haw i went home.dunno whether i had an appointment.ya.so totally forgot about everything.

Tuesday.

okay.today oso dunno wat happened.hahas.eh.forgot.so cant blame me rite?neway.em.i noe dat today bore me to death as well.and today.we have the drama audition.hehes.actually wanted to have lunch with my cousin ruey.but coz i had to find my teacher.the teacher tok so long until ruey went off.so.nvm.went on to my drama audition.hehes.very fun actually.but i was really really nervous.im kinda lyk the person dat needa tok the most.and i cant look at the paper.sigh.hahas.i screwed it up.coz i forgot my lines.hehes.sigh.so blardy scary.i was really tired.n i shivered up dere.sigh.it was partially coz i was really cold.n partially.i got stage fright.hehes.anyway.got thru it.

Wednesday.

okays.today was the results of our drama audition.AND MY CLASS GOT IN!haw good is dat.! ya.so em.okay dens.forgot wat happened dat day as well.so dats it.

Thursday.

the begining of our learning carnival.hehes.okay.i rmb this one quite well.em.the start.we had this science and maths competition.den we had recess.den we went for eh.the malay herritage thingy.ya.hahas.it was really fun.especially the sealat performence.hahas.very fun.and the ceremony very nice oso.hahas.bala went to the wedding ceremony.he helped bless the couple.hahas.very funni.coz wen you bless dem.dere is one part you havta circle the egg around dem.den so rui and shawn was lyk saying circle 100 tyms.which means they will hav 100 babies.hahas.so funni.wen bala went up.if im not wrong.he circled 7 tyms wen he came back.hahas.rui and shawn said.at least circle 10 tyms rite.hahas.so crap.wen we about to go home.dey gave us queh to try.very nice.hehes.den we went back to sch.den it was lunch.den we went to the battlefield tour.it was kinda fun to me.hahas.i noe.im a bore.but i lyk history.somehaw.first we went to the changi museum for our first stop.den we went to the monster gun batteries.den we went to the kranji cemetry.it was really fun.i lyked it alot.nerd.hahas.den after the tour.we went back to sch for the ipw thingy.i went to see the sec4s dance together with my gum tree aka iwee.huiling.and my girl.xinhui.hehes.den after dat.dey went home.i went to help out mingying's ipw group.i waited to go home with her.but dey kept her for so long.so i went home with pm.hahas.first tym going back with her.it was a fun day.but i was dead beat.hahas.

Firday.

the start we had the ipw exibition.i went around.e6 lyk dunt wanna intro their work lyk dat.so me and xinhui bo pian walk round.we went to e4 exibits first.hahas.made dem so angry.hahas.den we went to jeryl's group.hahas.very fun to play their product.hahas.den ate zhenying's laksa.hahas.not bad.after dat.went to look at the e1 and e5 exibits.hahas.very fun.the nature tour dat thingy.hahas.very cute.den lynn gave us a paper about her project.so we went to check it out.wah.really amazing.hahas.i not gonna touch my hp dat much.hahas.den we went to jordon group de booth.hahas.very cute invention.so me and xinhui kept playing with it.den after dat.my gum tree,huiling came and oso played the board hahas.very fun.den jordon gan us away.hahas.but we didnt go.suddenly dis kid juz came and scold us.we bo pian walk away.den we went to play other group de projects.hahas.very fun.den it was recess.after recess.we went to do henna painting.very nice.hahas.den we went to some home ed thingy.kinda boring but nvm.den it was lunch for us.me and xinhui didnt eat.den we went for the newater tour thingy.hahas.very fun.i lyk uncle martin.hahas.he very funny.hahas.wen we got back we had a quick break.den we went for our lit rehearsal.hahas.miss tan was lyk so anxious.hahas.den we went to change for the literay evening.hahas.i was very anxious.but luckly i didnt screw it.hahas.guess wat?our class got 2nd for the lit play.YAY!.it was so cool.hehes.i was really happy.at least i didnt bai bai memorise all those lines for nothing.hahas.we were so happy.im very glad we could do this as a class.its our last year together.n im kinda scared dat my sec3 class wunt b so united lyk my class is naw.sigh.im scared dat i end up in a lousy class dat doesnt unite.it will be very horrible.den we went to change and went for dinner.but it was impossible to hav dinner coz over 2000+ peeps were having dinner together.sigh.we went straight up for the movie screening.hahas.dey showed coach carter.hahas.luckly i didnt watch it.hahas.save money.hahas.it was okay.not bad.kinda touching.but a lil too draggy.agree with xinhui.hahas.but it was okay.den went home.dats all.

for all e4-rians.i hope we can all cherish this tym left we hav together.its our last year.and im gonna miss those good memories wen i move on to sec3 and further on.i hope we can do all the competitions dat are left together as a class.bond the class further on.hahas.okays.crap.love ya peeps loads.

2005-06-23T23:48:00.000-07:00

hello peeps.hahas.how are you all?okay.anyways.i decided i should improve in my english, so i am going to speak good english.hahas.so crap.

today,woke up at 8am to get ready to go to mingying's house to do the art fasion fusion project.i took a 53 to serangoon mrt then took a mrt to mingying's house in potong pasir.hahas.i was in the same train as xinhui and we actually did'nt know it until i got out of the mrt and saw her at the mrt.hahas.den we walked around, waited for like another 10-15 minutes for ivy and huiling to arrive.later we found out that mingying was locked at home.her mum took the keys and forgot about mingying.

we met mingying and went straight to mingying's house to do the fasion fusion project.ivy and huiling were watching some funny short clips.xinhui was slowly attracted.i was reading magazines.and mingying was doing the pants.after she cut out the shapes, i helped her to paint the leaves, then we left it to dry.then if i'm not wrong, xinhui started reading ivy's smses.then huiling slowly was attracted too.hahas.funny.then i was using the com.talked to nathan, jordon and grace.hahas.talk with nathan was funny.i 'scolded' him for almost killing me at kota tinggi at the suspension bridge.hahas.you should know the details by reading my camp post.hahas.i think i wrote it there.then i was crapping with jordon and grace.hahas.crap.

after a while,i drew the veins on the leaves,but there was one more big one left because it was'nt dry yet.so when it dried,mingying drew on the pattern herself.after doing all these,we went out to have lunch.ivy had teeth plucked out,so i was harder for her to eat,so she and huiling went to eat porridge together.me xinhui and mingying went to eat yong tau foo in another hawker center.after eating i bought some hair accersories then they left for mingying's aunties house.while i went out with xinyi marcus[xinyi's friend] jaslin and jaslin's friend.forgot what was his name.=Phahas.i did'nt go to mingying's auntie's house because mingying's aunty does'nt like alot of peeps to be at her house.i guess 5 peeps was alot for a 3-room flat anyway,so i went out with xinyi jas they all to watch batman begins.okay.the movie was okay.not really bad.very cute actually.

ya.so that's my day for today.!hahas.okay.peeps.enjoy my blog.hahas.byebye.

2005-06-22T00:00:00.000-07:00

okay.today.went to sch la.for the lit rehersal.it was lyk.crap lor.

today.we had the lit thingy rehersal lor.no many turned up.the props group lyk was so pathetic la.anyway.dunt really blame dem.i went late.coz i woke up late.den took taxi dere lor.sigh.den after dat we went to the hall to do one rehersal.den the rest went home le.sigh.crap can.

den after dat.me n mingying n xinhui went to mac to eat den we went to bubble tea stall to buy drink.den we went to the book shop to get a sketch book for our lit project la.den we went to a specs shop to lyk go and see ivy buy specs lor.den we went to 7-11 to get sweets den went back to sch.den met rebekah on the way.she is in our group de.so we went back to sch together to do project la.hahas.den i lyk poked xinhui while walking back.den i think i poked too many tyms.she started running lor.den i found it very fun la.hahas.den i chased after her to lyk tickle her again.hahas.so funni lor.den we went back to class den me n xinhui went to toilet lor.den i told her about my trip lor.den ivy asked for my ipod to listen lor.hahas.she treated my ipod lyk a bao can.hahas.she keep stroking it lor.hahas.den eric wanted to borrow lor.okay.i lend him.den i lend ivy.coz i told him to listen to his on mp3 lor.hahas.so funni.den i listen to his mp3 together with him.den it was bloody soft la.i ask him to turn up the volume.den suddenly it went off.lol.den i ask him why he swich it off.hahas.den he said coz no batt liao.hahas.crap la.den we started to kinda lyk help with the art fusion thingy la.but onli rebekah was designing it.coz her drawing among is is the best lor.hahas.den we all look at her.den we started toking personal stuff lor.ya.since its personal.i wunt say it here lor.hahas.okay.den wen she finished le.rebekah went home la.but we stayed back a lil longer.den after ivy and huiling go home le.i stayed back with mingying and xinhui to dicuss about our actual design.hahas.it was kinda hard to understand la.but i finally got the thing den we went home after dat la.den the xinhui thot she left her wallet in class la.den she went back to find.yuan lai it was in her bag lor.i help her find de.xinhui if you see this post.muz thank me hor.hahas.den i came home lor.den watched tv until naw come touch the com lor.ya.so i think dats all le.

so touche peeps.i gtg le.hahas.bb.=))

2005-06-21T00:00:00.000-07:00

hey peeps.miss me?hahas.thankx for those who miss me.[smiles]hahas.*thick skinned*hahas.

anyway.here to tell you peeps about my church camp.okay.

First day.
went to church at lyk 6.30am.den went to kota tinggi lor.den we went dere.got to noe dat i was bunking with elaine.joelynn didnt come coz she was lyk sick la.den we got dere late.so we missed an activity session lor.crap.den the whole tym table changed.we had lunch.which sucked.den we went for a meeting.den went for rest.den had another meeting.den we got ready.went for dinner and den went to some lake river or something to dat effect to go see fireflies.hahas.dey were lyk so pretty la.it was lyk a whole length of bushes.den the fireflies stood dere.kinda lyk christmas tree.hahas.pretty ya.its lyk tiny christmas trees lor.den sis rachel caught a lil firefly la.its lyk not even the size of a red bean.hahas.cute.den it lyk flew off lor.very cute jiu dui le.very pretty oso.den its lyk we went back lor.very nice la.went back i tokked to beth la.about some personal stuff.so it was lyk.one day passed.n i got really home sick lor.so i lyk kinda cried wen i slept la.but elaine didnt noe.coz i lyk faced the other side of my bed.facing the wall.oh.btw.i was sleeping in a single n elaine slept on the double.ya.

Second day
woke up at 6am.coz i thot i wanted to lyk bath.den i didnt noe elaine thot we had to get ready for morning revival at 6.30am.oso my fault la.i didnt tell her morning revival starts at 7am.hahas.den wen we went to join sis wendy.she lyk juz woke up lor.hahas.so we went back to our room.den we waited for quite a long tym for sis wendy to come.juz to find out dat we had to go over to her bunk.hahas.crap lor.den we quickly went over wen we heard dem praying lor.hahas.funni.den we did morning revival.had breakfast.den went for our sunday meeting.it was okay la.but it was shorter den usual.so we had a short break after dat den we continued with the meeting with message 1.kinda slept thru it.coz i was really tired.dunno why.den we had lunch.den a lil rest.but i didnt hav rest lor.dork me beth were lyk playing with my cam.den we took pics lor.den we had to do memory verses.den i tried to la.but it was very hard la.couldnt do it.den we had activities.it was kinda fun lor.we played station games lor.it was really fun la.our first stop was to our dinning area la.we played cherades.cute game la.we finished very fast la.if i kinda rmb.our group members were.deborah.anna.david.nathan.caleb.jonathan.kai en.i think this is all la.we played cherades without jonathan coz he lyk woke up late.so we went together for the station games lor.next was the swimming pool de.we had to lyk transport water on our head to me den i pour water from the plate into a bottle den david and caleb would lyk transport it with the bottles on their backs to the pail lor.den we dunno manage to get haw much water in la.but deborah really helped the team alot can.hahas.good good.den we went to the mph.den we played the tangled thingy where we are tangled up.den we hav to come out in a circle.hahas.no one beat our score lor.yay!hahas.den we went to wat ah?i think its the tyre area de.the nathan suck can.he lyk made the whole bridge shake den the suspension bridge kinda lyk went bobbling n i was lyk so scared la.den if im not wrong anna kinda helped me across the bridge lor.hahas.thankx to her.or i will b stuck dere lor.den we went dere nathan n caleb hav to carry jonthan blinfolded on a track lor.so deborah lead the group.lol.den i saw david's pants.i was lyk.'wats with those pants?'den he said.'nothing,i juz lyk it.'den i was lyk.'lol.you n your fasion sense.hahas.'den he juz lyk smile den i went to follow jonathan.caleb.nathan.n deborah lor.it was lyk funni la.den after dat we went to the volly ball court to play the find the sweet under the pile of flour thing.but we had to jump with a partner to the plate lor.n bro vasu n david kor was lyk shooting us with their water guns la.all of us got really wet lor.hahas.funni.den we went to the table tennis court to lyk play the game which uses the spoon to carry a ping pong ball to a basket game.with kinda a twist la.den i juz didnt manage to get pass the second chair kinda thing.n jonathan keeps laughing at me la.crap you.hahas.den after the games.we gathered at the swimming pool to see caleb get baptised.den we went back to our rooms to bath.went down for dinner n prepared for message 2.den we had supper den we went back to our rooms to sleep lor.

Third day
woke up at 6am again.den i was lyk so happy dat it was the third day le.we went to sis wendy's room to hav morning revival lor.den prepared to go to breakfast.den off to message 3.break.den message four.it was really enjoyable lor.after dat.we had lunch.and den a 30min rest.den had to leave for a fellowship lor.den dey toked about a bgr thing.i was thinking about it.ya.somehaw i felt strongly for it lor.anyway.after the one hour fellowship.we went to sis ngee choon's room to memorise verses.den she gav us chocolates can!hahas.enjoyable.den we washed up.elaine's fellowship for the youths were kinda long.so dey were really late.den we went for dinner.den to our camp fire.it was really fun with me.olivia.dork.beth.grace sat below with jo.a girl from hong kong.after campfire.we all went back to our bunks n got ready to sleep la.but i went to sis wendy's room together with grace to lyk tok to sis wendy lor.hahas.we tokked until 12.35 can.suppose to sleep at lyk 11pm la.den we were chased back to our rooms coz sis wendy kinda thot bro vasu were lyk scolding the bro's downstairs.so she chased us back lor.but we two could not sleep.n grace's room had someone else inside.so she came to bunk with me.so we tokked lor.tokked until 2.30am lyk dat den we went to sleep.hahas.funni lor.really had an enjoyable tym with sis wendy and grace la.so fun.

Fourth day
to say the truth.i was kinda upset la.will kinda miss staying with everyone lor.but it was really enjoyable la.hahas.woke up at 6am.den i went to brush teeth den slept together with grace again.hahas.so funni.den elaine had to lyk sit on my bed lor.hahas.very tired lehs.den got ready.went over to sis wendy to do morning revival.breakfast.den to message 5.break.den message 6.den lunch.hahas.i was kinda upset lor.den we checked out.den took some group photos lor.sigh.gonna miss it la.hahas.it wasnt dat bad at all lor.den we left for our church in singapore lor.on the ride.it was lyk so bumpy can.all of us lyk felt lyk vomitting lor.den the bus driver damm bloody shit can.sucker.he didnt care about us leh.den he stopped at a petrol station.den the sisters went to buy sour stuff for us to eat.den eunice vomitted.but my vomit couldnt come out la.so it was lyk stuck in my throat.den bro vasu came.and he lyk gave us tissue lor.den we left before he did.coz he came later.n he drove a car.den we kinda lyk feel better lor.finally reached the meeting hall.den we started on our exhibition meeting de sharing preparation.den after dinner.we had prayer meeting.den the exhibition meeting la.went it was my group to go rite.we all kinda hesitate la.very nervous.wanted to b the second group de.but aiya.we went up first lor.i started first la.but was very scared.so i lyk dunt dare to look up n very scared until my legs wobbled lor.hahas.den finally me n dork finish.den my group finished.den very quickly it was over.den all of us took another group photo lor.so i kinda miss it naw la.sigh.i was so wrong about it lor.anyway.gtg le.bb.

2005-06-17T23:04:00.000-07:00

okay.voila peeps.thank yew for coming to my blog today.but i wunt b blogging for the next 3days.coz going camp.going tomolo.coming back on tuesday.okay!i hate this camp so much.gonna miss dance class.gonna miss guzheng oso.dat sux.

today.did nothing much la.juz stayed at home.played maple.den read a story book.tale of two cities.den watched tv.den come play com.den went out to get stuff for tomolo's camp lor.juz lyk dat la.den naw playing with my bros com.den hor.dat jordon ah.never rite my testi.nid me 'blow' den he rite. * fall down*hahas.okay nvm.den naw mum blowing me to go to sleep.sigh.dunt she get it?i wish i wake up late and dunt havta go to church camp.sux.sigh.nvm.go dere and create havoke oso not bad la.okay gtg le.sigh.mum gonna kill me le.okay.bb peeps.

2005-06-16T00:00:00.000-07:00

rite.its eh.lets see.thurdays rite?okay.one more day to church camp.kanasai.i so damm scared can.

today.was so cool.went out D.B.S.
D=dorcas.dorky
B=bethany.beth.beef.
S=sophia.sophh.no funni nick name.YET!

hehe.hahas.sowie sowie.but since dork got a cute nick.i must oso put urs rite.hahas.okay.we went to plaza sing to meet.den we went to long john silver to have lunch.hahas.so funni lor.okay.went we were eating.dork suddenly told us about her trip to raffles place in a taxi la.so funni.the taxi driver is trying so hard to b lame lors.hahas.he asked alot of stupid questions and said alot of stupid stuff lor.hahas.so funni.me and beth almost spill out wat we ate.hahas.funni.hahas.i still rmb something he said.a long bus pass by dork and her fren's taxi la.den the taxi driver said something lyk you noe.wen i was young.i used a pen knife to cut the rubbered part.causing the bus to b cut into half.hahas.crazy old man.hahas.den its lyk very funni la.den we went to raffles place to shop.first stop.went into a wierd shop.hahas.the bags are quite nice la.but the clothes very wierd.den went to mango.dat raffles de mango de clothes very ugly lor.hahas.den went to esprit.went to look for a shorts for dork.den cant find.so went to aiya.where we go to ah?forget le.but we totally went around the whole place la.den we went to op to buy clothes.dork bought her bermus.n i bought a shirt.very big n baggy.but dork and beth said i look cute in it.hahas.funni.you wunt wanna noe why its big n baggy.n its onli size s.hahas.think about it.hahas.den after buy things le.we went to get drinks den went home le lor.hahas.very fun la today.okay.got home.started slacking.

online the whole day.watched tv.den begged jord O n[hahas.never spell wrong.hahas.] to rite me a testi.den explained to xinhui[qing fu]dat im not camping in a rainforest in kota tinggi.im actually staying in a resort.hope its fun.im very scared la.im scared i miss home.very scared.sigh.i hope mum n dad would come n see me.really hope dey will leh.or i will cry.hahas.lame.okay.i think i wanna go sleep le.tomolo prepare to accept jord O n's testi.n mayb return him one oso.hahas.good ba.i noe i noe.dunt worship me.lol.i noe wat you will say my qing fu. :'dunt thick skin la!' hahas.see i noe you so well...hahas.n i m not living in a rainforest.im living in a resort.hahas.

2005-06-14T00:00:00.000-07:00

o rite.eh.so here i m.n here you are reading.X).eh.hi.

aiya.dunno wat to say la.hahas.anyway.today.went to see doc.coz of ma backbone.den go at lyk.10+.wait until 12.30 lor.juz to see a doc for not even 5 mins.i noe.coz i counted.hahas.crazy.anyways.very tired jiu dui liaos.den after doc.go eat lunch with mum.den go novena square shopping.hahas.yay! mum bought me a denium skirt.hehe.good good.im very happy.den we go to j8.shop again.n i bought ma muffin tray!hahas.hehe.tomolo making muffins.blueberry muffin.

hehe.good?anyway.got home.started doing maths.very scared la.not going to b at home for 4 days leh.camp.sigh.boring church camp.sigh.forced to go!.ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.bloody toot.nvm ba.den hor.finish hmwk den watch a bit of tv lor.den come touch the com le.hahas.den naw riting for all you peeps to see la.hahas.okay.nothing to rite le.bb.=))

2005-06-11T00:00:00.000-07:00

okay...peeps...arlow...long tym no blog le rite?...so here i am going to tell you haw my camp went...

okay...i was really sadistic about the camp ya noe...but i was totally wrong...i really lyked it in the end...eh...tell u y later...haha...

1st day
woke up real early in the morning...den went to sch together with pm in my dads car...i was really hating the camp already in the car...lol...dunno y...go dere...a lil briefing...den went to the leadership course...lol...my course instructer the name is...LOL....yew kiin,kong...pronounce it as...you king kong....LOL...crazy rite...haha...den his assitant is called vai...course was kinda boring u noe...but i noe dey tried their best to make it interesting le la...so we went to dance after dat...so fun!!!we danced the ketchup dance 1st...n e4 earned 100 points juz for dancing nicely...hehe...YAY!!!den we did the couple dance...the song so cute lor...my partner was eh...lol...jowell...two short short de dancing...haha...but fun la...den we went for lunch...lunch suck...so badly...but yes...i noe the organisers already tried their best...okay...den we went to NYJC for our games...NJYC not bad la...very big...but run until siao...tired leh...den after the games...we went to take dinner...dinner okay la...at least better den lunch...den after dinner...we waited for the sky to turn dark den we started our night walk...but it was a lil different...we had to put on blindfolds...n we are led by our leader...i was the first leader...lol...very funni...but i chose to b...coz i scared of ghost...but u cant blame me rite...scared leh...haha...den went to dis dunno wat room for our first stop...den i go bully dem...lol...i go tickle dem...blow into their ears...lol...haha...sowie ah guys...i was juz doing my job...haha...den desmond come say i lead de good...haha...den i tell him...thank yew thank yew...den he say i bu yao lian...lol...funni...den we changed leader...den we walked...dunno...forget wat we did le leh...n den hor...we went on to somewhere...i onli can rmb dat shir was very brave...ur my hero shir...i love u...hehe...u noe...she went into the toilet alone to open a door leh...dey switch off the light lor...n she still dare to go in...li hai ma...yay~~~...shir my mummi...shir my hero...!!!haha...den after dat...we went to another station...i will rmb it forever...coz i did it...i had to dip my head in n then pick out some stuff...i thot it was goo or something lor...lol...wa lao...wen i took off my blindfold...i was lyk...'WAT THE TOOT!!!'lol...it was water lor...scare me...den i thot again...did dey change the water for us to dip our head in?i think no lor...haha...die...den we go home le i think...we went back...ms long lyk had a prob wit us lor...bloody toot la...u bitch...bloody toot...sucker...fucker...go to hell la...u think u can dunt lyk us ah...u bitch...dunt let us go bath...next tym we lock u in the staff toilet...switch off the lights...n keep u in dere for 1 year ah...u toot...muhahahahahahaha...*stick out tongue*...den after we bath...we go to canteen n mr lim tok to us lor...den we went to bed...

2nd day
we woke up real early lor...correction...its i woke up very early...i woke up at lyk 5.35 lor...correction...i woke up at lyk every 1 hour interver...lol...crazy...den i woke xinhui n ophe up...den we 3 go to toilet together...its lyk all of us woke up very early lor...all of us kinda got ready at the tym of eh...lets say ...7.40 lor...lol...den we all go down eat breakfast...den we go for leadership training...den we dance for you king kong n vai to see...hehe...at flrst no music...den in the end...he got the music leh!li hai ba...haha...den we all dance for him to see...lol...den he oso join us...haha...so fun lor...i kinda miss him thou...crazy thot...but it was nice of him la...to lyk do so much for us...hehe...den we gav him and vai...three cheers...im gonna miss dem lor...haha...den we said goodbye...went to get certificate and go to dance...hehe...fun...we all lyk so wan to go to the middle to dance lor...crazy us...haha...den finally...chaplin let us dance inside leh...hehe...so cool...hehe...den we dance untill siao ah...haha...it was really fun lor...i really miss it naw lor...sigh...den we went to lunch lor...sigh...sian...den go nyjc...play game again lor...but play for a short while onli nid to go to campfire liao...haha...den we quickly prepare lor...very fun...sing for a while...it drizzled...lol...den we had to go get torch...sigh...stupid...den we were told to go back again...sigh...den it rained lol den wen we went in...it became okay again...lol...siao...den we party until go hall lor...den some peeps go bath...den some had to wait for their turn...my class was the one dat nid to wait...lol...den we all go to stage to say stupid lame jokes...crazy one lor...haha...n den the roy hor...tell us a stupid lame joke leh...we all lyk move very close to him to listen to the story lor...den he gave us a very lame ending...i felt lyk throwing my water bottle at him lor...lol...crazy...haha...den we all started to say lame jokes la...crazy one la...lol...den suddenly hor...some e1 kid did poledance wit the fan...gross...haha...anyway...suddenly their facilitator oso didi it...crazy...lol...den we all tym to bath...me ivy xinhui ophe run to third floor to bath...haha...dere not many ppl la...so okay lor...den bath le...go back to class to take bag den go hall koon...haha...

3rd day...
okay...today last day...YAY~~~!!!...haha...last day was best...coz dey let us sleep until lyk 7.30 lor...good...haha...okay...woke up...brush up...den go to hall to do cleaning...we dida lot lor...so not fair...but nvm...we did le...den went down for breakfast...totally suck...den roy thot us magic trick...lol...we all lyk very facinated lor...but except xinhui...she even said...'not impressed...'LOL...haha...so straight forward...haha...crazy one...haha...den roy...bang the table...den he did all sorts of trick to impresse xinhui...lol...funni...den finally...she said..'sophia lend me rubber bands...' den i said...'finally impressed le ha...haha...' den xinhui juz smiled...lol...den roy so happy...he was lyk...YAY~!mission accomplished...lol...crazy one...haha...head got prob...lol...den we did cleaning...haha...i had to clean the e1 tables...so dirty leh...sigh...dunt ever wan to clean thei tables liao...ever again...lol...den we all finish real quick lor...den we all go to bb court sit dere n tok rot...lame jokes again...lol...crazy...den i realised dat jason was dere playing cards or wat he claim was doing magic tricks...lol...den we all continued the lame jokes...until go auditorium...did evaluation den prise giving...hehe...yay!!!our terence won the best member of our class n among the whole sec 2 level...cool eh...hehe...den we won the first prise for our games thing leh...haha...yay!!!den we requested for last mass dance...but we could not get it coz some parents were waiting to bring their children home le...den i went to look for ruey in the audi...crazy me...haw to find her in between so mani peeps?den we all go back to class for food distribution...lol...funni...food hamper we all always win first...lol...never get trophy one...haha...so funni...den we all go home lor...den me n ruey go 7-11 wait for someone else...den we go home...den saw jason at the bb court playing...den he go tease ruey...crazy guy...haha...den go home lor...

sigh...i very sad leh...i really wan to continue camping wit e4-rians...haha...i really miss it...hope dere is more of such camps...really hope so...haha...me kazan thot of it le...we wan to enter the teahcer's day concert doing one of the dance...but thinking la...lol...really hope can...do one good performence as a class...lol...chaplin say we extra...lol...a lil bit of correction dere chaplin...its called outstanding...haha...rmb dat...rmb us forever...coz we r the one n onli outstanding one...=))...e4-rians...forever n ever...will b number one...i hope dis year dunt end so quick...i really wish we are still together...i oso wish i can turn back tym so dat we can dance again...go to camp again...never ending...haha...sigh...okay...i think dats all le lor...nice ba...haha...touching?hehe...great...love ya e4-rians...

# I always THOT we were the ONE.the ONE that is meant to be.but YOU proved me wrong.it was all a THOT.thankx to YOU...YOU showed me that I was wrong.im moving on now.never gonna love again. LOVE SUCKS.

2005-05-19T22:32:00.000-07:00

today...did nothing much juz went to sch lor...

okay...today went to sch...halfway...felt something was rong...yuan lai...i forgot to bring my chinese file...worst of all...forgot to bring shu han wan...hehe...luckily she was nice and didnt scold me...but i guess for the next few months...forget to try to borrow anything from shu han le...haha...i noe i noe...sound stupid...anyway...did nothing much leh...

den it was interclass...actually i thot my class would win...but its okay...we did quite good actually...=))...but for some bloody bitch who runined my day...stop being pathetic will ya?im sick n tired of seeing that pathetic face le...giv it up kay...=))first u asked ur bb players to smack my class bb players...wats ur prob?b happy i didnt bash u up okay...den after the game...u won le...wats ur prob again?u ask ppl to smack us again...wats the grudge between us all?ass hole let me tell u den...u juz hav a pathetic life ur leading...trying to seduce man and get a life which u cant support urself in...live a life will ya...ur irritating...hope next year i dunt go to the same class as u do...coz i cant help seeing u swallow guys...=))...and then rebekah got banged into...and her leg bruised...i dunno whether it is really dat bad anot coz suddenly she can start crying and suddenly she can fight wit boys...dats kinda great for someone who was in so much pain...she looked like it was really painful...so all of us thot it was a muscle pull...but terence said it was far from muscle pull...if its not a muscle pull...n yet its so painful...muscle pull muz b real bad...hehe...i feel bad dat rebekah had to go thru all this...is kinda not fair to her thou...

anyways back to the bitch...she was lyk so sad dat we talked about her coz she gav my frens a pathetic look wen dey went back to class...hello...wake up girl...pathetic look dunt actually win girls heart...unless she is a les...=))...thou she acted sad...she was far from it...wen my frens left...dey turned around and saw her playing real happily...me n mingying saw it too...great performence...but too bad we arnt dat dumb...=))get a life okay...=))dat would really help the sch...i really dunno haw come u can still survive for so long...its a mystery...=))

anyway...tomolo im getting older by one year!!yay~~~~~~~~i wonder wat prezzies i can get thou...hehe...i wish i really get a nice prezzie...sigh...i m tired naw...wan go dream land go see haw my birthday is lyk le...i wonder will my brother even rmb its his lil sister's birthday anot...i hope he does...i still thinking where to go for dinner tomolo...sigh...mystery...hehe

2005-05-18T22:15:00.000-07:00

okay...today...hmmm....i think i was the most horrible day i ever lived...haha...y u may ask...let me tell u den...

today...during lessons...i had to file my chinese file...damm bloddy shit...coz i spend the whole of last nite doing it n i had to take it out again...i noe i noe...its no big deal rite...but hav any idea i spend 3 whole days doing it?okay...all for nothing juz for today...well its okay...one bad luck...

wen my class went to watch the interclass games...mingying came n told me we had to stay back for some maths thing...i wanted to kill the person who organised the activity...but i thot it thru...its important we went to the maths thingy...so i went...another unlucky thing...

so me and kazan quickly rush to tian di...another unluckly thing happened...guess wat?tian di closed down coz they hab to attend their company's dinner nite...ahhhhh...and they closed at 4...the tym which my damm maths class ended...
-___________________________________________- ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...shity hell...sigh...i wanted to kill myself...den i rmb comics collection!!!haha...went back to j8 got kazan some sushi...and went to comics collection...saw kor woon...my old sch fren...omg...she got into the sch i was rejected...cedar...the sch dat won gold for guzheng syf...the one i will hate all my life...haha...so wat?its okay...finally got my manga!!!yay~~~~~~~~haha...very happy...and so we prepared to go home...

kazan complained dat she was hungry again...and wouldnt make do with her sushi...so we had to go down and get her a curry puff...sigh...i could not help wondering...is dere nothing dat can fill her stomach?haha...its really funni the way she gobbles down food...[no offence]haha...*bow*

den we walked home...i dunno whether it was i dat brought bad luck or it was kazan...the way we usually walk home was closed and we had to walk the other way...haha...stupid eh...i feel lyk jumping into huang he...haha...so dumb...anyway...we talked on the way home and dats it la...got back jiu tired so did nothing but watched movie...hehe...bored neh...okay gtg bb...=))

2005-05-15T22:19:00.000-07:00

okay...today its kinda crazy...

i went to church this morning...didnt sing any hymms...didnt care...for wat?why do i nid to care...its pointless...anyway i dunt care so get this straight...den went for youth meeting...pointless and useless again...i didnt sing...didnt read the verses...coz dorcas lost the paragraph...haha...den beth started playing with dorks name...haha...so funni...i bet there were 100 different dork names...but dork didnt show me all ba...haha...so cute...so funni...den me and grace got restless and started playing and saying stupid stuff...haha...
me and dork going out next sat but with a condition...dat i have to go to sat youth meeting...sigh...for shopping and spending my birthday with dork...i willing to do anything...haha...sound crazy...haha...den me and grace going to some shops to shop for new skirts...not enough skirts....and
then hor...the youth camp the serving ones wan the girls to wear skirts over their knees...dunt be dumb...coz u will never see me in one...=))

den went to bai shi mu's house for lunch...lunch was great...haha...den we go see the cats in the balcony...haha...i saw one by the railing and one next to its house...hah...i really hate cats but i lyk kittens...n i wished dat cat would have fallen off the railing...haha...evil...den go home le...

got home nothing to do...juz kept playing maple story...created a level 8 magician and level 14 rouge...haha...im great...now finish playing...so put in an entry...and im going to sleep now...very tired...sian oso...tomolo got cross country den nid to wake up early...haha...stupid me...haha...crazy...den after cross country...going ophes house watch show...haha...dats all den...gtg le...bb...=))

2005-05-06T22:43:00.000-07:00

hehe...arlow everyone....very long no c...okay...i shall start me long tym blog...

okay...from god noes wen onwards...me n huiling settled our probs i guess...we hav to give in to each other sometyms...im sowie with my wiltfullness...but she sometyms can b real sweet...juz hav to get use to her...

o for the past few days...i was doin lit...real tired naw...dunt decide to study naw...i rote i think six pages yesterday and four pages of lit today...very tirin u noe...so sleepy naw...muz hav good sleep on sunday or else cannot concentrate...okay about today...first lesson was eh...i forgot hehe...but i rmb it was kinda borin...forgot about it le...second lesson was...eh...em...maths?no...eh...science?...no...OH!!!eh...no...its not geo...eh...or izzit not?OHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!i think its chinese...eh...no!!!i rmb le...first two lesson was chinese...eh...was it?ah ya...eh...den second lesson leh?o...maths...i think so...anyway...we did a test paper for chinese and then did graph for maths...graph is damm super borin...*yawn*...den durin the maths peroid...miss rozianna very angry with us...she scold linyu for not havin his graph on the table... den it was pe...damm was i pissed by mr keong...hey excuse mr...we noe ur pervertic...but u didnt hav to make the girls do top stretchin exercises...n den he came n ask me haw many girls are dere...i dunt even understand wat he was askin for...was it for the no of girls playin or total no of girls?den he raised his voice a lil n asked " wats the total no of girls?" xinhui told him 22 but mayb it was a lil soft...den he raised he voice "wat?!" den i yelled at him..."22 lah!" mayb he got scared?mayb he didnt wan to ask further...so he shuttup...good way to b...stupid pea brain...den after recess...it was eh...geo i think...went over workbook...real dumb...stupid...den it was eh...eh...i think it was english...it was lyk the best subject ever...we went there to play com...so cool...hehe...den it was science...wasnt an interestin sub...but mr tang really taught us well...i lyk his n miss tan's class...real nice...

kinda tired naw...wanna go le...bb....=))

2005-04-03T11:22:00.000-07:00

okay...for the past few days i didnt blog...aint happy with the things dat turned out...my marks...my life...my everything...

my pathetic life is gettin the better of me already...i hate it wen its lyk dat...

do u?i dunno...

anyway...took back my ppr...dunt rmb my marks anymore...so i cant say much...anyway can juz say dat i performed not up to standard...so im gonna work harder...anyway...wen i got back my ppr...i dunno...but no one wan wanted to see each others marks...wait...mayb for lyk one or two who thinks their marks is real good n goes round sayin haw bad ppl's are...well...to these ppl...get a life okay...=))...SUCKERS!!!who cares?that day...can tell dat xinhui wasnt dat happy...i tried to comfort her...but it kinda didnt work...den after dat...we were suppose to do ipw...but miss rozi forgot about it...actually its okay to me...i noe u cant expect someone who takes so mani classes to rmb an arrangement dat was made 1 week ago...so we stayed in class n did hmwk instead...oh...before this i had lunch wit xinhui...n this is specially for u...look ur marks is fine...its great...okay...so quit botherin about it...wat was ur damm bloody prob?i noe my marks is not as good as urs...but u didnt hav to open ur damm shit mouth n ask "you are happy with your marks meh?" HELLO!go to hell will u?its lyk none of ur business?dunt think cause u got more marks n u can do look down on ppl okay...u not very clever anyway by the way ur actin...cause ur eq is negative uncounted...i dunt giv a damm to wat u say...but juz because u got a lil bit more marks...doesnt mean u can look down on people who got lesser...gettin lesser doesnt mean stupid okay...n even if i go to a not so good jc compared to urs...n we end up meetin at the same uni...we will still b the same...not as thou uni will take more care of u...get it...

anyway...wasnt very happy today...dork n me keep thinkin dat the servin ones wan to make us irritated...keep askin us to stand n sit...look here assholes...GET A DAMM BLOODY LIFE!!!ass holes...dey onli stoped wen i gav one of the brothers the look...y cant u all make everyone's life easier?n wen it ended...i went out wit dork...daniel gav me something to pass to grace...very bo song den...so i gave daniel dat attitude...sowie...den juz naw he thanked me for passin it to her...but i dunno y...i feel so agitated n started showin attitude again...i dunno...but i juz cant stand church ppl anymore...dey make me feel irkish...ur big fat smiles n fake lies...so...i juz wan u all to noe dat...dunt mess wit me...get it?very good...

so i guess this is all dat i wan to say ba...done...=))

2005-03-29T22:57:00.000-08:00

okay...today...i had an okay tym in school...its was fine...u cant expect a fantastic tym wen im in school...

anyways...the onli disturbbin thing was dat miss nai wanted to see me...anyway...not much...its juz to tell me that i failed both my higher chinese test...so she wans to gimme tution...so wat can i say?anybody dat gave me tution has no effect on me...well...wat ya expect...naw i dunno wats wrong wit me...i m startin to b on guard on everything dey do to me...everything she whispers about...im losin it...im losin control of my own pathetic life...

i got 33/48 for science...n almost got killed by my mum...dad didnt giv a damm...his work is simply more important den me...chinese i got 21/50...mum has nothing to say coz i alwaes fail it...i got 19/30 for english...i dunt dare to tell mum at all...it was suppose to be 21 but dey minus marks because of formay...maths i got 22/30 got scoldeed by mum again...as per normal...dad didnt care at all...i got lit i think i got 17/25 i almost got hacked up by my mum...same...dad didnt care at all...as thou im a nobody...a no one...i hate my life...

the more i live my pathetic life...the more i think im lyk johnny from the outsiders...juz dat i m better off...my mum is not a selfish slob...n my dad dunt get drunk...but he does beats me for every lil thing i do...n my mum alwaes scolds me...i will never satisfy dem...im alwaes behind my brother...y is my brother so clever?i alwaes wonder...m i born stupud?or m i juz plain stupid?one day i will find dat ans...i hate church...i hate school...i dunt think i will ever hav anyone to support me in wateva i do anymore...i hate myslef...y was i born?well...no one will eva noe...i giv my life to god naw...so he can do anything he wans to me...let me live or let me die...i will still thank god for wat he had given me...great frens...pals dat i will keep foreva...thankx grace dork n beef for spendin tym wit this pathetic person...thankx mingying for being my consillor...thankx ivy for bein my hao peng you...thankx xinhui for singing wit me...thankx ophe n huiling for juz bring my frens...

i think...no one will eva understand me...u dunt noe wat its lyk wen nothing feels alright...no u dunno wat its lyk to b lyk me...naw for the lyrics of my song...enjoy n absorb...its totally haw i feel...'Welcome to my life' simple plan...dere is a simple plan concert tomolo n im not part of it...haw much more can my life b pathetic?

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like meTo be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

2005-03-27T17:40:00.000-08:00

okay...people...sorry for inconvience caused...coz no board n posts to read eh...so nothing much...so today i fill in eveything...

today im bloody pissed...i dunt care if any of the people i mentioned here reads this...but i kept it in myself for too long le...so here it goes...

today...me dork n gracie went to church...den we sat at the back row...but some bloody idiots want us to sit in front...look here...we noe u all are the ushers...but dere is no nid to abuse ur athourity...get it?get a life okay...u all cant force people to sit in the front okay...u suckers...fuck off!wat is ur bloody prob?me n grace arnt dat happy about it okay...so get a life...the more u all do this to me...the more i rebell...n dunt b surprise dat one day...i will juz leave this damm blooddy church...so suckers...juz one sentence of advice...do urselves a favour n get a bloody life okay...=))

okay this part done...next part is wen we seperate into the youth group...me dork gracie n beefy sat together...n we werent really listening....we kept tokin durin the sharin sessons...lyk do i gib a damm?i dunt share at all...so y must i bother?so stop thinkin ur clever...coz u r totally a stupid ass idiot...u ask us haw we feel wen we r sharin n someone is tokin...well...m ans is i dunt gib a damm to such a thing...n dat u cant force people to share pray n go for camps...the camps r fuckinly borin okay...ass holes...all of u r so irritatin...

next me dork gracie went to bro john peh's house for lunch...we tokked n ate together...it was quite fun coz we were tokkin loads of stuff...den we went home...me n grace had a handphone tok...n realised dat some bloody fools think we last year was very irritatin...for ur bloody info...we hardly tok to u...so shut ur ass mouth okay...tok big...go hell la...u think ur not irritatin?especially the oldest one...u r bloody ass hole...u son of a gun...pea brain...n i hope u stay a pea brain forever...childish...ass hole...its lyk onli one person is irritatin lor...so get ur facts rite okay...we lyk hardly tok to u all lor...

den after dat...me grace went home le...i did hmwk...i think dis is the best meeting i had wit grace...thou alot of things she dunt let me noe...but i dunt care...its no big deal...as tym goes she might tell me too...

yay~~~i think i let it all out le...feel so great...recently i bought 4 new cds...twins first chinese album...cyndi's honey...boa's greatest hits...yay...n JAY'S CONCERT CD!!!!wee~~~love dem all...anyway...twins rules...i m listenin to their cd naw...i think i heard it lyk 100+ tyms le...its really nice...cyndi's cd is a big dissappointment...boa's cd rules...n last of all...JAY'S!!!!wee~~~he looks so cute...muackies...hehe...anyway...i think this is really long le...so i end here ba...

2005-02-04T00:54:00.000-08:00

arlow ppl...haw r u guys?i noe i haven been updatin much...so its kida rustin here le...sowie for inconvience...hehe...anyway...these few days bloody tired...haha...everyone should noe y la...begining of school year lor...everything oso rush...expecially for tests neh...pass few days were havin tests...so didnt update on wat happened durin school...haha...tell u all naw lor...i doesnt fell good bein a sec2...as we r sec 2s naw...we hav to behave...n dats lyk the worst thing im ever good at...haha...so...first few days...ms tan check our hairstyles...if i did not rmb wrongly...ms tan CUT my wit a bloody scissors n it was so damm ugly...its lyk very layered fringe dat ends off wit a straight line n yet it does not look lyk a straight line...i ran to jean yip n quickly got my hair nicely cut again...sigh...i should make ms tan pay for it...juz because of dat bloody fringe...i hav to spend $32.90. dat bloody toot...very angry liao...den hor ms tan lyk almost everyday scold ke bu ting lor...ass hole...luckily naw change science topic le...so ms tan not teachin us for the tym bein...heng ah...or else my hair sure kana one...haha...den hor the rest of the days were juz collectin money buyin stationaries n other etc stuff...den on monay...it was english test...so damm bloody long...but passage b was hard...so i took my own sweet tym figurin the passage out...den finished at around 4+...i think i will fail leh...anyway...the nest one was....geo ba...geo was oso quite hard...i think i might fail it too...den it was lit...i think dis one diffinately pass lor...coz i lyk so totally memorised the ans...luckily mrs lum teach us carefully neh...haha...den it was maths...very hard leh!!!dat one sure fail de...i dunno wat to do...sigh...sure cane de la...den today was chinese...totally sux...dunt even understand a sigle word...haha...anyway...i think i might lay off a while n not rite my blog for some tym...coz i nid to study le...so mayb onli on weekends den can lor...its juz the way it is...anyway...gtg le...buai buai ppl...muack!

2004-12-30T01:15:00.000-08:00

okay...today kinda gona wat i didnt expect...woke up...mum went to work...i did my hmwk...naw im left wit another 3 pages of ting qing chun zai ku qi n to memorise my toopid summary...fark can...so damm stressed...but i dunt gib a damm...i hate school...y cant dey juz hav all art lessons instead?oh...n d&t n home econs...hehe...hate studyin...dats me...juz lyk wat my second uncle said...i really m jealous of haw my bro studies...alwaes top...i wish i was wit my cousins instead...dunt hav to study so hard...sigh...anyway...after lunch...watched shrek 2...very funni...but not as nice as shrek 1 i guess...coz kinda digustin...hehe...dat pinocio lor...wear thong...so horrible...haha...den after dat i went for a afternoon nap...forget to wake up until dinner tym...den i realised i set my alarm to 5am...hehe...toopid me...den i woke up le jiu eat dinner lor...den watched xi lin men...feel kinda sad for lana...coz sky so totally cared for himself onli...den watched some detective show by irene ang...kinda funni wen i saw haw nice the cofin...coz it so totally looks nicer den my bed...haha...den was so sad wen i saw dead animals being burried...sigh...i wish i got animals too...sigh...den i watched soccer...for so tym den i watched...twelve kingdom n inuyasha...eh...forgot haw to spell...anyway...den i watched tian cai go go go...yuki is so cute!!!hehe...ai sha kinda toopid thou...hehe...anyway...still thinkin of ways to get the two jap cd...one is the 10 year collection of balads if im not wrong...the other is the most popular de izzit?i dunno...but i really wan those two...thinkin of gettin dem from my parents...=XX...haha...anyway...gtg sleep le...cya ppl tomolo...muackies...!

2004-12-28T17:23:00.000-08:00

okay...sowie ppl...was not in the mood to update anything the pastfew days...coz was buzy playin MS...very nice kay...so everyone try hor...anyway...very sian today...so juz change blogskin...took me about 15 min to finish so quickly post it up...not very nice i noe...very plain yes...but i not in the mood...so too bad...dats all le ba...

2004-12-02T00:06:00.000-08:00

okay

sowie ppl

recently went to church camp

so kinda tired...

so neber update lor...

hehe

tired

cannot guai(4) me

anyway

got home

very tired

den i watched the boardin house recorded de...

okay

i onli watched the friday one...so gib an update lor...

the gurls were at the honalua bay for their bilabong pro...

unfortunately...

chelsea lost...

to the 1st suffer for some competition can

so lyk...

chelsea did her best

not enuf to beat the other competitor

for the guys...

it was the xbox pipeline masters

held at the banzai pipeline

the guys were seperated

danny won his match

sunny won his match

but dere were a lil confusion in myles match

so the results were not out

anyway...

juz watched singapore idol!!!

my idol won

its was lyk so obvious lor

taufik has the voice

sly has the fans

but not enuf fans

TAUFIK WON CAN!!!!

wee~~

hehe

too bad for sly...

but sure dere will b some one else hu wans him

so dunt feel bad sly...

=))

sly fans out dere...

sly will make it

as for taufik

u rule can

yay~~~

haha

i will support him wen his album comes out

hehe

taufik supporters out dere!!!

say 'we lurbb taufik!!!'

we lurbb u

i lurbb u most

muackies taufik!

hehe...

i lurbb u

u lurbb me

haha

im lame

but i lurbb taufik!

dare u say no!

haha...lurbb ya foreva taufik!

wee~~~

2004-11-25T22:17:00.000-08:00

okay

today wacthed alot of things

first wacthed sesame streets...

i noe i noe

its a lil childish

but wat can i say?

im old

but young at heart

no la

juz supportin my all tym favourtie

ELMO!!!

wee~~~

hehe

watched iron chef

nice food wor

dey so xin fu

eat food neber seen outside before

yummi

hehe

den watched under one roof

den it was run of the house

so damm funni wor

haha

okay...

today found out the other name le

the other gurl is chelsea

"rookie of the year" contender

so today...

women battle at the Turtle Bay

holdin the Turtle Bay Resort Pro

sowie eh

wrong info yesterday

anyway

today...

the gurls were up first

at the turtle bay

wohoo~~~

didnt noe chelsea is so good

coz she totally pass the elimination round can

hehe

thou she onli second place la

but at least she got in

holly...

big disappointment can

she didnt even get in

vk too

but kinda expected for her

for the guys...

for the second elimination

damien was eliminated

as for sunny n myles...

dey were up against the world's best suffers ba

expecially andy irons

"world champ" contender

n ah...

sowie hor...

keep forgetin

myles is the

rip curl champion

not the vans triple cup champ

so sunny wans his consecutive 6th cup

since sunny surfed since he was 9

therefore he rules

but he n myles still got kicked out

sigh

tomolo no go stuff for the dudes

but alot of hot stuff wit chelsea wor

haha...

so damm nice can

she surf lyk the queen man

haha

y i say dat?

turtle bay has got the worst waves i eva seen

all so unstable

u dunt even noe wat waves dey r

so...

n but...

chelsea did it

beaten holly n vk flat man

haha

anyway

after dat watched xi ling men

jia xi sux can

so vixen

hate her

tupid women

ya xi so good so dunt wan

den watched singapore idol

i vote for taufik man

coz he rule can

sly not bad la

but juz dat he cant sing english properly can

so he aint good for singapore idol ba

furthermore...

he cant reach the high notes

i heard him sing one of the songs juz naw

he totally cant reach it can

he went off of pitch lor

anyway...

he cant sing la

den i watched ye man qing jia

haha

so funni

the advertisment oso very funni lor

so nice to watch la

later hav to stay up to open the door for my bro

tupid him...

forget to brin keys

haha

jkjk

no angry hor

anyway...

tomolo onwards wunt use the com liao

coz got church camp

dats all ba

2004-11-25T00:01:00.000-08:00

today

sian

forget to record boardin house

coz go guzheng ma

den i quickly rushed home

at least watched 30 mins

WEE~~~

today totally rox

continue the boardin house

coz all of u noe wat happens in guzheng le ma

continuin the vans triple crown challange

so damm cool can

i missed the gurls challenge at haleiwa beach in hawaii

so damm sux

y cant dey juz let us off earlier

but deffinately should b holly dat won lor

hehe

HOLLY RULES!!!

today

the 2nd jewel competition

at the sunset beach

holdin the rip curl cup

wohoo~~~

sunsent beach so totally rox can

waves dere can kill ppl

so u muz b mind body n soul together as one wit the waves

sounds lyk yoga hor

hehe

tupid...

so today is the elimination round

n my idols myles n sunny got in!!!

so cool can

wee~~~

its so damm obvious dat sunny is much better

but im damm sure myles wunt let sunny win so easily

but sunny sure is gibin myles

the current defendin champion

a tough tym

sunny wans to win the 6th vans triple crown challenge

but myles wans to defend it for himself

hus gonna win?

hus gonna lose?

worth watchin

hehe

anyway

today

gib a short postin on wat happened in boardin house

myles didnt compete against sunny in the elimination round

first up was myles

he so totally nailed every wave he wanted can

it was lyk specially made for him

every wave he got it

not leavin any tym out

he wans the two best waves

deffinately

so cool can

den it was sunny!!!

i watched him surf since p5

he totally rules

today

despite his injured

1. knee

2. back

3. neck

he still nailed it

den wen it was almost over...sunny made his last surf

he could hav juz swam back to shore...

bcoz he already won

but wantin to make a sensation

a wave about 25 feet came

he suddenly turns back towards it n disappeared

i was lyk

sunny cant die naw!!!

dave the announcer

was lyk

'where's sunny naw?'

den suddenly

sunny appeared!!

he caught the 25 feet wave!!!

wee~~~

hehe

it was so totally cool can

muackies sunny!!!

lurbb him to bits

but he got wife liao

hehe

nice name she got

raina

gonna name my child dat

den after dat...

tomolo is the 2nd jewel

rip curl cup finals held at sunset beach

for the dudes

as for the babes

tomolo...elimination round

wohoo~~

holly gambatte!!!

hehe...u rule...

n vk too

but u rule more can!!!

hehe...

n i hope dat myles wins it tomolo

or else its a straight victory for sunny

i lyk myles better

coz he better lookin

hehe

but sunny has got the moves

so dunno hu to support...

hehe...anyway

juz got to say

gambatte

n ah

marcus didi...

u actin more n more wierd these days eh

den alwaes dunt wan to tell me y

wierd kid...

haha

jkjk

wee~~~

everyone if u r interested in surfin

tune into boardin house tomolo at 5.30 pm

onli on chanel 5

i think chanel 5 should gib me credit coz i help dem advertise wor

hehe

mayb i should juz stop day dreamin

haha

2004-11-23T23:31:00.000-08:00

so sowie ppl...

didnt blog for lyk two days?

yup...two whole days...

anyway...very bored...if u wan to noe wat has been happenin in my life...

heres an account of it...

past two days...doin hmwk from mornin to evenin...

den yesterday

watched iron chef

watched yesterday today

watched under one roof

watched 8 simple rules to datin my teenage daughter?

watched boardin house!!!

wohoo~~

sufer dudes n babes...

do a slight intro...

babes r

holly

n dunno wats her name liao

dudes r

sunny

myles

damien

danny

i lurbb holly

she is so damm cool

dunt act cute...coz she is a sufer

totally cool

vk not bad

a roxy model!!!

wohoo~~~

n a party gurl

sunny...

the surfin legend

5 tyms triple cup champion we r tokin here

myles...

defendin champion

damien...

most improved surfer

danny...

juz another professional suffer

watched xi ling men II wit parents

den watched huan le dian feng

coz got SHE!!!

hehe...

i wan go their concert

but by den already kai xue liao

so parents say cannot

dat sux

hehe

den watched ye man qing jia

den watched true files

den finish off by watchin america's next top model

today...

wake up

do hmwk n read xin ling ji tang

watched under one roof

watched wat i lyk about u

den boardin house again!!!

holly totally rules...

she can surf so damm well

as for vk

total embarassment...

fell every wave she tried to get hold on

so she was eliminated

den sunny n damien proceded to the champion cup for the haleiwa cup

sunny totally won it

he rules...

wohoo~~~

tomolo is the womens chapion cup...

so anticipatin

den play guzheng

den eat dinner

den watch xi ling men

den watched phua chu kang

den watched livin wit lydia

den ye man qing jia

den cum use com le...yesterday lyk neber use hor...

ya...

*nodds*

dis totally sux...

damm it

i hate my damm life

dunno y suddenly think of the past

i told myself its over

neber gonna cum back again

but cant help thinkin...

about the fun we use to hav...

naw its all over

take it as a good memory ba

before we even started fightin

somehaw...

i juz became selfish

holdin onto u lyk a vice

not gibin u space to find ur own frens...

all because of dat selfish me...

but since i started it...

i noe the consequences

n i will accept the fact dat

i lost u

hope to get back together was wat i believed last tym

but everytym we get back together again

we fight

its unendin...

so to safe us the trouble of gettin hurt again

i broke it off

but the wrong way

naw i simply miss u very much

naw its not the same...

to think we r spendin another year together

i dunt feel lyk seein u...

dunt wan to noe the fact i lost u?

but next year...

its our last year...

i will spend it wisely...

neber gonna fight wit anyone again

im sowie...

for hurtin u again n again

its all my fault...

well

no use cryin ober spilled milk i guess

furthermore...i spilled the milk

thankx to me

a wonderful frenship totally gone

goodbye...

a song for everyone

suits my feelin naw

hopin to find someone to turn to

if u guessed it

yes it is

i turn to u

by christina aguilera

"I Turn To You"

When I'm lost in the rain,

In your eyes I know I'll find the light

To light my way.

And when I'm scared,

And losing ground,

When my world is going crazy,

You can turn it all around.

And when I'm down you're there

- pushing me to the top.

You're always there,

giving me all you've got.

For a shield from the storm,

For a friend, for a love

to keep me safe and warm

I turn to you.

For the strength to be strong,

For the will to carry on

For everything you do,

for everything that's true

I turn to you.

When I lose the will to win,

I just reach for you and

I can reach the sky again.

I can do anything

'Cause your love is so amazing,

'Cause your love inspires me.

And when I need a friend,

You're always on my side

Giving me faithtaking me through the night

For a shield from the storm,

For a friend,

for a loveto keep me safe and warm

I turn to you.

For the strength to be strong,

For the will to carry on

For everything you do,

for everything that's trueI turn to you.

For the arms to be my shelter

through all the rain,

For truth that will never change,

For someone to lean on,

For a heart I can rely on through anything,

For that one who I can run to...

For a shield from the storm,

For a friend,

for a loveto keep me safe and warm

I turn to you

For the strength to be strong,

For the will to carry on

For everything you do,

for everything that's true

I turn to you.

For a shield from the storm,

For a friend,

for a loveto keep me safe and warm

I turn to you.

For the strength to be strong,

For the will to carry on

For everything you do,

for everything that's true

I turn to you.

I turn to you...

end of song...

touchin n great

hope u can c it

im still waitin for someone to turn to

coz naw

no one noes my pain

hurt

i miss u

all i can ask naw

is dat we b fren foreva

im not gonna b so ambitious to b ur best fren again

im sowie to hab hurt u so badly

i love u

more den u eva noe

hurtin u hurts me even more

juz dat i neber dere to say

of pride n face

im sowie

2004-11-21T02:19:00.000-08:00

olritee

ii m totallyy gonnaa burstt anyy mintutee naww

wass gonnaa tell uu ppl myy dayy wentt quitee well

until somethingg happenedd

diss totallyy suckk

anywayy

startt from thee morninn baa

wokee upp quitee latee todayy

att aroundd 11.45am

ii wouldntt hav wokee upp iff nott forr mommiee

shee camee into myy room

tryy to wakee mee upp

denn ii didntt

so shee totallyy pouncedd onn mee!

hahaa

duntt blamee herr

itss quitee hardd wakinn upp a deadd logg ya noee

afterr wakinn upp

wentt to bathh

brushh teethh

fashh facee

denn ii realisedd

itt wass lunchh!

damm...

didntt noee ii wokee upp so latee

hehee...

duntt blamee aa deadd logg

denn eatt lee lunchh

jiuu satt att thee sofaa to watchh liuu xingg huaa yuann

sighh

lastt episodee worr

thouu ii watchedd itt three tyms le...

hehee...

denn afterr watchinn liuu xingg huaa yuann

ii wentt onn to watchh kuaii le xinn qii tiann

watchh watchh watchh

finallyy realisee datt ii was damm latee

hehe

latee forr churchh wor...

hehe

denn ii quicklyy gott readyy

nn rann downn to meett gracee

so wee cann go churchh togetherr

damm

wenn ii gott downstairss

ii saww datt ii missedd thee buss

hehee...

nn gracee sittinn deree...

ii apologisedd

butt shee saidd itt wass alritee

hengg ahh

hehe

denn wee satt deree

crapp ourr lifee awayy mann

hehee

veryy funnii

denn afterr datt

thee buss camee

wenn wee reachedd the mrtt stationn

wee tookk ourr ownn sweett tymm

i practicallyy strolledd dere

hehee

toppedd upp myy ez-linkk cardd

nn wentt to boardd thee trainn

juzz to findd outt datt wee juz missedd itt

hehee

denn wee startedd to crapp againn lorr

veryy funnii

hahaa

wenn wee finallyy reachedd redd hill

wee wentt to 7-11 to buyy somee stuff

denn wentt to church lor

quitee funn laa

afterr churchh

denn gott homee

wentt to eatt dinnerr witt familyy

den go NTUC to buyy somee stuff

wentt homee

nn ii startedd onn my neww blogskinn

finallyy donee le

YAY~~~

hehe

the badd thingg datt totallyy spoiledd myy dayy is datt

WO BEI YUAN WANG!

jo...

if u r readinn diss

myy nickk

wasntt referinn to u

oncee u cooledd downn

hopee u understandd baa

duntt daree to tokk to u naw

nextt tymm

ii hopee u cann askk mee firstt

duntt jumpp to conclusionn

maybb ii seem to b scoldinn u

butt im nott

so wat makee u thinkk datt wayy

ii did tokk to u okayy

askk urself did u ans mee

NO!

so gett itt straightt heree

n askk hus faultt izzitt okayy

im totallyy inn no moodd to fightt witt u

n totally no strengthh leftt to fightt

if u understandd

well good

if u dunt n persis datt its myy faultt

ii havv nothingg to sayy

u totallyy ignoredd me wenn ii tokedd to u okayy

ii havv thee ritee to hatee u

butt ii didntt okayy

we r bro n sis inn christt

givv itt a thott baa

ii gavv inn

ii didntt askk y u ignoredd mee okayy

cozz u juzz didntt evenn seem to botherr aboutt tokinn to mee

gett dis straightt ritee naw

nextt tym askk me FIRST!

dunt evaa jumpp to conclusionn

alritee dats all baa

thou a lil bitt of mistakee here

butt i duntt really caree le baa

juzz wann to sayy

i duntt hatee u bro

no matterr watt u sayy

u r still myy bro in christt

hopee thee lordd shows datt to u

i wuntt askk forr forgivness cozz im nott wrongg att all

juzz hopee datt ii cann tokk to u aboutt itt

so dats aboutt itt le baa...

2004-11-20T01:14:00.000-08:00

bored
tired
darn tired
sick
n welcome to
another chapter of sophia's borin life
whether u lyk it or not
anyway
i hate my life
go guzheng class on every wed n fri
den muz practice guzheng everyday
borin
sick n tired of it le
might jump down my blog one day because of the stress guzheng is gibin me

anyway today is the same lor
lyk everyday haw i go to guzheng class lyk dat lor
wake up
do hmwk
practice guzheng
skip lunch
go guzheng

i think mommie fed up of wakin me up le ba
she everyday go teach witout wakin me up
coz once she wake me
i go back to sleep again
tired ma
den i think she fed up liao lor
haha
=P
sowie mommie
den i even had marcus didi do the honour to wake a dead log up
XD
haha
muz b tough eh
he so poor thing
stay up the whole nite
den i overslept even though he woke me up
hehe

today counted okay la
juz did more practicin lor
very tired oso
sit until
neck
eyes
hand
back
butt
all pain wor
but at least better den last tym

to b truthful
i rather hav liang lao shi teach den chen lao shi teach lor
he is diffinately better
hehe
not dat chen lao shi no good
but she too stressed le ba
everyday scold us
den teach oso not so xi xin
sigh
very scared of her actually
but wat to do
we cant blame her
she should b stressed
if we dunt get gold for SYF
she will run into a wall ah
haha
no la

YAY~~~finally noe haw to play wan hui liao
thou its very fast n confusin
its quite a nice song
totally agree wit jas
some part sound lyk funeral song
hehe
but some part very fast
very interestin
very nice
hehe
anyway
dats all for guzheng lor

den came home wit huiting
thw whole journey juz tok cock
n luaf lyk siao lor
hehe
a bit tupid la
den had to part because i reach my house le
wen i got home
den i remember dat mommie neber cook
so daddi n me go out
go mac
den saw huiting n her family dere
hehe
so farni
den we saw each other den start to luaf non stop again lor
hehe
a bit toot rite
haha
i noe

den we tok for a while
den me n daddi start eatin first
coz daddi wan to rush home
me too
i wan to go home sleep

wen we were eatin
me n daddi play
LOL
i could not finish my food
so i pick fries from my pack n say
'daddi...u drop dis'
coz he was holdin the pack up
hehe
den i shoved a big bunch into his pack
den daddi say
'my pack got hole or wat?where got drop so mani de?'
haha
*lalalalalala*
den he oso cannot finish
den he gib me
i put inside the plastic bag n say
'i put all into my pack hor'
den daddi say
'ya okay...fan zheng...all these fries is urs'
*lalalalalalala*
hehe
so farni

den wen we got back
i sms marcus didi
help daddi cut his toe nails
massage for him
den mommie came home wit lots of food lor
coz mommie went to my primary school de p6 farewell party
[mommie is a parent support dere]
den me n daddi was lyk
lookin at each other
n we say
'aiya...if we noe got so much food...den no nid go mac eat liao'
den daddi playfully wack my head n said
'dis lil gurl here ah...waste my money ah...cant even finish a mac meal...LOUSY!haha...'
so i say
'y my fault again?haha...hu ask u brin me go eat?=P'
haha
den we keep on 'fightin' lor

after dat
i went to watch ye man qing jia for while
haha
quite farni
kinda miss ren wo ou you
i wish got second serie
hehe
very nice show wor
dunno y marcus didi can dunt wan to watch
*bish*
haw dare he
haha
jkjk
anyway
dats all lor
my end for another chapter of sophia's borin life...
thankyew for supportin
hehe
lame...

2004-11-18T23:28:00.000-08:00

-okay...ppl...im sowie didnt update for two days...coz i gan gong for my class blogskin...ppl go check it out okay...i think its nice...coz i do one ma...but ppl...if u think its not nice...plz rite it in the doddle board...n leave ur name...so i can get some advice form u ppl...thankyew...-

-wednesday, 17 nOvember
okay...today went for guzheng class...today at around 8+ ba...i call marcus didi sms me to make me wake up...den he call me...den i neber ans...den he sms...bein startled...the sms said...'wake up sleepy head'...i sms him back...n scold him...i ask him wat dimension was he from...sleep later den me...wake up earlier den me...haha...den he say he last nite neber sleep becoz he wan to wake me up...den i was thinkin...gosh...super man ah...can donnid to sleep one...haha...den after a while...he neber reply...so i wwnt back to sleep again...=X...i sleep until overslept...haha...i run run run to the busstop...hopefully can catch the bus...heng met dionne dere...so donnid to go school alone...heng ah...haha...den go school dere...we go 7-11...dionne bought big gulp...i bought chocolate...hehe...sweet tooth...den we go school...i go school...den remember nid to go buy books...so i go lor...i bought the oustiders n some other things...den ran to guzheng class to go practice...sigh...as u all noe...its juz practice...practice...n more practice lor...damm tirin...dats all ba...den at nite...i watch the part whether kai wei choose jing wen or yi xuan...was so damm happy...coz kai wei chose jing wen!!!hehe...but sad coz yi xuan has to c it...n had to gib up the necklace sigh...poor thing...she almost cried...i wish i can buy the cd n watch it over n over again...hehe...anyway...dats it...-

-thusday, 18 nOvember
today wake up...do hmwk...playguzheng n started on the blogskin...sigh...until naw lor...very tired liao...today more borin...nothing muzh to say lor...so goin to sleep naw...ppl muz go c the blog hor...n tag ah...haha...thankyew...-

2004-11-16T15:50:00.000-08:00

-wee~~~haha...ppl...miss me ma?haha...okay...yesterday juz got back from my trip...so very tired...den jiu neber update lor...lyk dat la...so today update kayz...-

-Friday, 12 nOvember
okay...today darn tired wor...mornin wake up try to finish the blogskin...finally...the background finish liao...juz left the names of the class haven put in nia...so satisfied...hehe...but darn tired...last nite keep messagin marcus didi...but he buzy wor...so i excuse him lor...den try to pack my stuff...in the end...hu knew...i didnt pack at all den go koon liao...*stick out tongue*...hehe...den mornin wake up oso neber pack...den go play com liao...hehe...den wen almost leavin for my guzheng class...daddi ask...'girl...where ur bag?put out here so i later help u take down'...i was lyk...'oh oh...'...hehe...neber pack wor...den daddi very angry...den luckily mommie say...'i help girl pack le'...wah heng ah...haha...den i go guzheng class first...den we play guzheng until almost die ah...band use the music room...so we found ourselves another room lor...den we practice non stop...den after practicin cao yuan ying xiong xiao jie mei...teacher say still got another song wor...we were lyk...'WAT!!!'...very tirin wor...den teacher keep rushin us...in the end...i everything oso dunno haw to play...hehe...den gong gong follow lor...*stick out tongue*...den finish the first three pages liao...teacher den let us go home wor...sigh...den i,jas,mingli,xinyi n dionne go oppo the 7-11 go buy food...hehe...i buy alot wor...later eat somemore becum pig...hehe...den mommie n daddi cum fetch me go my cousins house stay lor...-

-Saturday, 13 nOvember
today wake up damm late...forgotten wat i did liao in the mornin...i onli remember watchin tv...tokkin...n sleepin...O...n eatin lor...really gonna becum pig liao wor...hehe...den at nite...ah qing,ah zhen,ah mei,ah girl,me,da gu,da gu zhang,xiao gu n xiao gu zhang go karaoke n disco...hehe...fun wor...hehe...we sing a bit first...den we dance the whole nite wor...after singin...da gu n da gu zhang wan to go home liao...dey say if dey dance ah...sure mei ming liao...haha...den the rest continue dancin lor...xiao gu go buy beer n red wine wor...i scared daddi scold me...so didnt take beer...i onli take red wine...*pui*...very bitter...hehe...but dey say very sweet wor...'eh...wat r dey thinkin?'hehe...-

-Sunday, 14 nOvember
today woke up...thot gonna b lyk yesterday so borin...but i was wrong...xiao gu n xiao gu zhang brought me n ah girl go shoppin...hehe...i buy a lot of things wor...but becoz mommie onli gav me 100 bucks...so i can buy limited stuff onli...still got alot i wan to buy wor...haw?hehe...mommie say...wait next tym go back den go buy lor...den at nite karaoke n disco again...but i very tired...somemore nid to pack bag go home liao...so i neber go wit dem...dats all lor...-

-Monday, 15 nOvember
today...wake up...hav lunch den go home liao lor...dats all lor...sigh...onli got to say good bye to ah qing,ah zhen,ah bee,ah girl,xiao gu and xiao gu zhang...juz lyk dat lor...neber get to say bye bye to ah mei...i m gonna miss her...she very nice person wor...not to mention...darn chio...not lyk me...haha-

-dats all lor...not much la...dunt feel lyk elaboratin any part of the tour coz today very tired...-

2004-11-11T22:11:00.000-08:00

-okay...today my last day ob ritin in my blog before i leave for overseas...sigh...today...nothing much...juz plain tired...in the mornin...woke up n started on the class blogskin...darn tired...den didi a bit le...went to meet up wit mingying...first go to kovan...shop a bit...took neos...den left for j8...frens say naw bigger...nicer den before...but i dunt c haw nice it is naw...haha...frankly speakin...it juz look disorganised...very ugly too...lyk last minute work lyk dat...luan luan extend de...den we walk...sat down to tok...den we went home le lor...very tired today...so dunt feel lyk tokin much...anyway...dats my day...-

2004-11-11T01:53:00.000-08:00

-okay...its mornin le...kinda tired...coz went out since 12.45pm...first go to guzheng class...let me gib a slight account on wat we did...first...reach dere at around 1pm...1.30pm the teacher cums...open the door...we quickly clear the place...the teacher opens our store room...n i sat wit her n play wit her tamaguchi...dunno haw to spell...haha...den we juz exchange the hotmail...n hp no...haha...quite fun...den liang lao shi came in...den say muz quickly ban guzheng...den after dat...nid to tiao...sigh...the most idiotic thing to do...i wasted alot of tym dere tryin to tiao it lor...in the end liang lao shi started witout me!!!haw dare he...=P...haha...anyway...kept on playin lor...finally...finish the song wor!!!YAY~~~haha...but i didnt do really well...so i stayed back durin our break to practice...sigh...didnt eat lunch...n didnt take break...but...jas got me something to drink...aint she so sweet...haha...thou its i ask her to get me something to drink de...but at least she got soemthing for me...not lyk some ppl...xP...haha...den after dat...we practice again...practice until liang lao shi happy...our tymin was 6min 12sec...i thot i was good coz it was 6 pages long...but liang lao shi say no good!!!muz b in 6 mins...wat the...i nothing better to say...coz we hav another song to perform...n all muz b within 8 mins...so okay la...acceptable...den we started on the new song...den chen lao shi came in...n she wanted to hear the previous song...once she came in...i totally forgot haw to play it...play a while n stopped...xD...very pressured...haha...anyway...after dat...chen lao shi changed a few places...den we were let off...den i rushed to zheng xiang's bbq party lor...darn tired...got myself lost...hehe...had to hab zheng xiang guild me...couldnt u juz brin me...hai me hab to waste so much calls...=X...haha...den wen i got dere...the guard let me in...witout me sayin anything...i was lyk...starin at him...'do i go in?'...he nodd his head...haha...i was lyk so ma lu...i asked him do i go in?i m suppose to go in!!!wat do u think i was suppose to do?climb in?haha...anyway...wen i got in...so many ppl cum welcome me wor...so gan dong...haha...eh...zheng xiang...chang zhong...my di justin...n my mei vivien...hehe...so long no c dem le...really miss dem...expecially vivien n justin...miss u guys...den walked in...quite nice the condo...den saw zhang hui n joan...becum pretty le wor...haha...n tall...sigh...im short...haha...den saw my alicia n jac...oso pretty le wor...n my dear leng...bcum ah lian le hor...haha...so many ear holes...notti ah...haha...den saw jon c...we not very close...so nothing to say...n edwin...haha...oso not close...neber tok de...den i opened up the justea...den vivien saw it...den she was lyk...ohor...i was lyk...DIE!!!she say jon c say dunt open de...den i was lyk...jon c...i opened it...eh..im so darn sowie...do i put back the straw n retie the pack?haha...he say...i got say meh?den i was lyk...so i can drink it?he say ya...den vivien got 'angry'...den she go tell alicia...'hmph...y he let sophia open dunt let me open?'haha...baby...dunt b angry kay...sowie la...at least u ppl get to drink it rite...haha...den i go a while den go home le lor...coz everyone wanted to leave le...so go home lor...didnt eat anything...but half a pack of potato chips...den justin didi wan to eat oso...so...i gav up my lunch cum dinner to him lor...den cum home le la...came home...had a fight wit daddi...juz hide in my room to cry...dats about it lor...o ya...REN WO OU YOU ROX!!!wee...haha...dat is so darn nice to watch...hehe...n ah...SHINHWA ROX!!!SHINHWA IS SO DARN CUTE!!!hehe...okay...gtg le...-

2004-11-09T11:01:00.000-08:00

-today...woke up very early...coz pei grace go out...yawn...tired...wake up at 7.30 wor...i thot she wan to go ps...so we went out at 10am...wen we reached j8...damm...nothin was opened...haha...den in the end...we juz went up n bought tickets to watch princess diaries...damm nice wor...i dunt mind watchin it again...haha...den after dat...we went round shoppin lor...den i go sembawang go buy shinhwa de cd...damm nice wor...thou i dunt understand a single thing...i think its really nice...den ah we shop a lil longer...cum to my house play a while den she go home...sigh...den back to my old n borin life lor...dunt wan to update le...coz very very sad...tired...so...dats all ba-

2004-11-08T23:35:00.000-08:00

-okay...today...very very tired...yawn...woke up really early...woke up le...do wat?continue my borin life lor...haha...for me to noe n u to find out...haha...no la...did some dumb ass homework tupid zhonghua gav...yawn...wen tokin about hmwk...i wan to sleep le la...haha...anyway...YAY...finish a journal...wit a really tupid title...LOVE...haha...i wrote some total crap...mayb i should juz throw it away...n rite a really good one...haha...enuf said about my dumb homework...den tok about my new blogskin ba...nice ma?i spend the whole afternoon redoin it...hehe...finally....I DID IT!!!thou not very nice...but at least i speed my whole day into dis thing...den ah...do n do n do...almost die wor...XD...hehe...very tired naw...nothing much happen to day la...juz plain fun doin my blog...hav dat satisfaction...currently healin dat wound...it quite done le...neber gonna lyk anyone anymore...*nodds*...my promiss to everyone...anyway...hope dat she is habin fun...witout me...i think she muz b happier...im so sowie...if i new it would cause so much trouble...i would neber patch up wit ya...so im sowie eh...anyway...gtg sleep le...very tired...sowie the posts naw a days not long hor...coz dere is totally nothing interestin happenin in my life...hehe...-

2004-11-08T01:46:00.000-08:00

-yawn...okay...today darn tired...but was requested to rite up my blog longer...so naw im here doin it...haha...where got ppl ask ppl to rite their blog longer one...haha...u ah...anyway...today dog tired...mornin...woke up real early to go church...yawn...den i was lyk playin thru out the meetin...haha...so fun...so happy too...until the servin saints had to stop those hu were not payin attention...xD...one of dem is me...haha...anyway...after church...me n dorcas went to the toilet for nothing...wen we got in...stayed dere for a while...i asked dorcas...'y did we cum here in the first place?'she said...'i wanted to ask u dat'...haha...stupidly...we walk out ob the toilet...went downstairs...n setteled in her father's car...today we tight on schedule...so cannot eat wit her...*sobs*...LOL...anyway...me n family went to paragon to eat...shun bian go buy new phone for me...got dis really cute phone...wanted a slide phone...but daddie say too x...$500 onli wor...kor kor one more wor...but neber mind...at least got new one...i actually lyk 6610i coz ob the pattern...didnt noe dat T630 the function chao good...=P...good thing i listen to daddie...haha...den we go tao payoh go buy a gold plate for my granny de mei mei de weddin aniversary de present...den we spent lyk 1 hour plus dere...haha...den mommie tell daddie since dotter listen to you n bought the cheaper phone...shouldnt we gib her something...den mommie say...since the phone i bought was $98...while the phone i wanted to buy was $198...so should return me $100...so i was lyk...O.O...*wide-eyed*...r we discussin about money here!!!juz bcoz i listen to daddie...i get $100...wOhOo~~~haha...so good!!!hopefully my next tym buyin phone cum faster...hehe...u ppl should noe y eh...haha...den wen we got home...i kept playin wit the phone...thou hard to adapt...but its quite fun...haha...den play the phone play until naw lor...long rite...hehe...anyway...gtg sleep le...so first send everyone a song...very nice...touchin...sweet...okay...its ai wo de zi ge by s.h.e...

爱我的资格

把手放了我也许会比较快乐我也许会换个情人我也许不会在撑

真的够了能不能让雨别再下了能不能让心别再疼了能不能不要开灯

我们的爱跟着你小的剧本出现了越来越多的角色我是你什么人如果不是情人是不是不要再浪费我的人生你比我更清楚

你对我多好多温柔多认真不构成爱我的资格除非你只看着我想着我只有我爱本来就该独一无二为你伤心多一点少一点流下的眼泪都一样不值得世界上那么多人只有我一个人能拯救自己的快乐不要再为你哭了-

2004-11-07T01:27:00.000-08:00

-hehe...okay...today quite tired...but nevertheless...muz update ya...today not much happened...woke up...did some hmwk...den went on the net to search for the blogskins...wen i finally found dis cute one...den i came across dis blog...it was about the Lord's grace...i actually wanted to posts it...den wen i checked out my niece-cum-nephew's blog...i saw dat she oso had the same story...but neber mind...ppl can hers...but those hu dunno her...i post it for you all...

One nite...a man had a dream...

He dreamed dat he was walkin...

along the beach wit the Lord...

Arcoss the sky flashed scenes from his life...

For each scence...

he noticed two sets of footprint on the sand:

one belonged to him...
the other to the Lord...

Wen the last scene of his life flashed before him...

he looked back at the footprints in the sand...

he noticed that many times along the path of his life...

dere was onli one set of footprints...

he also noticed dat it happened...

at the very lowest and saddest times of his life...

Dis really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it:

"Lord...you said dat once i decided to follow you...

you'd walk wit me all the way...

but i hav noticed

dat durin the most troulesome times in my life...

dere is onli one sat of footprints...

i dunt understand y

wen i nided you most you would leave me..."

The Lord replied:

"my son...my precious child...

i love you and i would neber leave you...

durin your times of trail and sufferin...

wen you see onli one set of footprints...

it was den dat i carried you..."

its really nice eh?hehe...hope dat those hu believe in the lord...dunt gib up...alwaes noe dat he is dere wit u...to endure all the sufferins wit u...he is alwaes dere...n those hu r not christians...i hope dat after readin dis story...wen u r at ur lowest...alwaes noe dat someone cares for u...n is alwaes dere for u...okay...hope dat everyone lurbbs it...-

2004-11-05T11:38:00.000-08:00

-okay...wednesday n yesterday didnt update coz too tired...so update naw...-

-Wednesday, November 3
today very tired...mornin wake up to do hmwk...afternoon go guzheng...was suppose to b from 1.30-5...in the end...the teacher drag until 6 plus...sigh...tired wor...whole day juz sit lyk dat in the same place...same position for the whole day...tired wor...haha...anyway...wen we finally got our break...me n huiting went to 7-11 to buy food n drinks...haha...the thing is dat...we didnt use the zebra crossin...we jay walked!!!haha...so damm scared lor...heng no teacher...phew...*wipe sweat*...den wen i finally got home...i juz fell onto my bed until mommmie ask me go eat dinner...den juz straight from after dinner go play com le...den at 9pm...wOhOo~~~go watch ren wo ou you...it totally rocks...wee~~~haha...expecially jia jun[toro] n zengkang[yan xing shu]...YAY~~~dey rule my world...wOhOo~~~toro n yan xing shu soooooooo shuai...not fogettin my lil xiao jie!!!wee~~~wu zei...hehe...sotong...so cute...*blur*...haha...i lurbb him!!!i wanna adopt him...=x...hehe...no la...i juz noe dat after dis show ends...im so gonna miss it...heard dat dis show very short nia...so muz cherish everytym i hab wit it...haha...anyway....after dat...wen to play com again...den slept at around 12 am...-

-Thursday, November 4
okay...today woke up early...do hmwk again...den go out wit mommie...first we go kimage go cut hair...den we go shoppin!!!wee~~~haha...althou walk until lyk for 4 hours...my leg pain...but still was great...coz everything i buy...mommie pay...=p...haha...but i felt bad...so wen we went back to bishan...i bought mommie a cup of sugar cane juice...haha...den we went home lor...haha...lurbb my new hair cut...is very nice...hehe...okay...today gonna introduce to u ppl re dai yu lin by s.h.e...very nice song...so try to find the music...-

热带雨林

冷风过境回忆冻结成冰我的付出全都要不到回音悔恨就像是绵延不断的丘陵痛苦全方位的降临悲伤入侵誓言下落不明我找不到那些爱过的曾经你像在寂寞上空盘旋的秃鹰将我想你啃食干净月色摇晃树影穿梭在热带雨林你离去的原因从来不说明穿梭在热带雨林悲伤的雨不停全身血淋淋那深陷在沼泽我不堪的爱情是我无能为力伤心

2004-11-04T00:01:00.000-08:00

-okay...today my first day usin my new blog...coz dere is juz too mani sorrows riten in the other one...so i decided to make myself a new one...thou not much ob a change...coz i lyk dis blogskin alot...so i juz made lil changes...den made a new blog lor...im not sure if u ppl lyk it...but to me...its nice...currently not in the mood for any fun...i wan to concentrate on treatin my broken heart...so...gtg...ciao-